Hey Tyler,

You're scaring me....
You're scaring me because I can't stop thinking about what if?

I'm sorry to say that but I'm really scared because what if you didn't wake up?
What if you chose to remain like that because you think it's easier that way?

I don't want to sound pessimistic.
I knew damn well that you're a fighter, but I'm scared..because what if you stopped fighting?

I remember fifth grade when you made me feel scared for the first time.

I couldn't find you in school the whole day, I asked your friends but they all gave me shitty answers that made me anguish.

"I don't know, I hadn't seen him all day"

"I saw him in the morning, he looked really down."

"Yeah he was off the whole day, last time I saw him he was sitting in the empty hallway where no one went"

All your "friends" gave me answers that only made my blood boil.

Because how come no one thought about asking you what's wrong?
How come no one wondered where the hell have you been?

Because weren't you always there when anyone needed you?
when you suddenly disappear, it became a clear evidence that there's something wrong.
How come they didn't realize that?

I went to that empty hallway knowing deep down that something bad must have happened.

I felt my heart broke into tiny little pieces when I saw you sitting on the ground with your head between your bended knees.

I came and sat next to you and when you rose your head to look at me I saw it.

The look that shattered my heart, you looked at me sadly and your eyes held...emptiness.

I felt like someone has been choking me. I just wanted to know the reason to cause the funny outgoing Tyler to feel that down.

That day I learnt a lot.

I learnt that when a caged bird sings.....
it doesn't mean that he's happy.