Y/n pov

I was so tense to meet him today, but it was worth it. We urgently needed to talk.

It was almost 7 when I arrived at his place.

I rang on his doorbell and as expeted he opned the door.

He looked really handsome . I just hope he wants the same thing as I

Hey.." He greeted me

"Hey" I responsed back.

"Come in"He said and made a sigh for me to enter.

"Thanks" I thanked him and sat down on his couch.

"You want to drink something ?"

"No thank you" I responsed him. I was so excited, what was going to happen that I couldn't drink something right now.

" Okay "

We both sat down on his couch next to each other.

"S-so ?..." He started unsure and waited for me to start the conversation.

"Okay...Jungkook...*Long pause*..We.. actually have known each other for month now...throught you... I was able to slowly find my true self again and to be someone I always wanted to be.namely, to be myself. You helped me out of a prison I couldn't escape alone and I'm very thankful to you..you can not imaginating how..And I still don't know how to thank you for that, nothing would be enough to thank you with".

I stopped for a moment and he looked up now to look into my eyes. At the beginning he was just listing to me.

"After you saved me..we both decided to stay in contact..and again not just in the time you rescued me..we both...we both kissed each other..more than just one time.."I paused again and he was just folding his fingers unstoppable.

I took a deep breath before I continued.

"Those kisses were really wonderful and I know you kinda had the same feeling too...but the last kiss we had in the Amusent Park..it felt more
different than the others kisses we had..it felt special to me..I wanted to tell you this because I trust you...I don't know how it was for you but..yourself knows better that all of this started after 'this' kiss....I know my reaction suprised you,but..I would never turn my back on you,like you are doing it right now"

" Wait..I'm not turning my back on you"

" But why are you acting strange when I am just trying to get close to you? You never behaved in this way..this is why I am here today, I just want to know now why your doing this to me" I raised my voice.

"I'm not behaving strange..I really had to do many things in the past weeks.I got stressed out".

"You are lying! Even your sister made the same remark on you. She said the same damm thing Jungkook" He is getting on ly nerves right now.

"But I already told you.... I'm fine. I was just stressed out."

This situation was not going as planned. He is not telling me the truth.

"I already told you Jungkook...You promise me we would talk today so why are you doing the oppisite again?"

He sighned.

" Okay..you really wanna know the reason I tried to advoid you?"

I just nodded.

"I just thought we both needed some time..when we kissed each other..yes they felt really good,but I overstrained you...that's why I tried to distance myself from you.
I think you have to find your true self before you hang up with a person like me.I were too hasty"

"What?"

I coudn't belive what he just said. So he thinks I coulndn't be myself next to him?

That's ridicoules.

He comletly misunderstood my feeeling towards him.

"Jungkook how can you just think of that? I enjoyed every single moment with you"

"I understand that and I don't want to lose this friendship too, but-"

"Forget about this friendship Jungkook"I told him and touched both of his hands. He just starred at me.

"I don't want to lose you...After everything you did fir me..and to be honest..In the past few weeks when i couldn't see you..something got clear for me..This can't go on like this..I want more Jungkook.....I want you"

I finally confessed my feelings for him.But as i finished the last sentence, his eyes got bigger.

He was shocked and suprised.

He took a deep breath and looked away from me.

I was waiting for him to say something but he just let my hands go and stood up.

Now I was facing his back

"Are you not gonna say anything about it?" I questioned him and stood up too.

"I-I...I don't really know what to say" He said and turned around, looking at me with tears in his eyes.

"Just tell me,if you are feeling the same..I'm absolutely sure you have feelings for me too..I know it..-"
I came closer to him and the only thing that came out ouf his mouth was a simply :

"No"

" No?." I questioned him back.

"Y/n-

"But the kisses.." I was on the edge of g cryring.

" They were wonderful,but... I can't do this".

"But why..I don't understand"

"Because I never want something serious..with anybody and this has absolutely nothing to do with you"

" So you actually want to say that you don't want anything in your life for real at all?
Everything is just a joke to you?" What was he talking about I couldn't belive what I was hearing.

"It's not like that, I-"

"And your are just giving up something like that whithout even knowing the worth if it??? This is really weak Jungkook ,really"

"Of course not.....but I 'm not made for a relationship you have to understand me,I'm sorry".

"NO Jungkook!! I can't understand you right now.I know you like to play, tease people and flirt very much, but when we actually kissed it felt different..You know it too." I was so frustruated right now. Why is he doing this to my heart.

" You're pretty Y/n and you deserve someone better than me I'm just a waste of of your time.

"No Jungkook you are more than enough for me. I don't nee someone perfect..I just need someone who can trust me to the fullest,who csn love meand someone who really cares for my feelings...I need you and only you... *sob* You can't tell me you don't feel anything at all for me.

I hold him on his color,looking him deep in his eyes. For a moment we just stared at each other,but his face suddenly changed.

He took my hands away from him and spoke up.

"Y/n please..it's enough.We can't do this alright ? And I already told you what you wanted to here...I think you were right..It was not you who was wasting my life but me.. and I was and I'm wasting your life right now too....

I-I saved you from your relationship and it should have stopped from there.

Look at me I'm handsome .

*fake smile*

I'm one of the most handsome guy in Korea..I could have any girl I want..I' there are mayn pretty girls out there.I shouldn't waste my time in a relationship with you. It wouldn't be good for me Possition"

Wow.. this really hurt. How could he say that?

Was I so wrong about him,the whole time?

"A-are you serious right now?" I didn't care anymore and didn't hold my tears back. I just let everything out. I was so in anger right now.

He just looked me in the eyes and apologized.

"I'm...sorry. Y/n..but maybe we can stay friends"

"ARE YOU CRAZY! After everything you just told me? Are you mad to ask me this question?!!!.....and Wow Jungkook you made it again...Your image is up than ever before.. I never thought someone could have such a big ego and think it could be more important than a person who would love you more than they can even give.

This really breaks my heart right now. But you are right..You really wasted my time. You really are one of the worst people I've ever met in my life - how could I have been so stupid and believe that you are different from other boys.
I trust you so much jungkook" I told him with a big smile,still in tears..

"but as I see it was one of the biggest mistikes I have ever made again....fine...you want to find someone else?Good.
I hope I'm not gonna see you ever again" My anger was the only thing he could have just see in my face.

I rushed to the door.

"Y/n wait!" He stopped me..and I still got a little hope that he was going to tell me the oppisite of what he just said.

" I know how hurt you are... but please let me bring you home it's quite dark now and I don't want you to go alone "

" Why do you even care? After all the hurtful things you said to me you really think I am going to accept you brining me home now?.. Just leave me alone already.I know better what's the good for me".

I said and quickly went out of his house.I couldn't hold it anylonger...I just wanted to scream cry and shout.

It couldn't be possible m.... why am I such a fool?
I relly believed he would like me in the same way. The reason I'm so hurt is not even that he didn't accept my feelings, but the words he said after that.. I couln't believe it.I really thought he had a heart. I don't know if my reaction was overreacted but I couldn't hold myself back. It really hurt what he said.

I can imagine. I bet that he was meeting other girls in my abcense. My heart just aches,just think of it.

Our kisses meant nothing to him.everything meant nothing to him. I was just a pastime for him.I should never trust anybody ever again.

Myself is enough for me. I started to walk even if my eyes were blurry from crying.

I was so wrong about him

Unknown pov

A door got opened.

'Oh there she is , fresh and look...she's even crying, what a jackpot'

"You are going to regret everything you did you wh*re.Just be preapared"

I talked to myself as I made my way to her.

Jungkook's pov

What did I just do?

And why is my heart aching so much?
Was it really the right thing to do?

Or did I just did one of the giggest mistakes in my life.

I hurt her feeling with my words and I am not proud of it.

It feels so wrong what I just said.

Seeing her crying made me tear up too.

I never wanted it to end like this.

And of course she wouldn't accept me as her friend again...It was too much.It would be ridiculous.

But I want her to find someone who is going to love her with his whole heart and not someone who is like me. I like to play and she wants something serious. I don't want to stand in her luck.

She deserve more than she thinks and I'm defintelly not one of the person that should be in her luck.

And I know there's no making this right.

*Ding dong*

What? could it be?

I quickly rushed to the door and opend it.

"Did you-?" For a moment I thought she came bacj,but it was Taehyung.

I almost forgot that he wanted to visit me.

"Did I what?" He questioned me back.

"Oh,nothing,come in"

I let him in and he closed the door behind him.

"Did you cry Jungkook?" He asked me worried,but I just ansewered him woth a simply no.

"Okay time out...tell me everything what just happened.I want to know everything from the beginning to the now " Taehyung said excited and sat on the edge of the couch,crossing his arms around his chest.

I explained him what happened and He was just confused and suprised.

"So if I understood everything correctly" he started and stood up, his back was facing me.

" This girl just confessed to you and you had nothing better to do than to refuse her?"He turned around.kinda annoyed.

"Jungkook..I know we both promised ourselves that we are never going to date anyone.

And I appreaciate if we both wanted to hold onto this, but be real for once. We both knew that a day like this could really come.We can never see who is going to pump in our life.You should have accepted her!"

"But Hyung...I have been holding on on this for such a long time I can't just give up on our promise"

"So you don't have any feelings for her ?" he questioned me, holding an eyebrow up.

"No!....I-I don't know...of course I feel different next to her in a good way,but I'm not sure if I can call this feeling already or take another step "

"Jungkook.."

Taehyung sat down now and came closer to me

I just looked him in the eyes.

"Since you met this girl.I can see how she changed you alot..even if I have never met her before. She changed you in a good way. You look more heathlier than before and you are absolutely happier.I'm so happy to see you like this"

He was right. She had so a positve energie on me.

"What you told her wasn't correct Jungkook and be once true to yourself.
You shouldn't give up something where you don't know the worth of it.
This isn't fair"

"Did you too agreed beforhand?" I questioned him.

"Why?"

"Because this is the exact same thing she told me too"

"This should be enough to show you that you were wrong with your decision and hey..you 2 don't have to be in a Relation right away.You should take it easy"

He was right...Maybe I felt in love with her,but I don't want to believe it myself.

Should I really give it a try?

After a long pause,I finally spoke up.

"You might be right..Maybe I have feelings for her..I just wanted to cover it up,thank you Hyung"

"I'm glad you accept your feelings now and I'm very happy for you"

V was really a good friend. He always listen to my concerns and I'm very thankful to have a friend like him.

I smiled at him when I suddenly got a sharp pain in my head.

"Ahhhh!" I hold onto my head.

"Jungkook what's wrong??!"

"This sometime happens when I want to remember something from my past" I managed to tell him, through the pain.

"It's because of your fall in your childhiod, right?" V asked me in panic. He knew he couldn't do anything for me 'cause I already told him that it goes away from alone.

"Yeah" I growned still in pain. But this pain was more than ever before.

After some seconds it slowly faded away.

But!!

" You-..you alright?" Taehyung asked me and patted my back,because I was just looking confused into the air.

"Y/n" I whispered.

"W-what?"

"She's...she's in danger...I..I can feel it.Taehyung we really have to find her now" I said and stood up to put on my shoes.

"Wait what?!!"

"I tried to persuade her to accompany her home but she didn't accept it, come we really have to hurry up..I have a really vad feeling that something is going to happen with her" I told him and we both leaved my house.