Coming To Terms Of Myself Part 1
Y/n P.o.v
'Had to leave. Something came up, and it needed my full attention. I'll be back when I can.
Love,
Mom.'
I put the small letter on the table and sighed. Mother left to do God knows what, and she just left a letter for it. Not the first time, and neither the last. Doesn't surprise me either because father and Oren do the same. Always leaving out for nowhere because of work. 'I'll probably do the same.' I thought.
I turned around and started heading to my room. It was after midnight, Kala and I just got back from my 'therapy'. Our way back was a silent one. One that I wasn't opposed to because there wasn't anything to be said. And the frustration being released like that, I needed it. Kala helped me go through it, and I'm glad she did. And now, the house for ourselves. 'Wonder how much we can do?' I asked myself in a joking manner. Or was I?
I did my hygiene and got into my room with my pajamas. Then, was met with Kala standing there with the same clothes.
Y/n: "The bath is clear if you wanted to use it. Which, it's weird because there are more bathrooms in this house and you didn't use them." She nodded.
Kala: "I know. But, I already took a shower."
Y/n: "When?" She crossed her arms.
Kala: "When you were contemplating about life while reading that note." I made an 'oh' face. 'That was quick.' I thought. She shook her head. "Do you have spare clothes that I can burrow?" I nodded and pointed at my closet.
Y/n: "Just don't take my hoodie." She started walking towards the closet.
Kala: "Afraid that I keep it?" She teased.
Y/n: "And that I may never see it again."
Kala: "But I'll be wearing it the whole time here. There isn't much of a difference."
Y/n: "There actually is." I sat on my bed while looking at her.
She was rummaging through my closet until she found a white t-shirt. Then, she started to take off her attire slowly. My eyes were just glued to her. Moving her shoulders so that the top started to go down her arms, showing off her glistening and slender shoulders. Her bare back looked smooth. Then, her curvy figure came into view. She stopped when her clothes were at her hips, showing a little bit of her underwear, which it seemed black, her head was turned to the side with a smirk, and looking at me.
Kala: "Enjoying the view?~" I slowly nodded.
Her smirk grew, and she decided to turn around and give me the full view of her bare breast and curvy front body. Slowly, she started to lower her clothes more, her hips swaying a little for it to come off until gravity took over. Her full body, with black panties, was in full view. Curvy, glistening in the moonlight, her breast a good/great size, and her seductive smile on her face was too much to handle. I think I had a drool coming out.
Y/n: "Lord, forgive me that I have sinned." She chuckled while taking the t-shirt and putting it on. "W-Wait!" She adjusted the shirt.
Kala: "I was just teasing you, Y/n.~ We aren't doing it, yet.~" The shirt seemed like it was about to burst, and the end of the shirt was over her butt. I was disappointed but realized something. She said yet.
She walked to my bed and lay down on her side, close to the wall. I was so confused about what she was doing. I lay on my side while facing her. Our hands are almost touching. I mean, it's a twin size bed, I'm pretty sure that one can make it fit if one tried.
Y/n: "So-"
Kala: "How are you feeling?" I was confused until she answered my unasked question. "After the whole thing back at the church?" I held my breath for a moment, then let it out.
Y/n: "Is this some sort of-"
Kala: "I'm here, laying here beside you, because I want to. I want to be beside you when you sleep and wake up because you'll need it." She put her hand on my cheek. "I'm here for you." She caressed my cheek, then slid it down to my hand. I took it and held her.
Y/n: "Just weeks ago, you were the one needing me. My help and support." She giggled.
Kala: "And now, you're the one needing me. And I'll gladly give it." I looked down, and she flicked my forehead. "Not the right time." I chuckled for a moment, then stopped.
Y/n: "I feel relieved. A little bit, though. After that thing at the church, I just wanted to sleep because of how exhausted I was. During, though?" I scoffed and closed my eyes while giving it thought. "I was so angry, hurt, sad, rejected-"
Kala: "Depressed?" I opened my eyes and looked at her. She looked serious yet concerned.
Y/n: "I don't think depression has to do anything with this." She nodded.
Kala: "Being depressed doesn't mean that you're going to kill yourself. It means that you're in a saddened or unhappy state. The feeling of dejection and downhearted." I had a shocked expression. "And you are depressed. You just didn't know until now."
Y/n: "But, how am I?" She sighed. Not an annoyed sighed, but a calmed one.
Kala: "The way your family leaves you out of their problems. Just how you had the argument with your father both times, how your mother and brother don't even tell you the truth, how other people, who aren't even related to you, keeps that same secret. You're being left out. Which also means that you're being lied to. Keeping away something that you deserve to know is something that can not be seen as good for you. You're being abused." She tightened her grip on my hand. "You are a victim. This house full of lies is doing nothing but hurting you psychologically. And how your mother manipulates you to make you think that it's not okay to act the way you did, then to regret it, it's also bad. You have every right to act like that because you're being lied to. I don't see anything rightouse on any of this. They are a bunch of-" She stopped herself from saying any more and looked at me with shocked expression. I felt a tear going across my nose and into my other eye. "Y-Y/n! I'm sorry. I shouldn't h-"
Y/n: "It's ok." I wiped away the tear. "I... You are right. I guess that I am depressed. For a while, now. Never thought I was."
Kala: "That's because you keep smiling through it all and hiding it from everyone. And you didn't know what it really meant until now." I nodded and scoffed in amusement.
Y/n: "It's good to have a therapist in the house." She gave a small smile.
Kala: "Like I said, I am here for you." I nodded again while squeezing her hand a little more. She pulled me closer to her chest while hugging and caressing the back of my head. I felt my face heat up and looked up to her. "And I'll do anything to help you go through this." My eyes softened and wrapped my arms around her waist.
Y/n: "I'm sorry." Good thing she wasn't suffocating me, even though it's a good way to die as a man.
Kala: "For what?" She looked confused.
Y/n: "For not being strong enough." She shook her head.
Kala: "There's no need to be sorry. You have feelings as anybody else and have every right to feel vulnerable. Even express them the way you can. That is what makes us living beings." I cuddled up to her even more and let out a much needed sigh while she kept caressing me. "Wanna skip school tomorrow?" I looked at her a little surprise.
Y/n: "Mother would kill me if I skip school." I said in a joking and sarcastic manner. She smirked.
Kala: "You are right. We shouldn't. It is forbidden to break such a rule." We both gave out a small laugh.
Y/n: "I'm down for it."
Kala: "Good. Because you need your 24-hour nap, and I need my 48-hour cuddle." I raised an eyebrow.
Y/n: "Is that even a thing?" She nodded.
Kala: "It is now." I closed my eyes.
Y/n: "Then it's good enough for me." Our legs intertwined, we hugged each other more, and she started to hum a lullaby that was comforting.
============Timeskip============
I woke up with the sound of my phone vibrating. I tried to move and grab it, but I was being held. I opened my eyes to see Kala looking at me while hugging me. I sighed with a smile.
Kala: "You look like you had a good sleep." I nodded.
Y/n: "Did you get your 48-hour cuddle?"
Kala: "Almost." She tightened her grip on me, and I nuzzled more into her.
Y/n: "What time is it?" My voice was a little muffled, but she understood.
Kala: "It's the afternoon. The sun is starting to set." I took a deep breath, taking her fragrance, and sighed.
Y/n: "Well, that's a much needed sleep. Wanna keep going?" I opened one eye and looked at her. She had a small smile.
Kala: "Wouldn't ask for more." I closed my eye, but the sound of my phone vibrating restarted, and it was a little bothersome. "It's been going like that for an hour."
I opened my eyes wide, quickly untangled myself from her, sat on the edge of my bed, and grabbed my phone while looking who it was. 'Rias Gremory'. I threw my phone on the nightstand and sighed in annoyance.
Y/n: "What the hell she want?"
Kala: "Gremory?" I nodded. "For her to be calling you for almost an hour, must be important."
Y/n: "I don't want to think about it like that. It's always something that she wants." The phone started to vibrate again. I sighed, took it, answered, and put it on speaker. "You sure are persistent, Gremory. What i-"
Rias: *Irina's injured!* My eyes widened, my body stiffened. *Xenovia and Kiba are nowhere to be seen. I suspect that they are in pursuit. We are heading to the school with Irina so we can heal her. But it's also the place where we are taking the fight to. And one more thing, Kokabiel is the one who is responsible for her injuries.* I let out an angry and shaky sigh.
Y/n: "I'll be there!" I hung up and started to get dressed.
Kala: "I'm heading to Azazel to let him know of what is going on." I finished dressing in some civilian clothes. "I'll meet you at the school as soon as I can." I nodded and put my two pistols on my back. She was dressed and ready.
Y/n: "That would put a target on you when he sees you." She took hold of my cheeks and caressed them.
Kala: "They will need all the help they can get." I nodded while grabbing my jacket and putting it on.
Then, I find myself in front of the school and no Kala. She teleported me to the school. It was getting dark. I looked at the entrance and saw the Student Council and the ORC. Rias, Akeno, Sona, Tsubaki, and Asia weren't there. Tsubasa took notice of me.
Tsubasa: "OI, ROOK-BUDDY!" She waved at me, and everyone turned around. I walked to them. "How's it going?" I shrugged.
Y/n: "Just woke up and a little pissed at what happened."
Ruruko: "Just woke up? Were you sleeping the whole day?" I nodded. "Skipping school, eh? Nice."
Y/n: "Needed the rest."
Yoshi: "Good for you. All I got was a thousand spanking. If you were there, you would've gotten some as well."
Y/n: "As kinky as that sounds, I'm not part of no peerage. Stop forgetting that."
Issei: "Y/n." I turned to him. "You heard?" I nodded. "I-"
Rias: "You're here." I looked behind Issei and saw Rias with the rest who were missing.
Y/n: "How is she?"
Rias: "She's healed, but unconscious." I nodded. I looked to her side, and Sona was looking at me with guilt, then looked away. I sighed. Suddenly, someone took hold of my hand, pulled me, then took hold of Sona, and dragged her as well.
Sona: "T-Tsubaki!"
Tsubaki: "You two clearly need some time for yourselves, so I'm giving both of you an opportunity to fix the mess between you. Y/n, you avoiding Lady Sitri is the worst action you have taken and the most immature." I was going to say something, but she continued. "And Lady Sitri, with all due respect, I am getting a little annoyed of your little excuse of not finding time to search and talk to him. You have a device to call him or send someone to fetch him to the office." We entered the school building, and she literally shoved us inside. "I'll take any punishment from you, my lady. But, this is for your own good. So, talk or kiss or do what needs to be done, so both of you are in the same or best term from here on out. I'll make a barrier with the rest of the council so nothing outside the school grounds be destroyed. Good luck!" She slammed the doors.
We stayed there, standing and looking at the door for a couple of seconds, trying to process what had just happened. I looked at her, and she looked at me.
Y/n: "That's the most I've heard her talk. And the first time, I heard her a little mad." She nodded.
Sona: "She has her moments. Does not show it to many people."
I looked away while putting a hand in my pocket and the other behind my head. It felt awkward just standing here for no reason. Even though we knew what had to be done, it was kind of hard just how it came to these circumstances.
Y/n: "Listen, about the other night, you don't have to apologize. Everything you said was true."
Sona: "Yet, I called you a parasite." I looked at her, and she was looking down in shame.
Y/n: "You didn't call me a parasite directly. It was more to the human-"
Sona: "And you are a human. I said those things and saw how you felt. It hurt you to the very core. I shouldn't have said that."
Y/n: "You said it out of anger. I tend to make people angrier than they should."
Sona: "I should've kept my composure."
Y/n: "Hey."
Sona: "It would've been different if I hadn't lost control."
Y/n: "It's o-"
Sona: "Things would not have turned out like this if I ha-" I took hold of her arms, turned her to look at me.
Y/n: "Sona!" Her eyes were wide with tears threatening to come out. I sighed and smiled at her while moving both of my hands to her cheeks. "You were jealous because of the name a gave to Rias." She sniffled and opened her mouths. "And mad because of how I treated her. It's understandable that you wanted to help your best friend." I used my thumb to wipe away the tear from her eyes. "You have every right to be mad at me. I'm sorry for causing you so much trouble."
She closed her eyes and leaned in to the touch with a smile. I leaned forward and kissed her forehead. I separated and saw her eyes widened, her cheeks with a red tint, and her mouth opened. Then, she closed her mouth with a smile, placed her hands over mine, and her eyes were half opened. Suddenly, she took my hands, got on her toes, and kissed my cheek.
I felt my cheeks warm up, and my eyes widened, but my smile never went away. She was inches away from me, her smile and eyes stayed the same, while looking at my eyes, then to my lips.
Sona: "I... I have to go..." She said in a low voice but never backed away.
I squeezed her hands and nodded. Slowly, she started to lean forward. I started to do the same. And then, our li-
Issei: "Ayo, we got stuff to d-" Issei burst through the door and stopped mid sentence, realizing that he had just interrupted.
Sona turned to him with pink cheeks but with an angered expression. I slowly turned to him and gave the side eye anger stare. He scratched the back of his neck while giving an apologetic smile.
Tsubaki: "I told you," she suddenly appeared while grabbing him from the back of his shirt, "to give them privacy," she swung him around and threw him to the side, "unitl they are ready!" She closed the door while apologizing.
We sighed, separated from each other, and let go of each other.
Sona: "We really have to go." I nodded.
Y/n: "Yeah, guess so." She sighed once again and turned to the door. I took hold of her arm, pulled her into a hug, and gave her a peck on her lips. Her eyes widened, her cheeks flushed, and her hands gripped my arms. "The kiss was long overdue. Wish it was in better circumstances, though." I smirked while caressing her back. Then, I let her go. She was too stun to even move away from me, so I waved my hand in front of her. "Uh, Sona-chan?" She was still holding onto me.
She caught me by surprise when she pulled me down and kissed me. This one lasted more than I expected. She was still blushing, and her grip in my arms was strong. She separated and looked at me while sighing in relief.
Sona: "I apologize. I shouldn't have been so impulsive." She caressed my arm, then leaned her head forward and rested on my chest. "But, I'm glad I did." She contradicted herself.
I took hold of her chin and made her look at me. She had her eyes half open and her lips parted. I leaned forward, gave her a proper kiss, and she kissed back. One of her hands rested on my chest while the other was still on my arm. My hands landed on her waist and held her close to me. We parted and looked at each other.
*SLAP*
I put my hand on my cheek and looked at her with wide eyes. She just suddenly slapped me. Her face had a little anger yet disappointment.
Y/n: "The hell was that for!?"
Sona: "Even though I continued our little moment, you still stole my first kiss without consent." She said calmly with a small smirk on her lips. I understood why she slapped me, and I sort of deserved it. Can't argue against the reason either, but she still initiated the second kiss and said that she was glad she did. "Also," she slapped my other cheek. Now, I had both of my hands on both of my cheeks, "that was for collaborating with Saji on helping the church." I was shocked but looked at her with a raised eyebrow. 'Ok, I deserved that one, but I was dragged to it as much as him.' I thought.
Y/n: "Am I getting a thousand spanking as well?" She raised her hand to head level, and a small magic circle appeared on her hand.
Sona: "Do you want some?" I shook my head.
Y/n: "No. But slapping me was a little uncalled for." The magic circle disappeared.
Sona: "But necessary for my part. Have to make sure that I have to keep my image as the next of House of Sitri." She smiled and closed her eyes while facing the other way. 'You kissed back on our third kiss, though!' I thought. But, what really convinced me that she was playing hard to get was when she gave me a side eye. I chuckled, grabbed her waist, pulled her so our bodies touched, and looked down at her with a small smirk. Her eyes were half open, but raised eyebrows in surprise, her hands holding my arms, and a daring smile.
Y/n: "Then, may I, Y/n L/n from Nobody's House, have a kiss from Sona Sitri from the House of Sitri?" That sounded like a proposal. The only things that were missing were me on my knees and a ring. She caressed my arm and got on her tippy toes.
Sona: "Now that is how you ask a girl properly for a kiss.~" I leaned forward, and our lips connected.
After our fourth kiss, she went back to her peerage with a smile while telling me to be careful. After a while, Rias and her peerage, except Kiba, came in.
Rias: "It seems like both of you have finally talked things out." Her voice had some sort of jealousy. I, of course, had to keep putting coal to the fire, just to see their reaction.
Y/n: "We fixed the problem with more than talking." Her eyes widened and was going to say something, but Issei beat her to it.
Issei: "The hell you mean by that!?"
Akeno: "Ara, did you do something lewd to her.~" Her hand was on her cheek with lustful eyes.
Y/n: "More like she slapped the hell out of me." I caressed my cheek while still feeling the sting from her hand. She has small hands and skinny finger, and they felt like a whip. "But, I kinda deserved it for helping the church with Yoshi." They looked confused. "Saji. I gave him the nickname Yoshi." Rias walked closer to me and stood in front of me. 'Now that I realize, she's taller than me.' I thought. Suddenly, she punched the top of my head really hard. I got to my knees while holding my head. Looking up with teary eyes, just for drama, and with anger expression. "That freaking hurt!"
Rias: "Good." I saw her fist with a magic cicle on top. "That's for not telling me that Issei and Koneko were planning to help the church. And that you involved Kiba into it." I stood up and glared at her while she returned it.
Y/n: "Stop treating me like if I am part of your peerage!"
Rias: "I am not going to since you're still involving yourself in it." She said calmly. I felt a nerve popping on my head.
Akeno P.o.v
They kept on bantering to each other while I just giggled to myself. 'Ara, they are like a married couple.' I thought with amusement.
I looked to my side and saw Issei looking at them with troubled eyes. I felt his insecurity. Looking back at the arguing 'couple', I kept on thinking of what I thought the other day.
Issei is madly in love with Rias, but Rias is having trouble deciding which man she's going to pick, and she doesn't know it.
She told me that after the little argument with Y/n, and getting on the griffin with Issei, she was going to give her first kiss to Issei when he told her that he was going to protect her no matter what danger comes, but she held back. The urge to do so was great, but the reason she didn't do it was a mystery to her.
Knowing her, if Y/n wasn't in the picture, she would've taken it without a second thought. But Y/n is in the picture, and soon within her heart.
If she chooses Y/n, if she manages to thaw his heart and make him fall for her, Issei is going to be heartbroken. Good thing that Asia is beside him, but it won't be enough. But, if she chooses Issei, Y/n wouldn't care unless he's putting his feelings away and argues all the time with her as a facade.
I looked at Issei first, then at Y/n. Both have the willpower to protect those they care about till they die. One devil and one human. One fighting for their own lust for women and one fighting for their moral code.
It's exciting to see who would win and terrifying to how far they would take it if the time comes when both would collide against each other.
'It will be an exciting outcome indeed.' I thought while imagining both standing against one another.
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A/n: Hmm, it certainly seems like things are going to get very interesting between them. The love triangle is way better than the one from Twilight.
Finally got to understand why Y/n feels like he does and got to make up with Sona in more ways than one... hehe.
Sorry for being late. Had to move out from the States, and it took too long to do so.
Hope you liked it. Vote and comment, and stay tuned for next chapter.
Have a good day or night,
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