I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
***
England's POV
I can't, I can't handle the ignoring she has been doing to me. I feel, forgotten when she does that. That damn French frog! Why did we have to kiss!? Why did I even agree to meet with him!? I don't give two flying ducks for the answers, but I will give even a million flying ducks just for her to notice me again, to be mine again.
***
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
***
She's still in England though, in my capital actually. But, she don't even want to at least glance at me using her peripheral vision, or listen to my voice. I always see her with some guy, probably a friend in high school, and hopefully not her boyfriend. She always look so happy, but since we've been together before, I know that the guy with her hurts her from time to time. Does she read the letters I mail her when she's sad or hurt?
***
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
***
All the memories, all the happiness, was it just fake? Was it a lie? Was it just a dream? Look at me, thinking like this! Obviously it was real! But if it was real, how could she move on so easily? I really want to know the answer, I really want her.
***
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
***
I can still remember the day she broke up with me like it was it yesterday. She caught me kissing Francis, sthen she told me we should break up. I never wanted to kiss him, he forced me to. I wish I never really agreed an gave in when he forced me to do it. But I'm not Superman or Father Time to turn back those depressing times and go back to the gap ones
***
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
***
I wish that one day, I'll wake up and start a day where I won't remember the pain it felt. Her slap was a mere drop of pencil, but the break up was like a bullet to a heart. The pain was beyond extraordinary, beyond my understanding. Those happy memories that made me feel complete.
***
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
***
All our pictures, even those annoying selfies we did, are still on my phone. Not wanting to delete it, it held beautiful memories. It made me happy to see them, but it also makes me feel lonely. I wish she was still here, laughing and sometimes teasing me.
***
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
***
I'm happy that she's happy, but it hurts that I'm not the reason of her felicity. My brothers keep on saying her name, her aesthetic name. The halcyon name that she really likes being rolled of my tongue. She really likes the sound of her name in my accent. I wonder if she misses the way I say her name.
***
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
***
It's like she never loved me, was it just a lie? A dream? A delusion? If it was a dream or a delusion, why did it felt real? How can she stay happy, laughing? Did it affect her?
***
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
***
I remember the day she broke up with me, we were in the cafe where we also first met. She told me she really likes cappuccino with macarons. But that day she told me she hated me, with pure disgust on her voice.
***
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
***
I wish I could just forget those horrible memories, but even if I forget it, she's still not mine. I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, maybe I can forget all the pain. But at the same time, the joy. I can't escape a horrible memory, without sacrificing a beautiful one.
***
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
***
If today I woke up, with her comfortably sleeping beside me. Like the whole break-up was just a dream, I'll keep her with me, closer than I did before. So she won't leave me, she won't break-up with me.
***
***
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
***
She left me, the future we planned, and the wishes we made. But I'll get her back, I can't just mourn for her loss I my life. I'll make her mine again, and I'll love her more than what I did before.
***
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
***
I'll just need a little magic, and a beautiful scenery. Then I'll make her mine again, maybe I can get help from my brothers. I can get all the help that I need, and make the plan to action.
***
'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all
***
Once I have her, we'll pretend this whole break-up was just a dream.
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So I'm gonna share you guys, my reaction when I watched the Hetalia: Episode 23.5!1

Okay, at first I was curious on watching th episode. I mean, okay the pictures we're slightly creepy, but it's okay. So, I listened to the story. I have to admit, I was shaken, but I wasn't that scared. So, I was very curious and I tried watching a video. So, the day after I watched it, I had a dream of what the episode would have looked like. I'm still curious though of what it looked like.1

XOXO,
HetalianTomatoFairy