So I want to hospital because my throat tried to kill me, apparently I habe a virus, but anyway the nurse asked "are you having any suicidal thoughts"

hAHA

Now people describe suicidal as as wanting to die, so what the fuck am I

I want to do what most people think death is, which is eternal sleep, but I however don't think death is that because my relegion

So I don't want to die, but I want what suicidal people want, which is to end my life

So I'm confused thanks for the crisis nurse ps I still hate life and want to drown aha