So I feel absolutely horrible, so here's a passage you don't care about

I feel like myself and everything in my life literally died. Like I'm full of constant tiredness and dread, and I feel like everyone has moved on from me. No matter what I feel like my brain is melted I'm extremely tired, even after I sleep. It feels like everyone else is hapoy,or not wven happy, but still have people who enjoy talking to them and who cares. I feel like everyone else is comforted by friends and family who all love eachother, and I'm just here, in my own pond of constant unhappiness and dread of doing anything.

I feel like the only things I have left that still have effects on me or all negative. No matter how many times I force myself to smile I still feel like I'm dying inside and as if my life is simply falling apart in slow motion, as I watch and do nothing.

It's horrible because people say they care and that I'm not overall shit, but I can't help but feel like everyone's lying. Since forever I've been waiting for things in my life to get better, but they don't, they all get progressively worse.

When I started feeling like I wanted to just go to sleep, I thought it would get better, I'd just stop feeling tired, but all that happened was later I wamted to die.

When my mom first got sick everyone said it would get better, but now I barely even speak to her.

I feel like no matter what everything is trash, and I'm just in my own pind of pure unhappiness, waiting for things to end.