Hey lovely people💗 Chapter is gonna be verrrry long so lean back and endjoy
I'm sorry I had to take this pic☝️ This is absolutely adorable😍 also 'Smooth like Butter, Like a criminal undervover' Gonna stop here before I wrote the whole lyrics......
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" I don't want to be a burden to you auntie" Suga exclaimed hesitantly as we enterd home together.

"Honey, you can never be a burden to me, okay? You are *sob* the only child of my brother and my lovely nephew. I love you so much. Yoongi, you resemble him so much." she sadly caressed his face in her hands. It was hard to see this side of my family.

I regret everything I've done till now. I didn't protect my family from the danger around us. Why am I even working as the Police, if I can't protect them?. The only thing I did was being selfish.

My mother was totally right: He resembled him 1:1. He has been his only caregiver since birth. Yoongi's mother disappeared after he was born. They got him at a young age. In her opinion, she couldn't raise him at that age, and her parents were very opposed to the fact that she would have a child at her age. She was onl 18 when she got it with uncle Jae. He was only 2 years older. Everything was clear to her: she didn't want to keep Yoongi, but that wasn't a question for uncle Jae. He didn't want his child to grow up in a foreign family, so he decided to raise him alone. Fortunately his family was very supportive. Oh man! Just looking at him, makes me miss him so much.

"Thank you auntie" He response with a sad expression holding her hand.

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I lead him to his room.

"If you need anything my room is right next to yours. Just call me. You need to rest now." I told him kindly. He simulated an understanding nod when I was just about to leave him alone.

"Ehh Jungkook?".

I turned around "Yes?".

"Thank you".

Once I showed him his room I went into mine. We all were really tired and I didn't really sleep in the hospital. The moment I layed down I felt a lump in my stomach. My heart wasn't at rest. Y/n was running through my mind.

How is my precious girl? Is she alright? Is she eating properly? Was her heart at rest? Of course all those questions could be answered. It's impossible to know how she must be feeling. I'm litreally letting her marry someone she doesn't love anymore,I mean what for a boyfriend am I? Which boyfriend does that?.

I'm so sorry baby. You will have to endure the pain it a little bit more.

Y/n pov

His embrace lasted forever and I kept getting squeezed more and more. "Eh- Taehyung.. I- can't breath" I tempted to push him away easily.

"Oh, Sorry".

My hands deliberately pressed on his chest to create a space between us when his hands landed on my lower back in a heartbeat, holding me tightly on my waist. I could feel through his tight grip how he absolutely demanded my proximity in order to return the same sentiments.

But I was unable to do that. He powerfully locked our eyes together, reinforsing the view with his sharp menacing eyes. I was speechless at how his eyes almost tored my soul apart, how intensivly he was starring at me without blinking ones.

My breath hitched and my heart flustered against my chest. I hope he doesn't plan to kiss me again. Why can't he stick to his words?. How could I even think Taehyung would ever stick to his promise?

He pressed me into himself more smoothly as he finally spoke up.

"You know,.. Your Birthday is around the corner. I'm already planning something little with family and some friends. Come tomorrow at 2 pm when my layer ends. I wanna buy you something amazing. Everything has to be flawless for saturday".

After that he mentioned it, I completly forgot about it. Turning 21 is a wonderful experience, Wish I could spend it with the love of my life. The person who understands me without words. Jeon Jungkook. Even his name is amazing. Tears formed in my eyes, but gotta make sure they won't flow out infront of him.

" Y/n? Did you here what I said?". He asked confused as I didn't response.

"Sure" I only answered with a calm smile not to irritate him more.

"Its gonna be great and unforgettable.

We're going to go shopping tomorrow. However, lets go home first. It's getting cold ". He captured my face in his hands as I nervously nodded looking at the floor. This gave him the access to peck my forhead, I quickly shoot him a look, didn't react to it anylonger.

Taehyung observingly let me go and streched his left arm out.

"Can I ?" He asked carefully and I felt kind of bad refusing him all the time. I don't want to risk him getting angry again.

I know my baby will save me. I only have to play along and everything will be fine. He promised.

I smiled weakly as I accepted his hug again. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder as I put my arm around his waist.

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My mom and I spontaniusly decided to meet up at the same park as yesterday. We sat at a nearby bench having a conversation.

"What did you want to tell me about Taehyung yesterday? It sounded urgent?". She openly asked me starting the conversation. I nervously played with my fingers, looking down at them.

"Darling, tell me what's going on?" My mother lifted my head with her finger. I was very close to tears again. My mother observed me with worry, waiting for me to start explaining.

"You know..... Taehyung and I... I don't know" I bowed my head again.

"Are you guys having a hard time?".

"It's not like that..it's worse.... You see Jungkook he...a lot has happened in your absence".

"What exactly?"I wanted to continue when his words from visioned in my mind "Be very aware how you try to express yourself here or else I'll skillfully establish something dreadful new you won't be able to escape, alright?".

" Y/n-".

" Jungkook and I didn't break up that easily.. It happened through an terrible accident".

"What? I don't understand".

"Jungkook's uncle was shot on patrol.. Unfortunately he didn't make it. It wasn't easy to say that it was an accident. It obviously wasn't.

" Even though I comforted him, Jungkook couldn't really bare the pain. In his anger he accused me and things got more complicated..Th-at's why he...he broke up with me". I brust out crying infromt of my mother.

"Aww darling" My mom wrapped me lovingly in her priceless hugs as I hugged her back. I couldn't tell her the truth. But atleast I can point out the situation I've been going through lately. And maybe she'll give me good advice to slove this dilemma.

"I'm so sorry for you" she caressed on my head.

"But how did you end up with Taehyung then?".

"Taehyung was the only one comforting me. He still loves me like before and I realised that I.... I kind of... f-feel the same. After we passed some time together we didn't want to lose time anylonger. Thats why he propose to me. But....*sob*". She captured my face in her hands so our eyes could meet

"You still love Jungkook, don't you?".

"Yes mum.... I really do.. but it wouldn't help. I've already accepted Taehyung back into my life. I can't go back to him...what should I do?".

"Oh dear. Listen to your heart. You see: You've decided to accept Taehyung's proposal, but if you think it was a mistake, quit. Don't force yourself to do something that you may regret. If your heart belongs to Jungkook then go for it. It will hurt Taehyung, but he will definitely get over it and understands you. You should tell the real love how you feel about him. Don't make him lose, you kid".

My mother was absolutely right. . But Tae would never accept this. What if Jungkook and I leave Korea and start a happy life elsewhere? Our family would follow us too.

"Thank you mom. Thanks for your advices".

"Anything my child ". I finally whiped my tears away.

"Thank you ma. I know what to do now".

Maybe there was a chance for me and Jungkook. I hope so.......

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I arrived on time. I enterd directly asking Mr. James where I could find Taehyung.

"I think he's discusting something with his colleagues. You can check in his office. But I think he'll definitely have time for his fiancé and congratuation by the way".

Oh it's already a hot topic.

I wasn't surprised. He always shared our 'happiness' with the world. It's not a new thing.

"Thank you" I thanked her politely, putting a smile on my face.

I headed to his room, opening his door with an unaudible knock as the feeling of warmth and love filled my body. Jungkook was standing infront of me, his back facing me.

He was so tall and so beautifully built. The sight of him makes me miss his touches, his warmth heated body which perfectly fits to mine while cuddling. The way he moves his lips perfectly with mine, makes me weak everytime. And the he moves his body, showing me his love is indescribable.

Not realising I was starring at him like a fool, I leaned onto the door, listening to his angelic voice. His fragrance I smell, his presence. This boy had the power to drive me crazy, without touching him. His left hand was bandaged... Why? What hes he done again was he hurt?

I wasn't paying attention to his words, but hearing my name and the following phrase, made me freeze.

" Y/n and Taehyung's wedding must be perfect. This wedding will be unforgetable for both of them.... yes... oh and you know me. I mean since when would I become somone's lover. Taehyung is the right choice. Immediately after the wedding I can finally become myself again".

His harsh spat words slowly but painfully ingraved in my heart. Why did he say that?Noone was around him to act so why is he saying that? And why is he suddenly talking in such manner about me? What has gotten into him? Is he drunk? Taehyung is asking a lot but still.

"Yeah right... He even talking about having a family with her-" That was enough for me to hear before I snapped him out of his inappropriate conversation.

"What the hell Jungkook!!" I went in completly not carring if someone could see or hear us. I'm so dumbfounded right now.

"Wait? Are you serious right now? This is how you talk about me behind my back?.. Is this how you want to save us?". I was so upset in that moment, I didn't care if Taehyung randomly storm in.

I tried studiyng his hazel brown eyes, only to find confusion.

"Y/n? What's wrong?". Taehyung distracted my whole attention to his standing figure. His eyes were filled with concern and worry. Without answering, I stormed out, still unable to process my own feelings.

"Y/n! hey what's wrong?" He grabbed my shoulders fron behind dragged me around to face him. He searched deeply for answers when I blocked his attempt.

"What's wrong with you? What did Jungkook say to make you so mad?".

He lifted my head with his forefinger and thump.

"It's nothing..." I shoved his hand away looking down.

He sighed softly making me look at him. I was a bit surprised when he smiled at me . He wasn't angry as I excepted him to be.

His right hand crawled over my cheeck as I starred into his eyes.

" I don't know why my Kitten is so vexed but I'l try to change that, alright. Let's go".

He released me from his grip, waiting for me to follow him. I was so triggered about the things Jungkook said that the word Kitten, didn't borther me much.

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5pm, Saturday- May 22th. my 21th Birthday.

The moment I opened my phone while waking up I recieved congrats from my mother and Taehyung. My mother sent me a video and called me right after. She would come too. It was extremly splendid and nice in all. Taehyung brought me breakfast in bed. It was a cute act but in days like this my heart was calling for him more. His presence, just everything felt less worth without him.

We would drive in some minutes. I was kind of nervous, but ready to enjoy myself.

To relax a while I surfed on my phone only to recive a notification about something dreadful that happend 2 days before. I opened it ans started to read the news.

They wrote about a suicidal person who lit a fire. As I read on, I became really afraid. No, not suga. Not his cousin ... wait his hand. it must have come from saving him. I am such a terrible person. instead of talking normally to him. I only let out my rage.

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We arrived but there was only darkness to see through the .

"Are you sure we didn't get lost?" I asked him curiously as noone seemed to be here.

" No, relax just close your eyes".

I shut my eyes. He shoved me more into the room and suddelny left. I couldn't feel his presence nor hear him.

" T-taehyung?" I shut my eyes open when the light turned on and a chant of "Happy Birthday " rang across the room.

I looked admired iz and smiled.

My mother was there and so many others. He invited the girls I exchanged numbers with at his friend party last time. I was still viewing the people and the decoration when I spotted my breathtaking boyfriend with the beautiful doe eyes. He was styled so perfeclty so unique. Our eyes finally met. How can someone make me so crazy?. This is pure affection.

"Are you ready". Taehyung woke me up from dreaming again as he intwined our fingers. He again ignored the fact that we were public. *sigh*
I greeted everyone, going around and thanking them for comming. I greeted my mother and her friend, who accompanied her too.

The only person I still didn't great was Jungkook.

"Hey Y/n Taehyung he told me a lot about you, congratulation on you Birthday and your engagement" One of Taehyung's friend congratulated me who was standing right next to Jungkook. I smiled at him and tried to look at Jungkook once to make eye contact with him but he he gaze was on the floor. His friend pressed his gift into my hand.

"Thank you, that would not have been necessary". I smiled at him.

"Wait I'll put it to the other gifts". I nodded and gave Taehyung the gift. The only thing to expain his confidence leaving me and jungkook alone was because someone else was with us. He would never let us ever alone.

*ring ring*

"Excuse me but I need to answer this". His friend excused himself and really left us as I was standing alone infront of Jungkook not knowing what to do or say.

"Happy Birthday Preci- I mean Y/n" he smiled indistinctly .

"Thank you, Jungkook... You look stunning"

"So do you" He complemented me back and trailing his eyes up and down. Admiring me fully.

" Our eyes finally met. Mine wandered to his kissable pink lips which I dearly wanted to feel onto mine. Not to make anything akward between us I asked him a random question.

" I hope you didn't buy me something too expensive,you I accept everything". I wish he would say somethin like ' I didn't buy you a gift cause I'm your gift' Ha! dream on Y/n.

" I'll actually show you my gift later."

"I'm looking forward to it..ehh. Jungkook... I heard about the news....about Suga and the fire. Are you guys okay-"

" Y/n, where is Jun?" Taehyung unessecary and tensivly walked came back, placing his arm around my shoulder, ending our conversation.

Jealousy wasn't something Taehyung could easily handle.

"He had to answer his phone, Let's greet the rest" I quickly changed the topic and dragged him with me.

"Sure"

I mouthed a 'Sorry' to Jungkook.

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People were enjoying themselves chatting and laughing together. We ate the cake, some danced around. I was around the girls.

" So ladies and Gentelman, if the Birthday girl could come forward for a second There is a special gift someone would like to present you, Jungkook".

My heart tightened when I heard his name. My head followed directly the figure standing on the stage in front of me. I stood in the middle of the room. Looking for Taehyung. He was already watching me. But he kind of admired me than being made. Is he drunk or something?. Jungkook wanted to sing for me. He nodded in agreement when I returned my attention to the front.

"He's so handsome. I'm going to try my best getting his number later" one of the girl confessed next to me, making me jealous all of a sudden. Okay Y/n, just ignore it.

Then Jungkook started:

No limit in the sky
That I won't fly for ya (for ya, for ya, for ya)
No amount of tears in my eyes
That I won't cry for ya (for ya), oh no
With every breath that I take
I want you to share that air with me
There's no promise that I won't keep
I'll climb a mountain, there's none too steep

When it comes to you
There's no crime
Let's take both of our souls
And intertwine

When it comes to you
Don't be blind
Watch me speak from my heart
When it comes to you
Comes to you
Want you to share that
(When it comes to you)

Jungkook voice is so remarkable and unique. Every verse was so passionate and real. It came straight from his injured heart. Yes his heart was injured because of me. I hated to see him suffer, cause I could feel it too. I wanted to cry. Cry and run into his arms to comform him I'll never stop loving him. His voice was melting my heart into 2 and I could only feel his and my presence. It felt like we were the only person in the room.

As he sang the last verse my desire to speak to him and thank him grew.
He thanked and bowed to everyone, being cheered with loud applause. Getting down from the stage everyone turned back to their attention to whatever they were doing.

Without caring about anyone I walked as fast as I could to the figure who quickly disapeared from the stage. I walked out of the hall as I foumd him leaning against the wall in a somewhat dark area of the hall. He was kind of breathing heavily as I reached for him..

"J-ungkook" I called for him weakly. His heart was beating against his rib cage so sturdy his chest was going up and down rapidly. He wasn't looking at me only closing his eyes leaning his head back, breathing out from his pink alluring mouth.

"Jungkook" I called him perilously, stirring in his way. He was still shuting his eyes firmly as I affectionately placed my palms on his strong chest, trying to eye him.

He abruptly grabbed both of my wrist, pretty tightly and finally opened his eyes. His dark brown doe eyes glued onto mine as the desire of kissing him grew up more. Without waiting any second less he violently crushed his lips on me. I wanted to close my eyes, enjyoing every part of his lips, but something wasn't going right. The way he was touching and kissing me felt wrong. He harshly turned us around, smashing me to the wall. He roughtly grabbed my waist squeezing me against his heated body and the wall.

I could barely catch up with his pace as I wanted him to stop. He was litrally dominating me, holding my breath short.

"Ju-ngkook, st-op--!!" I tried to push him away without success. He forced my face in his hands approximately, suffucating me on. I pushed him from his chest but he was too strong. He authentically captured them,holding them onto place.

I was trembling under his touch as he started to make his way to the fragil skin under my ear.

I took deep breaths to catch up again when the only possiblity to push him away formed itself.

I pragmatically pushed him off me, tears filling up my eyes.

"What's getting into you?". He firmly smirked at me frowning one eybrow up.

" What has gotten into me? Seriously now? ".

"Why did kiss me like that. What did I do?".

"Hahahahahahah... wait, we are really going that way now?" He wasn't acting normal.

"Why are you so mean?".

"Should I remember you every detail? Since you popped into my life you turned it upside down. You only brought hartred and despire,even feelings I never felt before and didn't want to feel. You made me fall in love with you and because of you my family almost banish me." He angrly glared at me.

"What... Jungkook I don't understand... why are you blaming me?". My heart ripped apart to the things he said. Did I really caused s him so much pain?.

"How can you even?. The only thing you do is is spreading confusion and irritation.-"

"If you are acting like this because of yesterday, I apologize for being mad at you at the office, but please stop saying nonsence. I only want to know if you are okay after you risked your life-".

" Why?! Why should I stop Y/n-Huh-?" He moved furiously in my direaction , harshly grabbing me on my upper arms. I let out a loud gasp by his sudden attitude towards me.

" Stop questioned me about my life. I regret every minute I wasted my time on you. I regret the amount of time I took for this worthless relationship of ours and I regret the day we got to know each other " This hit different and he wasn't joking. It was the first time I felt how much he really hated me. It was so clear, without denying. My tears were out of control as he talked on.

"You didn't even mind wearing that shamless ring on your finger, assuming me that you miss and love me?.. You know what: I'm glad Taehyung find you again. You will finally feel the pain I've been feeling this whole time. You'll be a great couple because the only think you'll feel while waking up is your broken heart and harted, Every. Single. Day. I can finally be my own self now" He finally let me go, glarring a last time at my sparkling teary eyes before stepping away from me and walking away.

I was speechless. Pain was flooded my awful emotions. I can't believe we got to such a point. I never thought I could have been so wrong about him. Why was it suddenly my fault. The only thing I ever wanted was being loved by him. Why is he suddenly blaming me for Taehyung's action?. Was I really such a burden?. He even regret the first day we met. This is the worst birthday I've ever experienced in my life. I slided down the wall. Grabbing my hair into my fists as I terribly cried on.

Jungkook's pov

If only you knew.............