Zarah's POV
The next day...

"Zarah please can you think about what happened last night it's not like I don't respect your choice is just that I'd really like us to establish our special bond and have our own kids. I know you might think this is an infatuation but every moment i spend with you sends me into over drive and I can barely contain my self anymore, I love you but it's getting too much. You hardly ever speak anymore to me or even look at me and I know what I did isn't wrong because this is allowed... I mean we are married and it is okay..." He said walking into the room after I walked out of the parlour when he came in and held my hands.

"Amir, you of all people should understand that this isn't easy for me. I hardly ever think of sex without having to think of my past and then with little Aliya on My mind it's harder. You've been understanding with me all the way so why can't you understand me now, its like you're a totally different person from the man I married." I said getting angry and our conversation getting heated as Amir dragged me to the bed and walked back to close the door before coming back to face me because his friends came visiting.

"You think it's easy having kept myself for this long. You think it's easy waking up and thinking oh well she won't let me even look at her. You think it's easy raising another man's child and giving that child my name, well it's not because it's very hard and you can't even fulfil My desires and here I am at your every call, I want to be perfect but you won't let me i mean your body is so perfect and then you come out in sexy night gowns and expect me not to get tempted, well its IMPOSSIBLE I'm a man and I have needs. If you can't fulfil them then I can't tolerate it. Zarah don't get me wrong I love you, i love who you've been who you are and who you are going to be but you've got to see things from My point of view. It's hard" He said pacing about the room and occasionally stopping to look at me and then I let the flood commence, I couldn't hold it no more and I was getting angry too that he had to remind me of my past.
"Amir i am no where close to perfect fuck it there is no such thing as perfect but I want to be for you, and I want you to know that it's hard for my old wounds to be healed so easily. I'm trying my possible best to give in but it's hard, you're not the only one in this but Amir you alone understand me so why can't you understand me now. Why?!!!!!" I Said already in tears but he just walked out and left the house leaving me alone. I called Aisha and told her everything that had happened but she seemed indifferent and told me never to add a third party to my marital problems even if it were her, so now I'm left alone to deal with such a big problem and I couldn't do anything about it but pray.
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My first few days as a married woman have been torture, oh let's see... one, my husband doesn't talk to me, look at me, eat my food or do anything that concerns me, two, my sister refuses to see things in my lights, I could go on and on but well it won't change anything. It's been four days since the incident but things have gone from better to worst and I pray everyday for things to get better again. I've been trying my best to reconnect with Amir but things just don't seem easy anymore and today I prepared his favorite meal and plan to take It to him in his room which I stopped sleeping in after the incident and I've prayed alot to Allah that my old wounds heal.

"Salamualaikum" I said walking into his room.

"Waalaikumusalam" He replied turning briefly to look at me before looking at the laptop screen in front of him.

"I made your favorite" I said hoping to start a conversation with him.

"Thank you, I'll eat it later" He replied still not looking at me so I sat on the bed and moved closer to him.

"If you want to talk about the other night I am really sorry I tried to take advantage of you but I hope you know I am really sorry that Is why I've been trying to give you your space so my desires don't push me to do any wrong again" He said still looking at the laptop.

"Actually it's my fault all this is happening but I really wanted us to consumate out marriage but every time I want to come close I keep thinking about what happened to me and thinking about the fact that I could never be the perfect wife to you" I said looking down at both my hands and tearing up.

"You know this few days I've been doing a lot of thinking and I guess it wouldn't be bad if we didn't consumate it till you are ready, I want it to be special for both of us and I think it would be best" He said looking into my eyes with an innocent smile on his lips.

"You know it's kinda creepy we are talking about sex with so much English, but I think i am ready so I was thinking that why don't we take chance of our remaining honeymoon days and have some fun" I said standing up from the bed while picturing the perfect day in my head and smiling.

"Why don't we do it now?" He said before lifting me off the ground and throwing me on the bed before pulling off his tank top and jumping on the bed to join me.

He looked into my eyes and before I could laugh it off he kissed me and things got heated I couldn't stop kissing him and finally it happened.

I woke up the next morning to an empty space, scattered hair, a naked me under the duvet and a smile, I was still trying to register how perfect the night was when i heard the door opening so I closed my eyes so he wouldn't make me shy and pretended to be asleep when I felt a kiss on my lips making me chuckle before sinking in on the bed.

"I knew you weren't sleeping, you pretty little liar" he said before tickling me and joining me in a fit of laughter while I begged him to stop.

Later that day...
"I was thinking why don't we go and visit your parents, I mean I've never really bonded with your mum because we didn't really get any alone time." I said coming out from the bathroom in my towel and walking over to the vanity table to get dressed.

"It's cool I guess plus I really miss mum's red velvet cake so let me have my bath and we would head out" He said getting up from the bed and into the bathroom to have a bath.

"Oh and babe when are we going to bring our little girl home?" He said coming out in only his briefs making me turn a slight shade of red. "I see you like what you see" he said wiggling his stuff in front of me.

"Get into the bathroom please, no I don't like what i see" i said pulling a silly face at him while he just leaned over to my face and pulled me in for a kiss.

"Erhmm... why don't we leave her with my parents for a while, while we try to have more" I said looking away from his already lit face.

"Oh!" He said looking ammused "exactly how many do you want" He asked taking my hand in his.
Zarah: "As many as you want"
Amir: "what if I said I wanted a football team?"
Zarah: "What if I give you two football teams?" I said looking at an already laughing Amir. Alhamdulillah for the smiles brought back to our faces.
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"Mum! We're home" Amir announced as we entered the Billo premises that was almost two hundred acres of land and looked like and mansion from Beverly hills and a miny stable filled with about 12 horses and many more.

"I'm in the kitchen." Came his mum's voice from the kitchen so we walked all the way over to her allowing me to get a glimpse of how lovely their house was.

"Oh see how my daughter is glowing" she said engulfing me in a bear hug she wasn't that fat but she was chubby with a petite statue.

"Then I guess I am taking good care of her." Amir said giving his mum a hug.

"You better do if not... you know what I'd do to you" She said playfully hitting his arm.

"This is not fair, so because now you have a daughter I am not important anymore." He said feigning hurt.

"Oh common stop acting jealous of her." She said coming over with a plate of cookies in her hand.

"You should have these they are good" she said handing the plate to me and leading us into the parlour.

"Mum I think I should leave you two to bond and moreover I have a meeting with the guys." Amir said pecking his mum and then me before hugging both of us and leaving.

"Oh dont mind him, so how soon should I be expecting my grandchild" she said with a mischievous look on her face after Amir had left making me choke on the cookie I was eating.

"Sorry drink this" she said handing me a herbal mixture that tested quiet nice.

"Thank you mum, uhm... what are the medical benefits of this" i said referring to the drink in my hand.

"It helps with conception" She said grinning

"Oh" that was all I could say before turning red and smiling shyly.

"You should see the look on your face. I've always wanted a daughter I could bond with and Alhamdulillah I have you now" She said happily smiling at me.

"Mum, I'm glad I have you too" I said moving forward to hug her.

We kept bonding and talking about Amir and she told me stories from when he was little and all sorts of stories about what a timid and introverted child Amir was and about his cousins and she also taught me some dua's and how to calm Amir after I told her about our little fight and gave me some words of encouragement till it was evening when Amir came and we had to leave. I had fun on our way back home when we stopped to get Ice cream, shawarma, pizza, popcorn and plantain chips and I told him all about my day with his Mum and all. We got home and for ready to watch a movie and I was giddy till it was time for us to go back to bed and I felt really dizzy and everything went black....
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