"I'm going out to meet up with my friends, wanna come?" I nod. "Can you at least listen to me this time?" He nods and kissed my cheek. "Yeah, I'm sorry about yesterday." I nod and we leave the house. We walked to the rail road again and I see the same boy as yesterday smoking. "Andy! you made it...and you brought him again...great. Are you going to run home crying without Andy again?" I sigh and look at Andy. He rolled his eyes at the guy and looked at me. "Look, leave Remington alone." He says to the boys before kissing me. "Go sit down." He whispered and pointed to the spot I sat in yesterday. I nod and sit down, I pull my phone out and start writing a song. I then hum it out when I finish writing. I sigh when I can't really hear myself. I look at Andy who was smoking again. He looked at me and smiled. He walked over to me and sat next to me. 

"You okay?" I nod. "I'm going to go to the field." I say pointing to the field. "Is it the smell?" I shake my head. "No- Well yes but no. I can't hear myself, I'm trying to write a song but I need to hear myself sing it, but because I don't know them, I'm not going to actually sing." He frowns. "Sing for me. I want to hear it." I look at the boys and nod. I look at the song and sigh. I start singing and then it got quiet. All you could hear was my singing and them taking a breath in and out as they smoked. Once I finish they went to talking again and Andy smiled. "That was amazing, wanna try this?" He asked holding the thing up. I shake my head and he sighs. He got up and pulled my arm up too. He kissed me roughly before pulling away and taking another breath in. He took me closer to his friends and started talking. 

"Where did you find him? He is no fun. Oh! We should play spin the bottle!" One of the guys said. "Yeah, that sounds good." Andy says. I look at him sadly and then look at my phone. He smiled at me and kissed my cheek. "Your going to play too." I shake my head and continue to look at my phone. "I'm going to go Andy. I don't want to be here when you suck other peoples faces off." He looked at me and shrugged. "I can make it up to you later." I roll my eyes and walk away. "BABE! I was joking, come here!" I flip him off and walk to the mall. I look around the mall until I find a hot topic. I smile and look around. I see some My Chemical Romance stuff and I quickly run over to look at it.

"Hey." I turn and see a really cute guy. "Hi." I say blushing. "Your cute, what's your name." I blush more. "I have a boyfriend, sorry." He smiled. "I don't see him anywhere." I nod. "He's out with his friends." I say slightly annoyed. "Someone how is lucky enough to have you shouldn't leave you alone...Come with me, I want to show you something." I nod and follow him into one of the work closets. "I will show you a good time and you can tell me if you want him or me." I blush and nod. He smirked and kissed me. I kissed him back and he started unbuckling his jeans. He pulled his jeans off and then pulled mine off quickly. 

He lifted me and pushed me against the wall. He pushed into me and I moan. Wait- what am I doing. He started thrusting into me and I moan. I need to stop. "Fuck...I- Faster!" I moan. Shit! Stop this now! Remington! "I- I cant do this..." I say but he doesn't stop. "Please." He sighed and pulled out, He put me down and kissed me before getting his jeans on. I get mine on and then leave the room to see Andy frozen. I walk to him but he walked away. He heard. 

"Andy..I-" He shook his head and tears started falling from him eyes. I grab onto his hand and start crying. "Please, Andy...I stopped it as quick as it started. I-I'm sorry! I fucked up." I cry. He looked at the guy who I was in the closer with. "You obviously like him more than you like me." I shake my head. "No, Andy, I love you, I really do. Please." He looked down and pulled his hand from my grip. "Fuck you Remington." I shake my head and cry more. "Please, Andy...I-" He shook his head and walked away. I run after him and pull him back. "Andy! Stop!" He turned around. He looked angry but his eyes were also red and puffy. "Andy, I know I fucked up but please. I love you, I- I can't go a single day without you.." He shook his head and pushed me to the floor. 

I heart sank and I grunt. I get up and run. I from the mall and ran home. I laid in bed and cried. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore. Why am I so fucked up!? I get up and look in the mirror. I went to my bag and grab my makeup bag. I open it and put the makeup on my face, I cover my freckles and I put eye shadow on. I look in the mirror and frown. I slap my face and pull my hair before sitting on the floor. I look in my bag until I find something no one knew I had. I grabbed my antidepressant pills. I sit on the floor near the toilet. I take one, then two, then three, I don't stop until I felt myself get sick. I put the pills down and lay on my back. If anything, I will choke on my vomit, the vomit that will make me throw up the pills. I sigh and look up before closing my eyes and letting this happen.

I soon and getting woken up by yelling. "Remington! Spit it out!" I could hear Andy. "Remington! UGH!" He was getting annoyed. I roll my eyes and push him away. I was already choking on the vomit. I just needed him to stay away from me. He pushed me on my side and I spit the vomit out. I groan and get up. "What the fuck Andy!? Why couldn't you leave me be!?" He got up and slapped me. "I may be mad at you but I don't want my boyfriend to die!" I scoff. "Boyfriend!? Fuck you, You never liked me. I tried to tell you that it was a mistake, I told you I fucked up, I was begging you but you gut pushed me to the floor so sorry if I tried to do something because no one cares about me enough to stop me!" I shout and run out the room. I get pushed onto the bed and then Andy got on top of me. 

"I love you Remington, I really do but when you had sex with some other guy, that hurts." I sigh and look down. "I said I was sorry..I told you I fucked up." Andy nods and lifted my head. "I know, It's okay." I kook up at him and start crying. He pulled me into a hug and I cry on his shoulder. "I love you Rem, Nothing will change that." I pull away from the hug and kiss him. "I love you too."