I smile at everyone, no-one asking me what happened, all of them just happy to see me again so soon. Evan never leaves my side, he drags me to the kitchen smiling as he grabs us something to drink. He hands me a cup and puts his arm around my shoulders, kissing my cheek. Then I hear a voice I've also missed alot,

I turn around to see Jill my best girlfriend in California, I run up to her throwing my arms around her, "Jilly!!!!!"

Jill laughs and hugs me back, "Lex!"

She steps back looking me over not commenting on how I looked, I honestly love my life in California better. Everyone here didn't ask they already knew, something bad happened, I'd tell them if I wanted to. They never pushed for information, my phone chimes with a text from my mom

Mom<3-Hey sweety! Hope your having fun in Cali. Call me tomorrow sweety! Love you

Me-I am loving it here as always mom. I will call when I wake up, I promise and I love you too. Tell Dad I'm fine, I know he is wondering

Mom<3-Lol I will sweety, your dad is just worried about you, you haven't really told us what happened.

Me-Mom, It's only because I can handle it alone, I know you want to help but I've got this mom. 

Mom<3-Okay sweety bye have a nice night

Me-Thanks mom you too 

I put my phone on camera and pull Jill into a selfie with me, we make faces and snap a picture laughing, I post it on facebook with #PartyingwithJilly, I also tag her in it. I walk over to Evan who is now sitting next to Gavin on the couch, I sit on both their laps, snapping a selfie with them posting it, with #Myboys<3 tagging them in it. I also snap a few pictures of everyone dancing and having fun, before I snap a picture of me and Evan kissing. I post it with #Mylife<3. Before I exit facebook a comment pops up from Sean saying

Is that your bf? You look stunning

I stare at my phone for a moment, before exiting facebook, and ignoring the post. I sit on the boys lap for awhile, as we all talked and laughed together. A few moments later Jill is dragging me onto the 'dance floor', I don't protest dancing along to the music. I lose track of time as I party with my Cali friends, people take pictures of us all dancing,  posting them on Facebook, and tagging everyone. Evan and Gavin finally make their way onto the dance floor, dancing with me, as pictures are still snapped, posted and tagged. I stopped caring, having way to much fun, let everyone see I'm enjoying time away.

I was gonna have an email in the morning with all assignments for 2 months. Deadlines, projects, tests, and homework all while I soak up the beautiful California beaches. Time blended together and before we knew it, it was 10pm and Evan wanted me alone to himself for a bit. He pulled me away from Jill, who smiled at us and said goodnight.

He took my hand and we walked back to his house, as we got there he unlocked his door. We walked into the dark house, his parents worked nights, we were alone. Evan smiled big and took me up to his room, he closed his door, locks it and turned to me. He pulled me into him smiling, he then softly kisses me and then my bruises on my shoulders. We sit on his bed and he looks at me seriously before saying,

"Lex, this might be a weird request, but seeing how its my birthday.....do you think maybe..." he leans over to his nightstand and pulls out a condom.

I look at him, "You want me to be your first? "

He nods, "Yeah seeing how I don't date anyone, wanting you is all I want, but you live so far away and only come once a year."

I looked at him and smiled,"I might regret this, but yes I'll be your first. Also during breaks I'm gonna be coming here."

He leaned in kissing me smiling, "I'd love that!" 

I kiss him back and things begin from there, heating up between us, until its finally done and are no longer virgins. After he finishes, he gets up getting dressed and finding me a clean shirt of his. He hands me one and I go shower, coming back in his long shirt and my underwater underneath. I grab my cell laying on my stomach, I pull him down next to me and snap a picture with him shirtless. He kisses my cheek as I look up at the ceiling snapping another picture. He honestly made things easy, I looked at him and sighed wishing we could be an item for real. He made me feel special and he also made me feel safe. He pulled out his phone, going on Facebook, looking thru all the pictures and comments. He sees Sean's comment and looks at me,

"I think I figured out Sean's problem......he likes you Lex"

I look at him, "Hey, no way he punched me and shoves me into lockers!! He's fucking psycho."

That makes Evan laugh, "He definitely has a problem expressing feelings, remember Darren? He did this to a girl he loved, now there dating."

My jaw drops, "No way!"

Evan nods, " Yes way doll"

I yawn and smile, "He's a Bully..."

Evan looks at me, "Okay he might be but, this time away from you, might change his attitude. Give him some time he'll be messaging you apologizing or he'll do it to your face when you go back home." 

I look at him sighing and yawning again, "Maybe, guess we'll see, if that's the case during my trips here, we wont be able to do what we do now"

Evan nods, "I know, if he does like you and you give him a shot and it doesn't work, I'm always here...."

I look at him, "If that happens, I'll seriously consider either long distance with you, or asking my mom and aunt if I could move here...."

He looks at me, "I'd love that, you stay in contact even if your dating anyone please?"

I nod, "Of course."

I lay down on Evan's bed and yawn big, he lays next to me and puts his arms around me. I slowly fall asleep next to him, I sleep throughout the night until around 8am. I wake up Evan still asleep next to me, I get up slowly and quietly. I grab my running stuff out of Evan's dresser, changing, grabbing my phone and headphones.

I put my headphones in and put my playlist on, I walk out the front door quietly and then start to jog. I jog for a hour and a half before, heading back to my aunts changing quickly, then heading back to Evan's. As I quietly enter Evan's house, I wave to his mom who just got home, she waves back smiling. I walk upstairs and slowly open Evan's bedroom door, peeking in seeing him still passed out. I quietly giggle to myself and go lay back next to him as I do, he wakes up scooting closer to me. I smile and give him a quick kiss,

"Morning sleepy, can I use your laptop to print my classwork out?" I ask him

He nods, "Of course you can."

I smile, get up and walk over to his desk, sitting down. I open his laptop, type in his password logging in, I open the internet and log into my email. I open the one from my principal with my list of stuff for two months, I sigh and print out my first weeks work. I pull one of Evan's new folders off his shelf above his desk, putting the papers in it. 

I begin reading some of my assignments, sighing at the project for chem class. Evan comes over and looks at my papers saying,

"Need help?" 

I look at him smiling, "Yeah but, you have school," I hug him, "Go before your late! Meet me at my aunts after school."

Evan kisses me softly smiling, "Count on it doll."

I smile kissing back, "I will."

He leaves his room as, I pack up and walk out behind him. I hug him goodbye one last time with, him kissing me on the cheek, before he heads off to catch the bus. I walk up to my aunt's house pulling out my keys, I unlock it and go in. My aunt is already gone to work, so the house was mine, I put my bags down and locked the door.

I walked to the fridge, grabbed the milk, then closed the fridge. I walked over to the cabinet, that held the cereal and pulled it out. I grab a bowel from another cabinet, placing it on the counter. I pour some cereal then milk, after that I put the milk and cereal away, then eat and wash my dishes. 

I grab some of the iced coffee my aunt made me, and poured it in a cup half full of ice, and head upstairs with my things. I go to my room, shut the door, and I set my things on my bed. I sit down and pull my laptop over to me. I open it, log into facebook, checking my messages finally giving in. I had about five from Kelly, 3 from Sean and 2 from Justin. I sighed opening Justin's first

Justin-Lexie where are you? I need to talk to you

Lexie your in Cali??? What happened??!

Next I go to Kelly's 

Kelly-Girl!! Whos that hottie??

Oh come on I know your on here, your posting photo's 

SEXI LEXIE ANSWER ME NOW!

Come on this silence is killing me bestie!! Your kissing some guy and posting pictures video message me now! Please?

Lex.......

Lastly I move to Sean's, I'm nervous

Sean-Lexie, I need to talk to you

Lexie please?

Lexie....I really have to talk to you .. .

What the? Why does he need to talk to me? I look at the clock trying to figure out the time difference of 3 hours behind. So it's 11 back home, it's lunch time maybe he'll answer a video call. I go outside and walk down the beach, requesting a video chat with Sean, as I walked it took him a minute to answer. When he did I was walking in the water, half in water half in sand. 

"Hi Sean." I say looking at him.

"Lexie, finally!!!" He says, looking back at me, "I'm sorry, for everything I did to you. I have this feeling you left because of me, when are you coming back? Where are you? It looks beautiful...."

I look at him and gasp, did he really just say sorry? "Uh thank you, I'm in California...."

He looks at me and frowns,  "How long?"

"2 months," I say.

"Damn...I really messed up didn't I?" He replies.

I look at him, "I like it better here, I came because my friends birthday, was yesterday the day I got here. I needed fresh air, you don't know what you've brought back to me, the memories I buried." 

He looks away for a moment, then back at me "I'm really sorry, I wanna make it up to you, when your home call me please, I'm messaging you my cell number."

I nod, "Okay, I'll hear you out when I get back."

I guess I could give that much to him, as long as he plays nice. No more hurting me, just being a friend maybe?

He sighs in relief, " Thanks Lexie."

I smile, " Your welcome, I have to go I have homework and projects."

He smiles slightly and nods, " Yeah lunch is almost over bye."

I sigh, " Bye."

We hang up, I go back into my aunt's and to my room. I sit on my bed, and begin my first weeks worth of homework. Bye the time Evan gets out of school, I'm asleep on my bed books everywhere. 3 weeks of homework done, starting some projects tomorrow. Evan smiles and cleans up my bed, once clean he lays next to me and lays there silently. After an hour of this, I wake up and see Evan playing his phone. I smile and say,

"How long you been there?"

He smiles and puts his phone down, " An hour."

I sit up slowly stretching, then I get up and check my phone. Seeing no new messages or missed calls, I shrugged not minding silence from back home. I looked at Evan and said,

"Damn." 

He smiled at me as I got up, "Where you going?" he asks.

I smile, "Oh you'll see." 

I go into my bathroom and change into my bathing suit and comes out.

"I'm going for a swim," I say as I leave my room.

Evan follows me outside as I run down to the water, running to his house and changes before meeting me down by the water. He picks me up and spins me around, I smile and laugh, he does the same. I never want to leave here, I don't want to go home in 2 months, but I have to. I miss my best friend Kelly, and she misses me. I get lost in the moment with Evan as Gavin, comes up behind me and picks me up running into the water.

He tosses me into the water laughing, I hit the water with a splash laughing. I come back up to the surface, smiling and looking at the boys. We spent the next few hours swimming and playing around, before the boys had to go do their homework. I went back to the house and put on my jogging stuff and headed out with my music blasting in my ears. I begin to jog, losing myself in the music and sort of missing home. I kept running and running taking the long route. After being gone for 2 hours, Evan texts me:

Evan-Hey where are you?
Me-Out for a run
Evan-Okay doll....come over when you get back?
Me-Sure
Evan- <3
Me- <3

I keep running, ending up back home a half hour later. I go in shower real quick and change, then I head over to Evans. I walk in and go to his room, opening the door I smile and say,

"Guess who's back? Back again?"

He bursts out laughing as do I as he says,

"Sexi Lexie is back!"

I just keep laughing at Evan, he made my world whole and I really loved being near him. I look at him after finally calming down from so much laughing,

"Evan you kill me!" 

He laughs again, "Oh I know doll, but your everything to me and I love seeing you smile and laugh."

This brought tears to my eyes, I knew deep down I should just say how I really feel for him. It's eating me alive, but the distance will make that worse, I'll hate myself for leaving here and becoming his long distance girlfriend. I don't think I could make him suffer while I'm thousands of miles away.....I'd stay but I miss home so much. More tears formed as my mind raced and my heart decided it needed to break piece by piece. I just wanted to be with Evan forever, it literally hurt me. At this point, Evan figured something was wrong and he embraced me in his arms. That made it worse as he asked me, 

"Lex what is wrong?" 

I shook my head unable to tell him how I felt. I wanted to but, I wasn't going to tell him. I didn't want him to feel the pain I feel right now. It's not fair, he's prefect for me but I keep thinking of my bully Sean. About how he wanted to talk when I went home, explain himself and his actions. I finally look at Evan and say, 

"I'm sorry Evan, I just can't I'm fine okay?" 

Evan nods and hugs me tighter. I would really miss this the most when I go home. Evan finally let me go and started his homework, the silence got to be to much that I left without a word. I shut myself down, something I didn't do much. All I can hear is Evan calling out to me as I leave,

"Lexie?"

I rush out, ignoring him as tears fell again. I ran into my aunt's and up to my room, locking myself inside. I laid on my bed, buried my face in my pillows, and cried my heart out. I let out everything, from Sean's bullying, Justin's kindness, dying, to Evan's love. I cried harder thinking of Evan, and how I wished I could just fall into him and stay there forever. I heard knocks and voices at my door, I just buried my head further, after putting music on. My door was locked and I didn't want to speak to anyone. 

I fell asleep a few hours later after crying, not bothering to reply to a text my aunt had sent about dinner. I slept the rest of that day and didn't want up until the next morning around 7am. I had a bad headache from crying so much, I dragged myself out of bed and showered. I put my running stuff on and took so aspirin, then I left the house with my headphones in. My aunt was already at work and Evan's car wasn't in his driveway. I was relieved and I began to run, I didn't think of a route today, I just kept running. Some texts popped up and I ignored them. I just wanted to be alone right now and my heart was just so broken by all my thoughts.