It was two days after Christmas and Britt and I where up in the cabin for our own little Christmas. It was mostly an exchange of things we'd rather have people not see. Like how I got her a few new books on how to make homemade bombs, different kinds of acids, and one on diy crafts. She may be crazy, but she does have a few normal hobbies. She had gotten me several new outfits that I don't want people to see. Like the one I had just put on.

"Look at you! You're so pretty." She cooed at me.

I giggled as a spun in a circle. I was wareing a black shirt that's sleeves hung off my shoulders. It had a loose piece of cloth that wrapped all around my shoulders and hung down about three inches. It fitted my form very nicely too. For bottoms I was in a white layered skirt with black trim around the end of each layer. It stoped just above my knees. I had on black strap on heels and a white, thin belt around my waist.

"You look great, but if you bend over I can tell that you'd wearing boxers." She said with a knowing smirk.

"Okay, and?" I said warily. I knew that smirk.

"I know that you haven't expressed an interest yet, but I figured that was mostly because you veiw this" She gestered to my outfit. "as weird enough already. But I thought that you might like to try this. You don't have to like it or even try it on, but know that I won't judge you or think any less of you if you wear it." She rambled.

"What?" I asked as I walked up to her.

She reached behind her and pulled something out from her backpack. "These." She held out a pair of white lacey panties. My face whent on fire with my blush

"Oh." I said wide eyed.

"Like I said you don't have to put it on, but it is an option if you want to at least try and see how they feel." She said as she held them out to me.

Still blushing like a tomato I gently took them and held them out. I thought for a long time about it. I had always wanted to try them on, but felt like they would have been a step too far to asked of my friend. But she knew what I wanted, like always.

"Yea, I want to put them on." I said as I steped into the tiny bathroom.

I sliped out of my boxers, but hesitated for a moment before putting the panties on. Putting on a skirt seemed almost natural, if not a little weird, to me the first time I did it. This feels like I'm about cross a line. Not a bad one, just one that will lead to something completely different and new. Another new change to my life.

I let out a breath and sliped on the sliky undergardments. They were a little softer then I thought that they would be. I hiked up my skirt and looked in the broken mirror we had. I turned all around to see from every angle. They deffently didn't cover as much as my boxers did, but they did look much better. They didn't cover all of my butt and it honestly made me look a little sexyer. Espesialy if I bent over. I smirked before exsiting the bathroom

"So what do you think? Good idea or?" Britt asked.

"It was a good idea. I love them." I said as a I bent at the waist twords her.

"Good. Hehe. I think Ivan would love them too. Especialy when he gets the chance to bend you over a table. He hikes up your pretty little skirt and sees your cute bubble butt just barely covered with those silk panties. Now imagin his hands-" She smirked with a light of mischief in her eyes.

"Oh my God, stop." I shouted, completly interupting her. I burried my blushing face in my hands.

"What?" She asked. "Their's no harm in fanticising. I thought you wanted something like that to happen."

"I do, it's just." I satrted but stoped and let out a heavy sigh.

"Just what?" She asked. Concern instantly showed on her face.

"What if he doesn't like me like that. I mean he is from Russia. Being gay is forbiden and seen as a mental illness there. What if he ends up hating me for what I am. I mean, not only am I gay, but I also dress up like a female. What i-if he t-thinks th-at I'm-m discusting? W-wh-at i-i-if-f e-ev-ery-o-one t-t-thin-ks t-that I-I-i'm d-disc-u-us-stin-g?" I sobed out as I fell back on the bed.

I curled up around a pillow and started sobbing into them. I felt a portion of the bed dip as Britt sat down next to me. I didn't remove my face from my pillow. She didn't try to make me. She only pet my shoulders while I rode out the worst of my little breakdown. This isn't the first time that I've broken down because of how I am, and it probably wont be the last time eaither. Every time I do I know Britt will be right there to take care of me, like always.

"Hey. It's gonna be okay. If every single person finds out and decides that they hate you for it, it's still gonna be okay. You hear me? If everyone decides to turn their back on you just because of who you want to love, it will be okay. You wanna know why?" She asked me. I turned to look at her. "It's gonna be okay because I'll still be right here for you. If everyone decides to leave you then I'll fill their places. If your family decides that they want nothing more to do with you then I'll be your family. If Ivan decides to hate you just beacause you like boys then he doesn't deserve you. And I'll be by your side untill you find that one person who does. If everything falls apart around you then I'll be there to help you build something better. I will always be there to hold and love you. For as long as I live, this is my promise. And you know me. I never break a promise."

I shot up and hugged her tightly. She hugged back just as hard. We stayed like that for a long time.

"I love you." I told her.

"I love you more." She said as she hugged me tighter. "Don't worry Juliet. I'll help you get with Romeo."

"Please don't comepare our relationship to them. They died after three days and got a lot of people killed in the process too. I don't want anyone to die."

"You got it love."