Request from @kissofdemon13 enjoy!

Staring at the blade in hand I took it between my for finger and thumb, cutting a thin line on my wrist. Blood came out and I felt the rush of relief run through me, I made another line and another, I continued cutting, not stopping till I felt dizzy. Putting the blade back in the medicine cabinet, I turned on the sink and washed my arm with cold water, I turned off the faucet and wrapped my arm up with gauze. I had to make sure that the lines wouldn't be visible tomorrow,  if they are Ludwig will not be happy. I sighed and went out of the bathroom to my room, I layed down on my bed spreading my arms out wide.

' Life sucks.' I thought to myself as I turned over on my stomach and stared out the window, watching as the stars twinkled in the night sky. Sitting up I took out my I-pod from my drawer and hit a random song. I smirked slightly and layed back down, this song describes how I feel everyday.

Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down
Or have you go it's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but still don't know what it means
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook
For the last time take a good hard look

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book but the pages are all torn and faded

I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay now(I'm okay now)
But you really need to listen to me because I'm telling you the truth I mean it I'm okay (trust me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well I'm not okay, I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay

'This explains me so much.' I thought again, my ex boyfriend took pictures of me and my scarred body and posted it all over the Internet. I tried commenting suicide by jumping out of a window but I only broke a foot. Most of my friends abonanded me and the only ones that are left are Ludwig, Arthur, Francis, Ivan and Matthew.  Everyone else left me in shattered pieces, but Ludwig picked them up and tried gluing me back together but a fee are still missing. I went to bed that night. I can't  wait for school.

I woke up at the sound of my alarm and got up, shutting it off I stretched and walked to the bathroom.  I passed my brother, Jason, in the hallway, he grumbled a good morning and went downstairs.  I went into the bathroom, shedding off my clothes I turned on the water, hot just the way I like it. I stepped in and shampooed my hair, then conditioned it. I finished and got out, drying off. I walked back into my room, since it was fall I could wear long sleeved shirts and pants and no one would know, only that they already did. I put on a black long sleeved shirt and black pants with boots. Bracelets covering my arms as well. I dried my hair and brushed it out and went downstairs to have breakfast. I was greeted by bacon and eggs.

" Good morning Ollie." I said to my older brother as I sat down.

" Good morning deary!" Ollie said cheerfully, completely oblivious to my depression. I try to keep my life out of my family, knowing them they would kill anyone who messed with me. I felt a hand ruffle my hair roughly, I ignored it and ate some bacon.

" Morning dollface." My brother Jason greeted me and sat down next to me eating some facon.

I was on my way to school when Ludwig came up to me, Ludwig is a german exchange student from Germany along with his brother Gilbert who says he is Prussian even though its not a country anymore.

" Hallo [Name]." Ludwig greeted me.

" Morning Lud." I said, trying to act cheerful for him.

" Everyzing okay [Name]? Jou seem out of it lately." Ludwig asked, oh yeah another thing Ludwig gets very concerned over his closest friends. I 'smiled',

" Yeah everything is fine! Nothing to worry about!" I said cheerfully like Oliver would. Ludwig looked at me concernly but just nodded.

" Okay." He said and we walked the rest of the way in silence.

We got to school and we went our separate ways, as soon as I stepped through those doors I was on my own. No one to back me up,  I was pushed and shoved into lockers, insutls spewed ay me ranging from

" Cutterslut!" Thats one of them.

" Whore!" And the other one although cuttersult is my new nickname now a days. I sighed continuing to walk to my locker, teachers never cared for me, they never did anything.  All they did was put me in detention,  for what? I did nothing. I got to my locker and got my daily hate letters.
Just go and kill yourself! You're a useless piece of trash! Everyone would be happier if you just died already!

The note said, I felt tears well up a little in my eyes.  Usually they would call me names and all but know death threats? Can my life get any worse? Apparently so..

Michelle, the transfer student from Seychelles who thinks she is better than everyone else.  Bullshit. She walked up to me and smirked.

" Well look what he cat dragged in." She said putting a hand on her hip sassily.

" At least I don't look like burnt toast." I said back standing up straight.

" At least I don't cut for attention." She said circling around me, by now the bell had rung and it was only me and her.

" Besides your not even beautiful, your just a piece of ugly trash." She said punching me in the nose. I stumbled back and growled.  Suddenly I was kicked to the floor as she kicked me with her heel, she it dug into my abdomen.  I felt a crack, definitely a rib there. My black shirt was now drenched with blood, I layed there as I bleed. I stood up as she walked off, I felt tears well uo once more and i dragged my abused body out of the school.

I ended up on the top of a twenty story building, staring down at the cars and people down below. Suddenly the doors behind me opened, I turned around and saw Ludwig, Oliver and Jason there.

" [Name]! Don't do it!" Jason said as he stepped catouisly towards me. I backed up an inch and they gasped.

" Please poppet don't do it!" Oliver cried out, tears spilling out of his eyes.

" Why shouldn't I?" I said, tears as well in my eyes as well.

" Because jou have people vho love jou!" Ludwig yelled this time, staring into my eyes.

" Yeah like who?" I asked.

" Jour brothers, jour friends." He said.

" All of my friends abandoned me!" I yelled.

" Please[Name] don't do it." Ludwig whispered.  I shook my head and stepped back but before I could fall Ludwig caught me in his arms. I stared up at him with wide eyes, panting.

" I love you." Ludwig said pulling me into a hug.

" Don't ever leave me." Ludwig whispered into my shoulder.  I cried, I cried for the first time since the third grade.

I layed in the hospital bed, stiched up around my abdomen and arms. Ludwig was right next to me as well as my four brothers.

" You wanna tell us who did this?" Jason asked, arms crossed.

".." I mumbled out.

" Who?" Jason pestered.

" Michelle." I said, Oliver gasped.

" That sweet girl from down the block?" He asked, I nodded.

" She's a ..a bitch." I said quietly.

" She'll be a dead bitch by the time I'm threw with her." Matt said as he brought out his hockey stick.

" Jou okay now [Name]?" Ludwig asked me holding my hand, I looked ocer towards him and nodded.

" Yeah...thank you Lud." I said quietly, he smiled, the smile that I love.

" Ich lebie dich." Ludwig said and kissed my forehead.