Little warning but not bc of smut.

JUNGKOOK pov 

 After Jimin massaging my hurting butt and giving me some painkillers he finally let me go home.

 "You sure you can walk alone?" He asked, I can hear concern in his voice. 

"Yes hyung. It's not that late." I smiled and lean my head on his shoulder for a moment."You made me feel so good." I whispered. 

Jimin looked down at me and gently ruffled my hair. "You're so special Jungkook." 

 I blushed and smiled while looking at our intertwined fingers. I do feel special with him. 

 . 

I took the doorknob and opened the doors before looking back at Jimin. He had his hands in pockets of his sweatpants and was smiling at me. 

"Text me when you got home." He spoke.

 "Okay." I turn around and stepped into the hallway of the building. 

"Kitten!" 

 "Hm?"

 "Thank you." I bit my lip and walked back to give him a peck on him swollen wet lips. 

. 

I don't remember their faces. I just know there was no one to help me.

 In that dark alley close to my house and away from Jimin's apartment two boys were waiting for me.Their voices was unfamiliar to me. But they talked like they knew me.

 I don't really know how it all went. Or I wanted to forget. 

But I know I got knocked out when something hit the back of my head. Than they started kicking me while I was down. One of them pulled me up by my hair. 

They had something on their faces and they even wore glowes. Other one  punched me in the face. 

Once, 

twice.

 And with last kick in my stomach everything went black for some time. 

 I heard a song. Beautiful ballad. 

I felt so calm. Then in the distance I saw Jimin. He was smiling and running trying to catch the butterfly. The music mixed with his laugh and giggles. It made me smile and feel happy. 

I wanted to call him. I did. But he ignored me. 

I yelled louder but he didn't even bother to look at my direction.

 His orange hair was so bright. And he had dark blue t-shirt and leather pants. I tried to stand up but I couldn't move.

And than.

It is getting closer, that beautiful light and Jimin calling me, I close my eyes spread my wings and I am flying free. It's over, just give up and please let us be.

Than I heard noise. 

The ballad stopped.

Jimin disappeared. I was cold and alone.

 In that moment I was starting to feel terrible pain.

 Everywhere. I heard voices and try to made myself to move. 

Nothing. All I did was blinked. I saw dark and two silhouettes covering over me.

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 "He should woke up soon." 

 "Thank you." I heard familiar voice.

I was still feeling the pain. But I was warm and comfortable.

 My head was hurting so bad, I felt like vomiting. I blinked few times trying to get used to the light in the room I was in. 

When I opened my eyes I was staring at the white ceiling. 

Someone took my hand and I looked at my left. I frowned and looked back at the ceiling. 

"Jungkook? Can you hear me? It's me." He squeezed my hand.

 "I'm calling your doctor, wait here "

 Yeah, like I can run away in this condition. 

The doctor checked my eyes with that annoying light and asked me some questions I didn't know the answer to. 

.

"I told you that fag is not good for you." I closed my eyes too weak to fight. 

"Can you leave?" 

 He snorted."I'm afraid I can't. Not before I gave you a lecture." 

 I imagined myself jumping outside the window as soon as he said that.He cleared his throat before speaking. 

"Now you know why I didn't want you to be with that...that thing."

 "Jimin." I interrupted.

 "Yeah yeah. So people here find faggots disgusting. You know that the best. This is not even the first time you got beaten up because of him. I'm scared to even found out how many time he beat you up. Son, Jimin is gonna leave you now. He can't use you in any way. Please don't talk about how much he love you and that shit. Where is he now? Hm? Okay so I need you to forget about him and for once stop being a failure and listen to your father."  I was holding my breath praying so hard he will leave now. I heard a sigh and after few seconds he left without a word.

 Good thing is they fill me with drugs, dull opiates numb my presence, but I remain empty.

Except senseless tears that started running down my cheek. Crocodile tears that come when that nurse injects my hand again. 

And I don't want it to hurt, and I don't want to cry. 

I was left alone, nurse said I have two more hours for visitors. 

˝What visitors?˝ I asked and she smiled sadly. 

Jimin.

 I was hoping he will appear on the doors with his bright hair and beautiful smile.

Thinking, praying. Is he really gonna leave me? Or did he already left me?

I'm clinging to hope like I'm clinging to hospital bed sheets.
Scared. frustrated. Tire.

 I waited for him. I wait for him all the time.

When he' with me I'm waiting for him, in my sleep I wait for him, in my dreams I wonder where he is. Dreaming that he will do something more. I know he wanted, but it's too late. 

I waited for him to ask me to live with him, is that too pushy?

 Instead living with my father, in that hell called my house. 

I wanted to woke up with him next to me. And slowly stand up and kiss his forehead before I walked to the kitchen, make him coffee and wait for him to walk into the living room while rubbing his eyes cutely and smiling at me instead saying thank you.

And I know that, Jimin if you knew the pain in waiting, you would  never let me wait for you. Like I'm waiting right now.

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  ˝Jungkook?˝ a voice that seem so away called me.

I felt a touch on my hand but it feel so gently, like no one is actually touching me.

˝Please woke up kitten.˝

Kitten.

I fight with my tiredness and pain and forced myself to woke up and open my eyes.

When my eyes are locked with his my lips are longing for his kiss. I feel a love I've never known
and yet my heart feels so alone. The look in his eyes. 

It was different. And I was scared.

He moved his hand and smiled breaking our eye contact.

˝Jungkook, I need to end this.˝  he took my fears away, and made them true.

˝I hate this relationship. Not because of you. Because of people that are doing this to you.˝ 

  I can't help but see what he's thinking.

˝I started working on this. I kinda already forgot most of it.˝ I don't understand. How can everything change over night? 

˝No need to say anything. I can see you are close to tears. But soon your life is gonna be so much better.˝ He spoke not making any contact with me. Staring at my hands shaking his leg nervously and gulping a lot. 

˝I hope you will...˝ he took a deep breath and whispered to himself. Hoping I won't hear it. But I did.

˝...find someone who will protect you. Not kill you more with every day.˝ 

Because of you, now all I have left are the memories and a broken heart. Jimin I want to scream and cry and punch you so hard. But no. I can't.

And than my defense mechanism appeared. Slowly closing my eyes admiring his beauty when we first met. His  brown hair, those lips he was so insecure about and I adored them and body I just wanted to get. I was blushing and he laughed at me. He was such a tease. But I fell for him because he was so nice, and understanding. I was sitting in the class, hiding and he was passing by and saw me. I hide under the table and he  just squat and said ˝Hello.˝ I wanted to cry from embarrassment....

I never thought I could feel this kind of pain  from just hearing the sound of his voice.I opened my eyes and brought myself back into the reality.

 ˝Hey, no matter what happens or what you go through,  I'll love you until the end of time! We may not be together. But don't forget. I promise to always care for you.˝ I looked away biting my lip.

You just said you forgot most of memories with me!

˝Jungkook look at me!˝ in that moment the nurse came and took Jimin by his hand. 

Time to go.

˝Jungkook!!˝ He screamed and I looked at him in fear. 

˝I am still here, okay? Pretend like this never happen, please!˝ 

What is he playing? I never knew he was bipolar. 

.

When he told me goodbye, all I could think of is why? I hate having to act like it's alright.

You were once so good and kind, gentle and so sweet. When I just thinking of you my knees grew weak. 

When you're hands were in mine, chills ran up my spine.

Now my world is upside down,all the silence is now sound. Fantasies are nightmares, dreams are like hell. You don't hold my hand and I'm scared and alone in this white room where I don't have memories on you. 

The same ones that used to protect my worries and stop my fears. Is my main source of fear and everything I hate.

I glanced at my nightstand. A porcelain figure. 

I glared at two kittens. What a fucking idiot. 

I reached for it and took it in my hand. Staring at the figure while holding it above my bed. 

˝I hate you Jimin.˝

I let his gift fall on the floor. Emotionless while porcelain was scattered all over the floor.

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Guys I just had an idea don't jump in conclusions.

 I won't let Jungkook to be sad and hurt for long.