Caution!

The following contains dark themes. Self loathing and suicide are present in multiple chapters. This story gets lighter as it progress, but be advised that the beginning is rather dark.(?)

Current chapter has depictions of existential crisis/identity struggle, child neglect and abuse, trauma, implied violence, as well as psychological and psycological distress. Please be warned.

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The youngest prince sometimes wished that he wasn't an Oriel. 

That his hair was brown instead of white. Alex hates his white hair. He hates it so much. The only good thing is that it's slightly wavy, similar to his dad's, so he can pretend that the white was brown. He's let it grow long, similar to his dad's long hair.

It was unfair how quickly the older man's hair grew! It's already been two years since he's started to let it grow, and yet his dad's hair has already reached his waist while Alex's was merely at his upper back. 

He still hasn't figured out the secret to having his hair grow so quickly, but he'll get there one day!

Alex liked having long hair, it reminded him of his dad's long hair. He really liked looking like him. He even tried to copy his hairstyle. 

Alex loves his dad a lot!

...

He also wants to abandon his last name.

Alex wants to abandon his last name, the tie that binds him to the rest of the royal family. It seemed like such a random thought, but it was one he'd always wished for. The young boy couldn't even inherit the last name Blade. The Church would never let a person with the Blessing of Lord Kain have such a lowly last name. Not that he hated the Church for that! He's grateful to the nice priests, really he is! He just... Wished they weren't so scared of him...

He doesn't like being an Oriel. Doesn't like how alone he feels, how father and mother don't love him. Their hate is like poison to his heart.

How his brothers treat him like dirt, and how his sister doesn't even treat him like he exists. Perhaps his third brother might be nice to him, but the older boy was always with his older sister. Alex wonders if the two of them would have been nice to him. Surely they know about his existence, after all, two of his eldest brothers already knew about him. So why do they pretend he isn't there? Like he doesn't exist? Why do they never visit him? 

Why is he always alone?

Is it because they hate him too? Alex hopes they don't. He wants to be loved by his family, is that too much to ask?

(It was)

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Waking up with barely any memories of what happened before going unconscious has become rather normal for him now. Fainting too, for some reason, has become more and more common to him. Stupid weak body needing so much rest.

It should be concerning, is concerning, but Kim Lee Hyu couldn't fully bring himself to care. Damn, his head feels like it's splitting into two. He feels like his brain is giving birth. Like his head is going to explode once it's hit, just like a piñata. 

The entire palace, the new servants who've come to work here, Sora, Kale, and Diland, every one of them made Kim Lee Hyu's head hurt. Some felt familiar, others were complete strangers. He can't remember anymore, memories mixed and unreliable. Perhaps he had met them, all those years ago, when the green-eyed boy had once been Alexander Oriel.

It's been 30 years, after all, since his first life. Many of his original memories had already faded, he could barely even remember the princess's face or even the three princes. He doesn't even remember the name of his sperm donor, other than his title, the Emperor.

It was only really Diland he could remember with pure clarity, the face of his father, his savior, forever burned into his memories. Kim Lee Hyu is sure he knew the name of that really naggy, but kind priest, but he doesn't remember anymore. Sora is a familiar face as well, but he had often gone through many healers, so it's no wonder. He might have even met Kale before, the himbo of a man felt familiar sometimes. 

But Kim Lee Hyu isn't sure anymore.

Time has diluted those memories that were once crystal clear, only the memories of his suffering remained vivid. The clarity of those memories, his therapist explained when he had been forced to go to therapy, was a result of the trauma he had endured.

It was also the reason why Kim Lee Hyu is missing half his memories between the years of 12 and 16, as that was when he was mourning the death of his dad. He sometimes wondered what happened between those elusive four years. The only thing he could even vaguely remember was a gentle hand, a deep velvety voice telling him to focus his mana. He's sure that the mysterious voice must have been his master in his past life. After all, Kim Lee Hyu knew that he suddenly got good at magic when he returned to the castle at 16 years old. Before, when he first regained his memories in this life, he tried to regain those missing four years of memories, but to no avail.

That was why missing memories were not surprising to Kim Lee Hyu. Back in the war, the repetitive days seemed to melt together, and he would sometimes forget things after waking up. The same could be said now, the days with his torturer have been nothing but the same day repeated over and over again, with a few differences. He doesn't know what day is it anymore, doesn't remember how long it's been since he's been here.

All he remembers is eating, walking, then sleeping. Damn, he's acting so depressed.

Yet there was one thing he remembered from last night, his dream. Nightmare. Or should he call it what it truly was? His memories. 

The first meeting with the crown prince and the second prince. When he was a child, he had many feelings towards the royal family, one of them being longing. Too bad he didn't feel the same anymore, not when he has a real family to return to.

He was around eight years old when he first met the two royal princes. 

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He had accidentally entered the Empress's garden. Alex felt tears building in his eyes as he realized this. The garden was too elaborate to possibly belong to the Opal Palace, with ruby-red roses everywhere. Red, the color of the Ruby Palace, the home of the empress and where the young children of the royal family were raised. Except him, that is...

He didn't mean to get here, honestly! He just... wanted to hide from the servants for a bit... 

Wanted to be away from their eyes, from their words.

Dad went out to sell their harvest and to buy food. The servants had entered his home to laze around and avoid their duties. They knew that Dad wasn't around, that's the only reason they even went to the abandoned palace. After all, Alex was too terrified even to cross them. So they remained. 

They weren't content with just hiding in the palace, they went out of their way to seek him out. He had avoided them, but they were persistent. Their hands trapped the child, bullying him and playing with him until he managed to escape to their renovated garden.

Their touch felt bad, like fire, as they touched and hurt him. Alex can't remember where they exactly touched him anymore, but he felt slimy and dirty as he cradled his broken arm.

In his hurry to hide, he had entered a secret passageway. On a normal day, he would be ecstatic to have found it. He loved finding new pathways and secrets in his beloved garden! Just as he loved his home, no matter how abandoned it had been. 

But it wasn't a normal day, and he had been panicked and scared. Running without looking, he finally found an exit, only to enter the wrong garden.

Alex tried to find the exit, tried to return to his palace. But he couldn't find it anymore, couldn't find where he came out of. If he had not been as panicked, not as terrified as he had been, he would have most likely found the exit by then. In the middle of hiding and searching, he tripped and fell off the tiny hill. His body rolled on the ground before stopping as he hit a wall. It wasn't really a wall, more like the bottom part of the fountain. 

He whimpered as he closed his eyes tightly, his arm felt worse. Alex could already smell the blood, feel it dripping down his pale skin. He should patch this up, grab some bandages before it gets worse. Alex had just stopped the bleeding with his scarf when he felt a kick to his stomach, making him look up.

That's when he met them. White hair, exactly like his own, as two different colored eyes stared at him. One of the boys, younger and having the prettiest pink eyes, one that held anger and hatred. The other, older with green eyes so much like Alex's own, holding disgust and loathing. Both of these emotions were carefully hidden by masks of boredom and indifference. 

(Not that they could hide it from Alex. Not a single negative emotion could be hidden from the young boy. It was both a blessing and a curse. It's how he's avoided getting hurt by the servants for so long.

After all, Alex knew when to run and hide, and when to act tough. This didn't mean he wasn't hurt. No, for as much as he ran and stayed away, his heart had been forever damaged by the cruel emotions he could feel and sense from those around him. That's why trusting his dad was so difficult. He never knew how to trust.)

Neither of his older brothers seemed to love him. 

"What dirty thing has entered our royal palace? Hyung-nim, we should kick it out"

Hateful pink eyes spat out, a cruel smirk on his face breaking the look of boredom as his second-eldest brother faced their eldest. The green-eyed teen only looked down at the youngest prince, indifference still masking his true emotions.

"Just leave it, we don't want to get infected"

His eldest brother said. It didn't escape Alex how the others called him an 'it'.

Being called an 'it' wasn't new. It was quite common, especially with the older servants. Alex hadn't even known he was meant to be 'he', meant to be 'Alexander' until he was brought to his first tutor. The hurt is normal to him, the emotions having dulled from being so used to it. But when his brother had called him that? When the two who were meant to be his big brothers had shown their hostility, his brothers calling him an 'it'? 

It pained him far more than any. Their eyes bore into his, hate so deep and strong that it made Alex stumble back, his heart cracking into little pieces. He thinks this might have been the moment he gave up on the thought of family.

The second prince laughed at the eldest's reply, his pink eyes looking at Alex with nothing but mocking.

"I know, but we don't want our younger siblings to get infected, right? So we should throw it out while they haven't seen it yet. Pest control" the pink-eyed boy said, watching the way Alex shivered in fear, his tiny body frozen still. The pink-eyed prince took a step forward, watching with amusement as Alex took a step back.

"Oh? Won't you look at that? It seems we won't have a hard time getting rid of this pest" his second brother said with glee. 

The eldest of the three only watched impassively, stoic in everything yet the youngest could tell that the older was amused by this as well. Green eyes, big wide and fearful, stared into pink and green, filled with sadistic joy before he was chased. They were bigger than him, taller than him, and had far more stamina than the terminally ill prince. Still, he ran as fast as he could, darting around as he tried to find a way out. 

No matter where he went, they were a step ahead of him. They were playing with him, leading him out of the garden, but not without playing a cruel game of cat and mouse. His tears were dripping down his face by now, his breath ragged as he prayed for a miracle. 

Perhaps the Gods were feeling generous that day (Oh who is Kim Lee Hyu kidding, it was purely dumb luck, the Gods of his birth world hated him). 

Alex saw an opening and jumped. He slammed the lever down, watching as magic hid him away in the bushes of the garden. Sliding down, he grasped his chest as he desperately tried to catch his breath. His breathing was harsh and painful, his chest hurt as heat pulsed around his body. The feeling of heat was unbearable, his body feeling weak as his entire being burned. His broken arm burned more, and the young prince had to bite his lip to hold back a scream. 

As he sat on the dirty floor of the hidden passageway, he could hear the voices of the two princes.

"Eh? Is that thing gone now?" the second eldest asked, voice filled with confusion and a hint of disappointment. A scoff was the response the eldest gave.

The blood dripping down his lips wasn't even half as bitter as the growing feeling in his heart.

"Good, it shouldn't taint Mother's garden with it's presence" was the added response, making Alex flinch from where he hid. His body shook weakly, unable to respond to his commands. The white-haired little boy wanted to run, wanted to go to his garden, but couldn't. He could only sit on the floor and be forced to listen as his elder brothers broke his heart further and further.

Laughter filled the air, soft and filled with humor. It was different from the cruel laughter Alex had heard not too long ago.

"True, true. It's just a shame the fun ended so quickly. Well, at least our cute little siblings didn't get to see that thing!" the pink-eyed boy said, cheery and upbeat despite calling his youngest brother a thing. 

Now that he was forced to sit here and listen, Alex realized that his sec- the second eldest had not included him in the term 'little siblings'. As if he didn't rub it in the youngest heart that he did not love him, even his words showed how he didn't even consider them as siblings.

"Seriously, seeing that thing reminds me of that whore who seduced father. It should have died along with her" the pink-eyed prince grumbled, unaware of the way his youngest brother was crying.

Alex couldn't see either of their faces, couldn't see the eldest face, but he knew the crown prince agreed with his younger brother. His mother, he didn't know who she was. Didn't know her name. Dad didn't seem to know her either, didn't know her name. No one would tell him anything, all Alex knew was that his mother was not the Empress, and that made him a sin. A mistake.

(Deep in his heart he knew that the older butler knew. It hurts that Diland never told him the name of the woman who birthed him. But Kim Lee Hyu was fine, he knew Diland kept secrets and was unable to tell them. If only they had more time, maybe he would have learned those secrets.)

Alex heard enough, he didn't want to hear anymore.

So despite the pain, despite the feeling of his skin decaying behind his back, he ran away.

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He'll be honest, he kind of forgot that meeting. Hey, he's in his late thirties (technically he was in his fifties but whatever), he won't remember things that happened in his childhood as clearly as his current age! It does not help that he never grew up to be an adult in his past life, and the only real childhood memories he could remember clearly were as himself, as Kim Lee Hyu.

(Dreams always had a meaning, and Kim Lee Hyu was no idiot. He knew his dreams were warnings of what was to come. That didn't mean he was ready to face the music.

The Korean has always hated how accurate his dreams were.)

Kim Lee Hyu sighed. It was late in the morning, nearly noon. No one was around his room, as always. Sora had originally made someone stay with him to check on his condition, but Kim Lee Hyu had thrown a tantrum to avoid that. 

Was it embarrassing for the grown man to throw a tantrum? Very much so. 

But between the two evils, this was the lesser. That's why no one was in his room to watch over his condition. Besides, his torturer was already watching, why need a physical reminder that would only be an annoyance?

He got off his bed, catching the sight of something metallic on his bed stand. The short boy turned to see what it was and saw a bell with a note.

[Hello, Your Highness. My sincerest apologies for not being by your side as you woke up. Due to my duties and tasks, I had to leave your side. I hope you had a restful sleep, and that you are feeling better. Please do not strain yourself as your body is still not well. Feel free to ring this bell if you ever need assistance.

-Signed, Deputy Diland Blade]

Kim Lee Hyu's ears burned as he read the letter. It was annoyingly heartfelt. He placed his mana in it, interweaving his mana into the letter. Worry, hope, and love were what he felt, it made his face burn hotter as tears built in his eyes. Dammit, this Gods damned fake! Why was he writing a letter this sincere!?

(It was really like his dad, it was annoying.)

Whatever! Stay away for as long as possible, you stupid fake! Hope you face an incident that makes your duties last longer! Don't you dare come here when Kim Lee Hyu's emotions were a mess!

Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!

He should not be missing that ugly Walmart version of his dad, stupid heart, shut the fuck up. Why, just why, did he have to dream about the royal family of all things? Dammit, this stupid punishment! That was not his dad. It's been so many years, why was he still affected by his dad?

He let out a dark laugh, not too dissimilar to the laugh of the second prince from his dream. Even after all these years, even when he already had a family of his own, the pain, the longing he felt from this life still haunted him. He can never truly hide away from being Alexander Oriel, can he?

Maybe this is the true reason that stupid role-playing demon was chosen as his torturer out of everyone. His regrets, his pains as Alexander had never truly left, even when he reincarnated. One of those pains was his feelings towards the royal family- no, to his past family.

Did he have to call them family? Technically, they were family while he was Alexander. After all, he shared the same blood as them despite having a different mother. But he didn't feel a single connection to any of them, only the stinging feeling of anger and bitterness that left a sour taste in his mouth. He couldn't even call them 'father', 'brother', or 'sister' in his own mind. It felt wrong, felt fake. Words used to define their connection that did not truly exist. Kim Lee Hyu isn't even related to them anymore. For as similar as he had looked to his life as Alexander, he wasn't an Oriel.

His eyes were a slightly different shade of green, his hair pitch black like that of the never-ending void. His face was similar, but not the same as his previous life. In both lives, he's always looked similar to his biological fathers. As much as people claimed to say he looked like his biological mother, the truth was that he looked like a replica of the Emperor. 

Oh, he knows how many people say that he reminded them of his mother. But he knows he didn't look a single bit like her. 

Marionette, a commoner who came from another country. She met the Emperor by accident when he was in disguise, and the two soon fell in love. Kim Lee Hyu only remembered some things about her from the few times Diland would talk about her. How her eyes were like that of obsidian, big and doe-like. She was always kind, loving, and sweet to all. How she regretted being a mistress to the Emperor, but still loved Alexander deeply. That it was her deep love for her unborn child that made her continue the pregnancy despite her weakening body. Her hair was (ironically enough) pitch black. 

(It was funny that after his reincarnation, he ended up looking more similar to Alexander's mother.)

Kim Lee Hyu has seen the portraits of when his sperm donor was young. He knows that, besides their hairstyles, he looked almost exactly like the Emperor. Had he grown up, he would have most likely looked even more like that scumbag. 

In his current life, as Kim Lee Hyu, he looked like his appa. His appa looked similar to his life as Alexander Oriel, but his features were softer. His hyungs took after their eomma, all sharp and strong features, while he looked every bit like their appa. Their appa had his hair styled like his life as Alexander, it was the only reason he still kept the hairstyle. 

He was smaller, that's for sure. Sure, he was taller than his first life, but that was mainly due to his age. Alexander was only 18 when he died, while Kim Lee Hyu was a full 30 years older (mentally that is, physically he was only 20 years older than his first life). Kim Lee Hyu was tall, but for an Oriel? He was short. Why was he talking about heights? Oh yeah, he was comparing his current looks with his previous life. Technically, he wasn't in his adult body but the sickly body of Alexander, but it was just an illusion anyway.

What he's trying to say, is that the Oriel family isn't his family anymore. They had no emotional ties to each other, and now, didn't have any blood ties anymore either. So why should he still call them family?

(Sometimes he wonders how his life would have been had he not been executed. 

Would Alexander have given up his idiotic plan to be a villain to be remembered? Or would he realize that the world isn't a damn storybook and grew up? Maybe he would have settled down as a Duke, his only option to be away from the royal family. But maybes were only hypothetical situations.

He would never know how life would be for Alexander had he lived past 18.

God, he had only lived till 18.) 

He punched the pillow to release his anger as he let out a deep breath. 

'Calm down Lee Hyu, stop letting your emotions cloud yourself. You're an old man, why are you acting like a child?' he thought, scolding himself.

He couldn't keep doing this, keep getting stuck in his thoughts as he wasted away in this room. Ever since he's been here, his emotions have been a mess. Kim Lee Hyu hates that he doesn't know what to do. He knew he couldn't act like this forever. It was time Kim Lee Hyu went out and found a way out of this place.

Kim Lee Hyu let go of the pillow and went to get changed. A simple pair of shorts and a button-up shirt. The shirt was a bit big, this body was annoyingly malnourished. He ignored the stupid cloak. Because like hell would he accept being treated like glass. The green-eyed boy had just finished buttoning his shirt when he heard voices getting louder and louder at his door.

Perhaps the Gods didn't have enough fun with his suffering. Kim Lee Hyu is so fucking killing those bastards, mark his words. He's blasting down the doors of heaven and sucker-punching the first bitch he sees. 

"Please, Father Sora? I just want to see him once! I'm really worried and I'm really excited to meet my little brother, a young girl's voice could be heard coming in from the entrance. He knew only one girl who could call him 'little brother', and that was this body's older sister.

(He didn't have a sister, only two hyungs.)

"He hasn't been getting any better, and we've been worried since we've heard he had another fever" a young boy's voice added, voice soft and calming. 

The third prince, the kindest of the three brothers. The only one Kim Lee Hyu didn't actively hate, and once upon a time, he had even thought of the other as a brother. At least, before the riding incident.

(But Alexander didn't deserve to call him his brother. He yearns for that connection, but what has been severed can not be fixed.

Kim Lee Hyu doesn't care anymore. A potential connection that never reached completion. It's a shame, but he has his hyungs already. He doesn't need the third prince, nor yearn for brotherhood with him anymore.)

Wait a second, another?

Perhaps he just genuinely forgot, but did he have a fever before this? Maybe he did. He can't remember. He felt horrible and sick most days, so he might have just forgotten. Whatever, now's not the time to think about this. Sora! Please be a good person and throw those little brats out!

As much as he said that he would go out and face the music, he wasn't expecting it legitimately right now. Shit, dammit, that dream was a fucking warning for how the day was going to be! He takes back what he said! He's hiding away in his damn room!

Kim Lee Hyu wouldn't have been afraid to interact with the royal family, actually, he was rather excited to see them again so that he could be a menace to them. Fuck is he so ready to be a bitch to the sperm donor again! Hmmm, perhaps be a minor inconvenience to the Empress. She might have tried to kill him, but honestly, he doesn't even blame her. He never expected love from her since the beginning.

Ohh he has plans. Revenge wouldn't bring him closure, but being a petty bitch was infinitely better.

The problem? It's clear by the voices of the third prince and the princess that they were young. Meaning children. Kim Lee Hyu isn't good with children and frankly doesn't know how to treat them. Adults? Well, the adult man in a child's body was always ready to throw hands. But kids? He could never bring himself to hurt kids, nor could he bring himself to blame them for things outside their control. 

So Kim Lee Hyu could not blame these young children for the actions of their older selves. Leaving him completely clueless on how to handle these fucking brats!

"I understand your worries, Your Highnesses" the priest started softly. Yes, Sora better be doing what Kim Lee Hyu is mentally praying for. 

'Send them away, send them away, send them away-' he basically chanted in his head. He hoped the angel could hear the thoughts that Kim Lee Hyu was sending the other. (It made no sense, but Kim Lee Hyu isn't awake enough to think straight. Wait he isn't even straight in the first place hahahha). Shuffling could be heard before the blond priest spoke again.

"Prince Alexander is still getting used to people being nice to him, and people suddenly approaching often startles him. His body is also fragile, so everyone has to be careful around him" Sora started explaining.

Okay first of all, lies and slander. Second of all, Kim Lee Hyu is not startled because they're being nice to him. It's because everyone's acting so weird! And he is not startled, he's being cautious because they're torturing him. Jesus Christ this roleplayer. Whatever, the angel was just being nice. Poor man, so naive.

"I know both of you want to see him, but he's neither physically nor mentally well enough to suddenly meet new people" the priest finished explaining. Kim Lee Hyu didn't even have to be there to know that both the royal siblings had matching looks of disappointment.

But it did surprise the green-eyed boy that Sora had been telling the truth. That his siblings did want to meet him. After the commotion both Diland and the blond had done, it wasn't surprising that the two youngest royal siblings had finally learned of his existence. Kim Lee Hyu still didn't believe Sora's lie about the crown prince, nor the idea that the only other green-eyed prince wanted to see him. The two youngest? Sure, understandable. They're still young at this age and Kim Lee Hyu wasn't acting intentionally antagonistic to them like he had when he was Alexander.

Still, it felt weird for any Oriel to have positive intentions for him. The door remained silent before the priest suddenly spoke again.

"How about this, I'll let you two see Prince Alexander if he is feeling better and if he wants to meet both of you. Is that okay with the two of you, Your Highnesses?" Sora asked respectfully, yet kindly. 

The priest is too kind to have flat-out refused them. It was mean of Kim Lee Hyu to ask that much from the blond. Still, he felt disappointed that Sora didn't refuse a visit. 

Haha, jokes on Sora, no matter what happened, Kim Lee Hyu didn't want to meet a single Oriel in his life ever again. Nope, not accepting the invitation whatsoever. Well, if it was the older versions, he would be fine. He genuinely enjoyed being a brat to the Oriel siblings and being a menace who ruined their day. The Crown Prince and Second Prince were his favorite to act antagonistic to, while the other two tended to act too awkward that it even made Alexander feel awkward. But he did not want to have to deal with kids.

"It's fine with us, thank you for your consideration Father Sora," the third prince said, Kim Lee Hyu could already see the only princess's pout. Although he didn't remember her well, or even know her well, he did know she acted like a little brat at this age. That is, if his memory served him well (it didn't).

"Many thanks, your Highnesses. How about the two of you wait in the waiting room while I get Prince Alexanders medicine for him?" Sora asked, and Kim Lee Hyu couldn't hear a response, so they must have nonverbally responded.

Kim Lee Hyu didn't know what to do, should he go to bed and pretend to sleep? Think, what was worse? That disgusting, actual poison, medicine? Or his trauma in child form? 

...

Damn, the window looks pretty tempting right now.

FUCK IT! Time to face the music. If he gets a panic attack after this because he doesn't know how to deal with children, Kim Lee Hyu literally doesn't care anymore. Like his niece often says, YOLO.

That medicine was nasty as shit.

Kim Lee Hyu slammed the door open, as he finally faced the past.

Just like in his dream, two children with hair as white as snow stared at him. But this time, twin eyes of pretty pink looked at him with surprise and excitement. An older girl, whose face slowly looked more and more happy, and an even older boy who had a well-contained happy expression. Both looked at him with a strange emotion in their eyes. What was with those odd looks of love and protectiveness? Was their older brother behind Kim Lee Hyu?

... Is it too late to take the medicine instead?

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Yeah, I know this is so damn late. Hahaha, anyways, I actually finished this chapter like, since December. I wrote all the way to chapter 15, but I hated the direction of the story. I wasn't happy with how it went, and I wasn't proud to post it. So I decided to rewrite it.

I don't post chapters I'm not happy with, because in the end, I won't be happy with the direction of my writing. So I willingly took many months off without updating to re-write this. I won't lie, it took a really long time to finish this, and I nearly gave up and posted the original chapter. But luckily I didn't!

It will take probably another 1000 years due to how difficult the 2nd sem has been for not only me, but Ren as well. So Ren nearly failed their AnaPhy (Anatomy and Physiology) so they're phone usage was limited. I'm pretty shit at actually handling any PR or updates anywhere, so I had always relied on Ren to do it. That's why nearly all activity on this account died hahaha.

Anyways, thank you everyone for patiently waiting! Chapter 11 is currently in the works. Out of all the re-writes, this will be the biggest. Due to one major scene change on this chapter, chapter 11's entire story arc had to be changed.

Minor(?) spoiler, chapter 11 will be very important for future chapters. But that's just a little hint from little old me.

Notes from Ren:
Dropping some proof here cause I have access to his files on Google docs. Also don't mind that I blurred some shit, legit don't want to get my ass bat for spoiling shit again hahahhahaha