"It's weird." I said to Ludwig later when Gil had gone.

"What is?" He asked.

"How did I just talk to him like that? Like a casual conversation? And how come he misses me but he wont come back? I don't get it."

"I don't know, Lovino."

"You sound angry."

"I'm not. Just..." He let out a big sigh.

"Just?"

"Just... I hate what he's done to you. How sad you were, and now he's gone and played his 'I'm so innocent' card and you're acting as though he's a saint."

"But he misses me. And he wants me safe." I stated, as if defending him.

"Case and point, Lovino! You're acting as though you didn't spend an hour vommiting because of him!" Ludwig threw his hands in the air, exasperated.

"But-" I began.

"Lovino!" It sounded so harsh.

I flinched, then sunk away from Ludwig, making a sort of whimpering sound. I know he didn't mean to scare me, but I couldn't get the sinking feeling to go away.

Ludwig, furrowed his brow, then reached out to me. "Hey, Lovi, I'm sorry-"

Cold shot up my body and I glared at Ludwig.

"Don't you fucking dare call me that!" I shouted, then lowered my voice. "Only Gil can call me that."

Ludwig sighed angrily and shut the book he was reading. He threw it on the coffee table with a loud THUMP. I shrunk away from the noise.

"That's it. I'm going to bed. Goodnight." He said it curtly, almost sarcastically, then walked up the stairs and dissapeared. I stared at the wall in front of me, left to my own thoughts.

What if he is just playing innocent?

The thought was gone as quickly as it had appeared. Then more and more thoughts like that came to mind.

He's playing with you.

He doesn't love you.

He's moved on.

I grabbed my phone and searched for his contact, then texted him.

Lovino: Gil?

Lovino: Gilbert?

Lovino: Hey, you there?

Lovino: Gil.

The texts got no where. He obviously wasn't answering. He was obviously busy with ither things. Still I texted him.

Lovino: I'm sorry I drank your beer.

Lovino: And I'm sorry if I'm annoying you.

Lovino: I know you don't really care.

Lovino: Do you know where Toni hides his Sangria?

Lovino: I found a whole bunch of it, there's like 20 bottles here.

Lovino: Have you ever had this stuff? It's really good alcahol.

Lovino: Gilbert, do you remember when you came to Italy with me and we had that six course meal. You were confused but itvwas normal to me.

Lovino: I don't know if I've ever said this but I think you're very beautiful.

Lovino: I still have a headache from last night :(

Lovino: How much paracetemol is too much paracetemol?

Lovino: 4 caplets, says the packaging.

Lovino: Gilbert, do you think Toni will mind if I drink his alcahol. I've only had three bottles. Do you think he'll notice?

Lovino: Gil! I found some of Francs' wine! Yay, this stuff is good.

Lovino: Do you remember that time where we were in that beer hall?

Lovino: Gil, this is a stupid question but...

Lovino: ... Did you leave me because I'm boring?

Lovino: I feel boring. Or maybe I'm bored.

Lovino: Ludwig got angry at me because I defended you. He says that you've played a 'I'm so innocent' card.

Lovino: Remember the maid outfit? I told Luddy about it and I think he enjoyed it.

Lovino: I don't think Ludwig will hold my hair back in the morning. Maybe I'll vomit on the sofa to get him back.

Lovino: Gilbert. I'm so sorry.

Lovino: Gil, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

Lovino: I don't know why I'm sorry, but I must have done something to make you go.

Lovino: Have you had sex with your new boyfriend yet?

Lovino: Is your boyfriend nice? Does he treat you well?

Lovino: I bet he's beautiful, I'll have to meet him. What's his name?

Lovino: Gil, I'm lying to myself. I can't meet your boyfriend. I can't deal with the fact that you have one.

Lovino: Hi. Do you remember me? I'm that guy you dated for four years.

Lovino: I just realized we met when I was eighteen.

Lovino: Gil, do you remember when we had sex for the first time? It was so sweet. I realized how gentle you must have been.

Lovino: Remember the maid outfit? I really loved it and I hope you did too.

Lovino: Gil, do you ever just feel yourself getting more and more upset?

Lovino: I'm starting to wonder if you ever loved me.

Lovino: When you smile it makes me happy. I bet your boyfriend doesn't think that.

Lovino: Where are you?

Lovino: Gil, remember when we danced together? Have you danced with your boyfriend?

Lovino: Please reply.

Lovino: Gil, the bottles are piling up. I'm so sorry.

Lovino: I bought the outfit I'm wearing today recently. I wanted you to be the first to see it.

Lovino: Beer tastes like shit.

Lovino: I'm crying again. How do you stop it?

Lovino: Did you just use me for sex? Is your new boyfriend like that?

Lovino: I just counted the bottles. Do you want to know how many?

Lovino: You didn't reply but there's seventeen in total.

Lovino: Gil, I wish I could see you right now.

Lovino: Where are you? I want to see you.

Lovino: Gil. I'm sorry.

Lovino: I'm so fucking sorry.

Lovino: Gil, I need help.

Lovino: I just thought about something.

Lovino: Gilbert. Help me.

Lovino: I'm scared.

Lovino: I'm scared of myself.

Lovino: Gil, help me. Help me.

Lovino: Help.

Lovino: Gilbert.

Lovino: I'm not in the house anymore. I went somewhere.

Lovino: Gil. I'm so sorry.

Lovino: I think I'm gonna die.

Lovino: I'm so stupid. I'm just gonna kill myself.

Lovino: Gil, I think I'm safe.

Lovino: There was a ledge.

Lovino: I got back to the house.

Lovino: Gilbert. I miss you.

Lovino: Gilbert, I love you.

Gilbert: Lovino?

Gilbert: LOVI!