CHAPTER EIGHT

MAYBE she is just being in-denial with her real feelings. She is just being selfish to herself so in the end she won't regret what she was doing. And she is probably scared that all of this would breaks her heart again. Kung sana kaya niyang manduhan ang puso niya, ginawa niya na kahit noong una palang. Pero hindi, mahirap makipagtalo sa isang bagay na kahit siya ay gusto rin.

Yelena still can't believe that she did that... that they did that. She can still feel the pain on her inner thighs. She can't even move properly because even her legs and muscles were affected by what they just did.

Napalunok niya habang nakahiga sa kama at mariin na napapikit. Hindi niya gustong alalahanin ang nangyari dahil pati siya ay hindi talaga makapaniwala na nagawa niya 'yon!

She just gave her virginity to Zacariel Guerrera!

They are on his penthouse and he's sleeping peacefully beside her. She don't even want to move because she's worried he would be awake and they would talk about what happened.

Nagpatuloy ang pagkikita nila ni Zacariel simula noong mag-usap sila. Palagi siya nitong sinusundo. They spent most of their time on his office. Then one day, he brought her to his penthouse in Makati. And since they were alone and they have a privacy, they used to repeat their heated moment last summer in Querencia.

When her iphone beeped she immediately grabbed it and put it on the silent mode.

From: Santi

Aren't you going home tonight? Are you still with Zacariel?

It's already eleven in the evening. She forgot to text Santi that she will be late. Hindi niya akalain na may mangyayari sa kanila ni Zacariel at makakatulog siya pagkatapos. She also don't want to get up and leave because she's really sore.

To: Santi

I will stay with Zacariel for a night. I'll see you tomorrow.

Mabilis ang reply ng kaibigan.

From: Santi

Where are you?

Zacariel's move then he placed his arm above her stomach.

To: Santi

We are on his penthouse in Makati.

From: Santi

Okay. I don't want to be nosy with whatever you're doing there. I just want to make sure that you're safe. Alam mo na, your parents are strict.

She smiles. She's don't really need other friends or a lot of friends because she's contented having Santi; a friend that she can trust and a friend that truly cares for her.

Yelena was about to type a reply but she was distracted when Zacariel's palm travelled up to her breast. She's naked and she's sure he is too. The duvet is covering them and making them warm.

She bites her lower lip as he started to play with her nipple. He's awake!

"I'm texting Santi," she informed him then continued typing her reply.

To: Santi

Thank you, Santi. I'll keep you updated. No worries. Good night.

After she sent that message, she put back her phone at the side table.

Yelena tries to control herself from making a sounds even though she's really affected by the way Zacariel plays with her nipples. Napalunok siya nang tumagilid ito ng higa paharap sa kanya.

"Face me," he whispered with a husk.

Carefull, she moved until her body his. They are both laying on their sides. Facing each other.

His callous palm then travelled down to her waist and pulled her closer to him that made her gasp. He lowered his head until it leveled her chest.

A soft whimper escaped from her when she felt him licked her nipple. Mabagal na pinaikot-ikot nito ang dila sa ut*ng niya na para bang sarap na sarap ito doon. Ang paraan ng paghimas nito sa kanyang bewang ay nagbibigay ng init sa kanyang katawan.

The dimmed lights inside his bedroom and the scent around makes the ambiance romantic. She can see the skyscrapers from the glass wall. The City lights were like stars.

When he sucks the skin near her nipple, her lips parted. The way he sucked it would leave a red mark. She's sure of that because he used to that to her last summer. At ngayo'y inuulit na naman. She can't complain or what because she liked it too.

"Zacariel..." her voice softened.

Pinanood niya kung paano nito tila sambahin ang ut*ng niya na naninigas na. Sinisiuradong nitong parehong nabibigyan ng tamang atensyon ang mga 'yon. Sa paraan na pinasasalit-salitan na hagkan, dilaan at sipsipin.

"Uhh," she grips on his hair when he started to bite her nipple lightly.

Ramdam na ramdam niya ang pananakop ng mga ngipin nito at tila gigil na kakagatin ang dunggot niya sa kontroladong paraan. He is such a nipple sucker and it felt like she needs to get used to it!

Umawang ang labi niya nang pagkatapos nitong kagatin 'yon ay sinipsip naman ng matagal. Bumaba ang kamay niya sa panga ng binata. Hindi niya alam kung pipigilan niya ba ito o doon kukuha ng tamang wisyo para hindi tuluyang malunod sa panunukso ng apoy sa kanya.

"Hmm, Z-Zacariel..." she arched her body that made her breast touches his face while her nipple is still inside his hot mouth.

From closing his eyes, he opened it and looked up on her without stopping from sucking. Uminit ang pisngi niya at gusto itong irapan.

"You're like a baby," she pouts her lips.

"Sarap," his voice was sensual, then he resumed.

She can already feel the wetness on her inner thighs. It was a shame to admit that she's turned on again. Para bang naghahanap ng mas mainit pa ang kanyang katawan kahit pa ramdam niya ang pananakit at pagod.

Isang singhap ang kumawala sa kanya nang ekspertong nakapa ng binata ang pagkababae niya at maramdaman niya na ang daliri nito ay nabasa.

"I'm still sore," she told him, but deep inside her, she's still damn ready if he would take her.

"You need this," he started to massage her femininity with his finger by rubbing it gently. "Part your legs."

Her heart pounded, but she obeyed him. Medyo ibinuka niya ang isang hita upang hindi ito mahirapan sa balak gawin sa kanya.

"You're soaking wet."

Her cheeks burned. "It's not my fault."

Oo nga naman. Kung hindi siya nito tinukso at pinaglaruan ang dibdib niya, hindi naman siya mababasa at makakaramdam ng kasabikan na ipagpatuloy nila ang ginagawa.

Ang mahabang daliri nito na nakakaliyong humihimod sa hiwa ng kanyang pagkababae ay ang dahilan kung bakit mas lalo lang siyang kinakain ng matinding pagnanasa. At kung hihinto ito. pakiramdam niya ay masisira ang gabi niya.

"I want my tongue here," he whispered sensually as he rubs her femininity.

Parang kung may anong kiliti na umahon sa kaibuturan niya sa sinabi ni Zacariel. She felt her womanhood throbbed... excitedly.

"But you just did... a few hours ago."

"Can't I do it again?"

Kinagat niya ang loob ng pisngi.

Whenever she thinks about him, pleasing her with his skillful tongue, it always made her wet. The memories that he left last summer lingered and even until that moment, the scenarios were crystal clear. At muling nadagdagan ang mga 'yon nang magkita ulit sila at madadagdagan pa ng higit sa inabot ng imahinasyon niya.

"Okay lang naman..." she gulped. "... if it's just your tongue."

"Just my tongue."

Tumango siya na para bang nagpapaubaya na mapaso ng apoy at unti-unting magpasakop sa init na dala n'yon.

His lips traveled down her navel. He kissed her bellybutton then her lower abdomen. The anticipation always made her impatient and at the same time excited.

Zacariel lifted her one leg before he buried his face in between her thighs.

Halinghing niya ang naririnig sa loob ng malamig na silid habang patuloy sa paglapat ang mainit na dila sa pagkababae niya.

Walang awat at tila hindi magpapaawat ang bawat hagod, ang bawat halik, at ang bawat diin ng dila na 'yon na muling bumaliw sa kanya.

The next day, Zacariel dropped her to Santi's condominium building before driving to his office. Yelena can't really walk properly but she needs to keep herself together in front of Santi. Masyado siyang kilala ng kaibigan at ayaw niyang malaman nito na may namagitan na sa kanila ni Zacariel. She wants to keep it as secret.

"I forgot to tell you that my parents will arrive tonight in Manila. Gusto mo bang sumama sa dinner mamaya?" sa kalagitnaan ng lunch nila, sinabi 'yon ni Santi.

They decided to just stayed on his condo and ordered foods online. Wala rin naman siyang planong mamasyal dahil nga masakit ang katawan niya.

"I'd like to, but I am not really feeling well, Santi. Besides, it's your family time. Siguro namimiss ka na nila Tita."

"I don't think so. May business meeting siguro sila. They just invited me to have dinner with them."

Tumango siya at nagpatuloy sa pagkain. Panay din ang tingin niya sa iphone. Wala sa sariling nagbabakasali na may text message si Zacariel.

"Ano naman ang ginawa niyo kagabi sa penthouse?" kaswal ang tono ni Santi.

Kahit pa gano'n, hindi pa rin siya komportable na magsabi sa kaibigan. She is not also ready to hear Santi's opinion.

"Nanood lang. Abala rin siya dahil kahit gabi na, nagtatrabaho pa rin."

Yelena bite her cheek for lying. Sana lang ay hindi mapansin ng kaibigan niya na kabado siya dahil nagsinungaling!

"I'm glad though, that you two are in good terms now. Alam ko naman na pangarap mo siya," tukso nito sabay ngisi.

She leered but she can't hide her smile.

"Ayoko pa rin umasa sa kanya, Santi. Especially now that my parents already found a guy for me to marry."

Sumimsim muna ito sa milk tea bago nagsalita. "Sinabi mo ba sa kanya ang tungkol diyan?"

"Oo."

"Talaga? Oh, anong sabi niya?"

"It wasn't really clear to me. Ang sabi niya lang, huwag ko na muna isipin."

Santi sighed. "Akala ko pa naman a-akuin niya! Kung ganyan pala ang sinabi niya, ibig bang sabihin niyan ay wala siyang plano para sa inyong dalawa?"

Daig pa siya ng kaibigan. Sobrang pag-aalala at iritado nito. He expected so much from Zacariel that it disappoint him because he don't have a clear plan for them. Like what she said, she don't want to hope for them. She knows what would happen in the end.

"Pinayagan kitang matulog kasama niya dahil akala ko nagkausap na kayo tungkol sa relasyon ninyo. What are his plans? Does he have any plan though? Kung wala, hindi na kita papayagan na makita siya, Yelena!"

Napangiwi siya. Santi can be very protective. Talagang parang magkapatid na ang turing nila sa isa't-isa. Kaya naiintindihan niya ito.

"Paano kung wala naman talaga siyang plano para sa inyo? Tapos kapag ikakasal ka na, papayag din siya? Dahil nga wala naman siyang plano sa kung anoman ang relasyon niyong dalawa? At sa huli, sino ang lugi, Yelena? Sino ang mas masasaktan? Ikaw! Tss."

Come to think of it. Zacariel Guerrera would let go of her once she told him that she would get married. Wala man lang bang gagawin? Hindi man lang ba tututol?

"You need to make sure that he have plan for you or for both of you, Yelena, before it will be too late. Mahuhulog ka na naman sa kanya at sa huli, hindi ka na naman niya sasaluhin!"

At ang sumalo sa kanya noon ay si Santi.

Malalim siyang bumuntong hininga.

Her best-friend is right. She needs to be clear with Zacariel. Hindi pwedeng magkikita sila at may mangyayari, tapos ay wala naman pala siyang aasahan sa huli. Wala siyang pinanghahawakan. She needs guarantee and a promise that everything between them would be on the right place eventually.

"Isn't it too much to ask? Maybe he's just being nice to me because he's guilty that he broke my heart before. Ayokong tanungin siya kung may plano ba siya sa aming dalawa. Parang... parang hindi 'yon tama. We are not in a relationship to ask that kind of questions."

"It's your right to ask. Maaaring masyado pang maaga, pero baka may sagot na siya sa mga tanong mo. Be clear to him, Yelena. Huwag mo nang ulitin ang ginawa mo last summer. Tell him what you feel and what you want. Kung hindi niya kayang ibigay, mmm, huwag ka na makipagkita?"

Last time, she wasn't clear to him and what she expected for both of them. Uulitin niya na naman ba 'yon? Na hindi niya ipapaalam kay Zacariel ang mga gusto niyang mangyari sa buhay niya? Dapat niyang malaman kaagad kung may balak ba itong patagalin ang anoman ang namamagitan sa kanila, para malaman niya kung saan lang ang hangganan nila.

"Dear, I just don't want you to be hurt again by the same man.This time, be clever, please. Huwag puro ganda o pagnanasa. Use your head too."

"Pagnanasa ka diyan," sabay irap niya.

"Bakit? Hindi ka ba nagnanasa kay Zacariel? Nagsisinungaling ka kung sasabihin mong hindi!"

Yelena can't say a word. Damn, she's guilty!

"See? Kapag pinairal mo 'yang pagnanasa na 'yan, bahala ka. Masasaktan ka talaga kapag pagnanasa lang din ang gusto niya sayo, Yelena. Sinasabi ko sayo."

What if Zacariel was just lusting over her? That's why he get closer to her and he's being nice?

Santi's words and that last question didn't leave her mind. Mag isa nalang siya sa condo dahil umalis ang kaibigan para kitain ang magulang. Still, she can't stop from thinking. Aside from that, there was no message from Zacariel since afternoon.

Nababagot siya kakahintay kaya naman sa iritasyon, siya na ang nag text dito at nagtanong.

To: Zac

I know you're busy, but I need to ask you some questions. I want an honest answer, Zacariel.

First, after what happened last night, do you have any plan to make us official?

Second, if you don't have plan, does it mean that you're just lusting over me?

I hope you don't find my questions ridiculous.

After she sent her message, she left her iphone and ran inside the shower room. Humarap siya sa salamin dahil sa lakas ng tibok ng puso niya. Sobra siyang kinakabahan sa magiging reply ni Zacariel. Hindi siya handa!

Yelena shut her eyes when she heard her iphone ring. Rinig na rinig niya ang kalabog ng dibdib. Unti-unti ulit siyang bumalik sa kama para tignan kung sino ang tumatawag. At gano'n nalang ang ginhawang naramdaman nang makitang si Santi 'yon. Agad niyang sinagot.

"Hello?"

"Yelana? You won't believe this!" Santi's voice was urgent or panicking.

"What? Are you with your parents now-"

"Zacariel is here! Pero hindi niya pa siguro kami napapansin."

"Oh, okay."

"Anong okay? May kasama siyang babae! Okay ka lang?"

Umangat ang kilay niya kasabay ng kakaibang sakit na pumitik sa puso niya.

"Baka business associates or employee-"

"No, he's with Francha! Dinner date! I'm gonna cut this line and send you a photo of them."

Nanghihina na napaupo si Yelena sa kama. She don't exactly know what to feel. Zacariel is with another woman, with his ex-girlfriend, having dinner in a fancy restaurant while she's alone and thinking about them and the possibilities of their future together!

Her iphone beeped and she saw the photo that Santi sent her.

It's true. It was Zacariel, on his dark tux, with a beautiful woman on a silk dress, sitting in front of him, on a table for two. That is the woman that he probably wants.

With her mixed emotions and with the violent beating of her heart, Yelena type a text message for Zacariel. Hindi niya na konontrol pa ang sarili.

To: Zac

Forget about my questions. I don't wanna see your damn face anymore! Womanizer!