Requested by Tronnie

Warning: there are a few depressing things/bullying stuff mentioned here.  If there are any who just can't stand even the less intense stuff, then please do not read.

Guaken AU

[name] = your name

[m/g/n] = mean girl's name

Narrator's POV

'Dear Ludwig,
I think you are a really smart & handsome and-'

'No, no, no, that won't do for someone like Ludwig,'  You thought to yourself with a sigh.  you neatly folded the note and placed it in your history textbook.

'Another gets added to the book,'  You thought sarcastically.

Every time you tried to write a love letter to your crush, expressing your thoughts about him, you always thought it was never enough or just not perfect for the ever neat and perfect German.  So, you would hide it away in a random page in your textbook instead.

'I really hope I can get it right,'  You thought to yourself as you got up from your seat and walked out of the classroom.

'You'll never get it right,'  The dark voice in the back of your head said as the others joined in.

'He's strong you're weak.'

'He's smart and you're not, just look at how many honors and advanced courses he takes compared to you.'

'He stands out from the crowd due to his achievements and handsomeness, and where are you?  Ignored on the sidelines because you are ugly.'  

That last comment from the voice really stung more than the others, but even so, you held back the tears and the shakes as you hurried along with the sea of people to your locker.  Once there, you began packing your bag with your books and things when [m/g/n] and her gang walked by.

"Oh, look at the little freak."  One said.  You stood still and continued grabbing the things you needed.

"Good, at least she's gonna be out of our sight soon."  Another one said.

"Yeah, now I can go see my Luddy."  [m/g/n] said loudly as you flinched.  She knew you had something of a crush for her boyfriend, so she decided to have some fun.  You bit your lips and quickly grabbed your history textbook before shutting your locker.

"About time you finished, trash."  [m/g/n] said, acting like she was the queen.  You kept your head down and hugged your textbook close.  [m/g/n] still wasn't satisfied.

"You know, I can understand why you have a crush on my boyfriend,"  She said, walking closer to you till you were backed up against the lockers in the empty hallway.  She leaned in saying, "But he's never gonna go for an ugly nobody when he has a princess like me."

The really hurt, way more than her slapping the textbook from your hands.  She wore an icy evil smile as she saw tears starting to fall from your eyes.  With a laugh, she and her friends then "escorted" you out of the hall and out of the school, leaving your textbook behind.

But what none of you knew was that that hallway was not as empty as it had seemed.

Once all the noise had ceased to be heard, Ludwig stepped out from the classroom he had been in, a stern look on his face.

'All zhis time...'  He thought to himself as he slowly walked to the textbook on the ground, picking it up.  But as he picked it up, he noticed papers falling out of different pages.  Curious, he picked them up and began reading them.

And one by one, with each word of love and admiration written on them, Ludwig couldn't help but feel his heart flutter.

'Vhy did she never send zhese to me?'  Ludwig thought, but then he recalled why; [m/g/n].  But then he shook his head.

'Nein, I doubt it vas just because of [m/g/n], but now zhat I zhink about it, [name] is a very painfully shy person... And I zhink I recall Kiku saying zhat zhe frau lacks confidence in herself... and she always seems to stutter too...'  Ludwig thought.  He then glanced down at the papers in his hand and the textbook in the other.

'I need to do something.'  Ludwig thought as he took the textbook and the papers with him home.

~Time Skip To Next Day~

'Oh, why did it have to be that textbook that I dropped?'  You asked yourself as you rushed into the school, arriving an hour earlier to get a hold of the textbook, still tired from the voices in your head keeping you up with their usual hurtful words.

Rounding a corner, you arrived at your locker and found your textbook on the ground.  With a sigh of relief you picked up the textbook and hurried off to your classroom, unaware of a certain blond watching you secretly.

Once inside the classroom, you pulled out the history homework that you needed to do and opened the textbook up to the right page, finding one of your failed confessions there.  You took it out and placed it on the desk.

You were about to start working on your homework when the paper started to open, revealing someone else's writing.  Panicking slightly, you opened the note, thinking maybe you had the wrong textbook.

'Dear [name]'
I think you are the sweetest and most beautiful person in the world.'

'Huh?'  You thought to yourself.  Thinking it was some sort of prank, you read on.

'I have always admired you but since you never seemed to notice me, I thought that perhaps I wasn't good enough, and tried to move on, but I couldn't.
I guess what I'm trying to say is this:
Ich Liebe Dich.'

"What is the world...?"  You said softly to yourself.  Quickly you flipped through the rest of the book, finding more and more of these notes, but none of them had the other person's name on them.  You sat there, surrounded by paper, very confused when you heard someone cough.

You looked up and immediately you blushed; it was Ludwig.  You looked down as you heard him come closer, your heart beating rapidly.

"I-is t-there s-something y-you n-need L-Ludwig?"  You stuttered out nervously.  You started playing with the sleeve of your sweater as Ludwig stood before you.

"[name],"  He said in his deep voice.  "I saw vhat happened yesterday in zhe halls."  He said.  You flinched as the voices in your head went off.

'He probably thinks you started a fight with his girlfriend.'

'He's gonna say you should give up your crush since he already has Miss Popular Beauty Queen for a girlfriend.'

"I-I'm really s-sorry y-you had t-to s-see t-that."  You said softly and nervously as you kept your gaze down.  Ludwig shook his head.

"Nein, it is me who should be apologizing to jou."  Ludwig said.

"Eh?"

"I had no idea about [m/g/n]'s real character, nor how she and her gang treated others like jou."  Ludwig said.  You stood still, not believing what he was saying.

"Umm, i-it's fine Ludwig,"  You said, holding your hands up.  "I t-think I s-should apologize f-for b-bothering h-her so m-much."  You said.  Ludwig looked at you, surprise written on his face.

"Vhat do jou-"

"I-I'm just a-an eye s-sore to h-her and-"  You were cut off by Ludwig tightly gripping your shoulders.

"Nein!  Jou are not!  Jou are beautiful and sweet!"  Ludwig said as you blushed more, standing stock still.  He then let go of one of your shoulders and reached into his pocket, pulling out a note you recognized as one of your love letters.

"That's-"

"Ja, I found jour textbook and read all zhe letters inside..."  He said.  You looked down at your shoes, tears rolling down your face.

'He's going to hate you now.'

'Freak!  That's what he'll say.'

"-And I vant jou to know I like jou too."  Ludwig said.  Your eyes widened as Ludwig lifted your chin up, making your eyes meet.  He gently wiped your tears away.

"Ich liebe dich [name]."  Ludwig said, lightly blushing.  "I vould have told jou sooner but I thought I vould be rejected."  You just stared.

'He's doing it out of pity.'

"L-Ludwig, p-please d-don't d-do t-this o-out of p-pity or-"  You were cut off by a pair of warm lips meeting your own.  He kissed you softly before pulling away and hugging you close.

"I vould never do something like zhat unless I vas serious, so have more confidence in jourself [name], because I do."  Ludwig said.  You gave a small smile as you burrowed into Ludwig's embrace, enjoying the warmth and safety you hadn't felt in a long, long time.

"Okay L-Ludwig, I'll try."

~Fin~