Today was the first day back from school. I was kinda annoyed that Andy started smoking a lot more then he used to but I was trying to get him to stop. There were times were he would try to get me to try it but I would normally get mad and walk away from him but other times I would grab it from him and stop on it. He would get annoyed but he seemed to always have some with him.

It was lunch so I go out to the football field and lay on the floor. I soon smell smoke and I knew Andy was coming. I look up to see him  looking down at me. I sit up as he sits down. "Why don't you just stop with this?" I say pointing to the thing in his hand. I still have no clue what it was called. 

"Because, I can't." I roll my eyes and take it from him. I walk over to the sidewalk and stomp on it. "What the fuck Remington!?" I look at him. "What do you mean 'What the fuck'? You don't want to see me die but your okay with letting yourself die slowly!? You know what?! Fuck you! I am trying my best to help you but you obviously don't want it!" I was getting mad. More than I have ever been. 

"Fuck you Remington." Was all he said before he pulled another thing out of his pocket and lit it. "ANDY!" I scream at him. "What?!" I was on the verge of tears. He is basically killing himself in front of me. "Stop! I don't want to see you killing yourself!" He rolled his eyes and scoffed. "Then leave! No one is making you stay here." I shake my head and turn around. I let out a choked sob as I start walking away. I got far but not too far to the point were he couldn't hear me if I said something. "We-" I pause for a second. "I can't do this anymore...We are done." I say before walking away. 

He didn't say anything to me the rest of the day. He didn't try to do anything in class. He sat with Juliet in class and walked home with his friends. I told Emerson and Sebastian what happened and they were helping but not enough. I decided to write a song about him. Something to help me remember I can do better. I decided to make a logo and stuff for the band Emerson and Sebastian agreed to start. When I showed them the songs I had and the logo and name they smiled and we started the one song. I was going to write the song about Andy later. Right now I don't need to be worried about him.

Once we were with the songs we talked for a little while the audio was out for the world to see. I already had a few people who followed me so I made a band account and then tagged my brothers and the band account on Instagram in a picture I took of us and our band equipment. I posted it and then went to my room to work on my song.

As soon as I finish the song I look at my phone to see that the songs already had over 1,239 likes on youtube. I looked at the Instagram account and see that we have over 3,297 followers. I run to my brothers and show them, We showed out mom and she smiled. I then get a message from a music company. They wanted to sign us. I smile and told them that I had to talk too my brothers. They said they understood and that they will be waiting for an answer. I sigh and lay on my bed. I can't believe this.

"Rem?" I look up to see Emerson. "Yeah?" He smiled. "Mom wants to talk to us." I nod and get off my bed. We walk downstairs and sit in the dining room and wait for my mom to come out with food. When she does she had a smile on her face. "What's up?" I ask while eating. "Well, it's all up to you guys but do you want to drop out? I mean, so you can focus on music?" I smile. "Yeah sure, OH! Speaking of music, This record label wants so sign us. Sumerian Records?" Emerson almost spit out his water. "They signed Sleeping with Sirens, I love them! What did you tell them?" I smile and nod. "I told them I would ask you guys, What do you say?" They both smile. "Hell yes!" They say at the same time.

"That's hella creepy." I say laughing, I pull my phone out and message them back. I smile when they respond right away. They said that it was great and if we could meet up with them one day. I told them that would be good and then we set up a date. "Well, He have a record label." I say smiling. "Now lets finish eating." They nod and we eat. I walked upstairs when I was done and I went to Andy's contact and then sigh. "He needs to help himself before he does anything else Rem." I sigh and then go to Instagram. I look at who was following me and I see Andy's account. I click on it and then see pictures of us- Well me.

I look at the last one he posted. 

AndyBiersack I had a great time with you @Remingtonleith

I sigh and like the picture. I then go back to my contacts and find Andy's name. I click call and put it to my ear. one ring, two rings. "Remington?" I hear Andy's voice. "I- I wan't to say sorry about earlier.." He sighed then says something. "Rem, I-" He get's cut off by someone -Juliet- talking. "Babe? Who are you talking to?" I freeze and felt a single tear drop. "I- uh- no one, I'll be there in a moment. Sorry Rem-" I let out a small sob. "No, don't 'Rem' me! You have no fucking right to call me Rem! I just wanted to tell you that I made it and I'm not coming to school again. Bye Biersack." I say and then hang up before he could say anything. I went to Instagram and then unliked the post before unfollowing him.

I then went to my account. I posted a picture of me crying. I know that it sounds fucked up and petty but I did and then tagged Andy and Juliet in it.

Remingtonleith When the one you loved moves on quickly. Not even a Fucking day and he's out there with a girl. @AndyBiersack @JulietSimms

I disabled the comments and then turned my phone off. I walk over to my desk and start working on new songs. I then hear my phone go off. I look at it and see I had a new follower. Monica Ollander. I look at there profile and notice that she was really pretty. 

I sigh and turn my phone off and then get dressed for bed. I can't deal with this anymore. Tomorrow I was going to go to school and empty my locker. After that, well, I was going to go live my life the way that I want to.