Jacks pov.

I wake up the next day and get dressed. But I'm soon to fall back down. I have some sort of group therapy today. Therefore I go to the assigned room and sit in the huge circle. I look around and see the girl I bumped into. See gives me a slightly disgusted glance and then the lead nurse goes to the big seat.
"So everyone. Seeing as you're all new we are going to just get past the hardest part first, starting with Jennifer. What is your story," That's her. She stood up and spoke.
"My mom and dad always had a problem with me going to party's and getting wasted so I hit my mom once and now I'm here,"

"Right. Allie?"

"I'm here because I'm super super reckless. I guess I was so hyper once that i got really angry and hit them super hard, I feel super bad for it though," she spoke in under 7 seconds. She seems nice though.

"Okay jack can you say what happened to you?"

I stood up and took a deep breath.
"I was sexually abused by my dad. I used to work two jobs. I have anorexia and bulimia. I'm bullied at school. I self harm. And I have attempted suicide three times, but I have a boyfriend now that helps me" Oh my goodness I think I spoke quicker than Allie... is that even possible. I sat back down and sniffled. Then another dude stood up.

"I'm Michael. I hear voices that tell me to do bad things and I just need help with that,"

He looks at me and smiles kindly. He seems nice. I kinda smile back.

After another few people stood up and then the nurse shut the session off. Jennifer then came up to me. I immediately turned around quickly but she got me by my hood. She was so strong. Or maybe it's just me being weak.
"So you fucked your dad? Your so gross. So did you like it? Ha. What a whore." She scoffs. Reminding me of my dad. My hands started to shake and i fell to the ground, hugging my knees.
Someone save me. I'm so scared.
"Jennifer!" I hear her run away and the female nurse from earlier comes to me. "Jack what did she do?" She said. Worried. I just shook whilst crying as quietly as i can. I feel a hand on my back. I immediately try and crawl away desperately.
"Jack. Jack! It's nurse lin. You're okay. Your safe," i look at her and start to calm down and cry. My hands are still shaking. "Jack can I help you up?" I nod and she lifts me from the floor. I whimper at the touch but she takes me to the nurses room. She sits me down and looks at me with pity and asks me.
"We have contact information. Do you want to see a specialist or want us to call someone," i try and reply in a quiet, unsteady voice.
"M-m-ma-ark," i say as the tears and flashbacks crowded my thoughts.

"STAY STILL!" one slap.

"Well done kid," he pushes me.

"You little fag!" He rapes me.

"Right honey, he said hell be here soon," i nodded and lifted my knees to the chair. Why did Jennifer do this to me. It took me years to nearly forget my dad. But now I'm back in square one. I feel so much past trauma that it's difficult to speak, walk, even look. I feel disgusting. Again. I'm 13 again.
I've been pushing everything down for so long and it has finally broken into my brain.

I feel a man touch my shoulder and i feel suffocated. I struggle to breath and get away. I look up but everything is blurry with my tears. The brown hair reminds me of my father and I start to just cry and sob. "Shh Shh. Just breathe jack. It's mark," my vision clears up and i see his hazel eyes. I reach my hand up and grip his shirt. I never want to let him go.

"What happened?" He asks the nurse. "A patient named Jennifer must have said something to him. Whatever she said must have brought back trauma, she is moving to another ward for this," mark nodded and hugged me. "Jack where's your room?" I couldn't speak. I started tear up again like a crybaby so I just shut myself up. "I'll show you," the nurse said.
"Cmon. I'll carry you," he lifts me up and i wrap my legs around his waist. He was so strong. I felt safe. He was careful not to hold the wrong places. He held my back as he hushed me. I snuggle into his neck and breathe.

He sits me on my bed and looks at me.
"Baby. What happened?" He was gentle. I could trust him. "M-my d-d-dad. I-I remember, E-e-everything,"
"Jack he's gone now. As long as your with me you are safe, it's gonna get better," i nod quietly. I'm gonna have to get used to it in here.

--Time skip--

In the morning mark had to go and i of course cried. Alot. I was alone, angry and upset. Then Jennifer came along whilst I was walking back to my room

"So you got daddy issues huh?"

That's it. I'm done with her bullcrap.
I tackled her to the ground and pushed my forearm to her neck. She struggled and screamed but i... I laughed at her. She was so pathetic.

Them the jack ass nurse from lunch came and pulled me away. "Hey! Calm the fuck down freak!" Then I tackled him and punched him repeatedly. I was pushed to my limits. What else do they expect. His nose was bloody and i grinned. Then a stronger doctor came and pinned me to the floor. I cried and struggled. Kicking and screaming. Jennifer was watching in fear. She then screamed at me.
"YOU FUCKING PSYCHO! GO FUCKING KILL YOURSELF WHORE!!" Nurse lin came running down the hall and she looked my way with a concerned look on her faced as i kicked and screamed.

"LET ME GO!!... I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU. AAAGGHHHH!!" I screamed until my throat hurt. I kicked until my legs ached. And when it hurt too much I lost consciousness.

Nurse lin's pov.

I ran around the corner to see Jennifer holding her throat and jerad with a bloody face... what on earth could've caused this. The I looked down to see a scared young boy being pinned down by Dr. Ingren. It was jack. He screamed and kicked until he started to lose consciousness. Then Ingren picked him up with ease and carried him to the lock down ward.
That poor boy. I thought as i gave an unforgiving glare at Jennifer. "Jen. What did you say,"
"Jeez. I only said he had daddy issues. It's not my fault he's a freak,"
"Jennifer Larsen you listen to me. Jack is not a freak he is a very scared and troubled young boy. I don't blame him for what he did because you were being so arrogant," i walked away and she was speechless. I went to check on jack and i peered through the slide window in the lock down cell. he was cuffed to the bed and I saw his eyes open a bit. I sighed as he almost lifelessly lay there in the centre of the bed. Staring at the ceiling...

Smiling?

Jacks pov.

I woke up in a different room. I was cuffed to the bed. I just looked at the ceiling, thinking about what I had done. It made me feel insane...
But happy?

I giggled and deliriously looked around the room to catch the shutter slam shut. "H-hello?"
Your weak now.
Idiot.
Whimp.
Your crazy.
Your never going to see mark again.

I start to whimper and cry. Tugging on the cuffs as they open some of my cuts. "P-please let me g-go!" I whine.

After a while my face seemed permanently stained with tears. Until a nurse walked in. "P-p-please let me go!"
"Jack you are extremely unstable. You could've killed two people. You are being permanently moved to the lock down ward. Lunches will be delivered along with medication. And visitors will not be allowed," she uncuffed one hand. "W-what about my boyfriend and mum?" I sniffled. She looks at me sympathetically. "They can send letters to you and phone calls." Shh smiled and before I could protest she left and locked my door. I picked at the other cuff and easily got it off. I looked around my room at a small table on the floor. You'd have to sit on your knees to use it and on top of the small table layed a green sharpie and a bunch of paper... seriously. This is all I get to pass the time?

Whatever. I get off the bed, my knees still aching from the 'episode' I sit at the table on my knees and open the sharpie, starting to doodle my feelings on the paper.

Anger.
Sadness.
Alone.
Whimp
Looser.
Fag.
Emo.
Fuck up.
Cut.
Don't eat.
Fat..
Ugly.

And so the list continued. I flung the papers to the floor as they filled up. Then i heard the door click as the lock was unlatched.

I bolted to the bed and for some reason hid under the covers. I laughed at my obvious hiding place but soon went silent as footsteps aproached. Nurse lin picked up the side of the covers and smiled.
"Wow. I almost couldn't find you," i giggled a bit.

Nurse lin's pov.

For the first time I had seen him smile and giggle. He was like a completely different person. It was cute don't get me wrong. But for a minute I saw him . But I just have to ruin it.

"Jack it's time for lunch. Do you feel okay enough to go to the canteen?" I know he's not aloud but under supervision I don't see why not. He's not dangerous.

He pondered and looked down.
"Y-yes?" I nod and he takes my hand.

Marks pov... Wow ...

I lay in my empty bed wondering how jack was doing. I find it unbelievable that my mom had totally pushed the thought of him aside. Jacks mom was doing the worst. Filling her brain with false information and pcych ward channels on TV. She was terrified. I don't want to tell her how bad jack was when I went to see him because shed go running through walls to get him. That's not a bad thing, just not the best thing.

I'm gonna actually phone the ward to see when I can visit again.

"Hello. Parks ward. Jerad speaking," he said in a monotone voice.
Well he seems like a hoot.
"Hi. I just want to know when i can visit jack again?"
"One minute... ... ... ... ... the nurse says he's on lockdown. He might not be aloud to have visitors," i raise an eyebrow. "Why is he there?"
"Well he lashed out at a girl and punched me multiple times, he had to be restrained,"
I cant believe he'd do that, that dosent sound like him at all. "Can I talk to nurse lin please?"
"Yeah whatever... ... ... ... ... ... hello. Nurse lin speaking"
"Hi it's mark. im calling about jack. Is he okay,"
"Oh lemme guess. Jerad told you that you can't visit him. I'll find a way to get you in. Just call for me when you eyes to the reception."
"Oh. Okay. Thank you so much,"
"Its okay hun. I'm just taking jack to lunch. Shh. It's a secret. Ha. He's doing quite okay today. Except from the outburst.," i smile at that. She's super cool to him. At least he's not alone.

Jacks pov.

Why do I feel so alone.