Set II:

13. If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?

     This is getting repetitive at this point: but what happens after we die (but only if the answer if afterlife. If it's nothing then I don't wanna know lol) or—and this is totally cliché—if I'll ever be happy happy you know. Like nothing is bothering me, I'm not stressed or anxious and everything is perfect.

14. Is there something that you've dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven't you done it?

     Van life. Nomad life. Whatever. It sounds absolutely amazing to me. I could do it in America or I could hope over to Europe and just say in the Schengen Area for the most part and it'll be like going between states. (Which is something I've noticed: the EU is the European equivalent of the US)

15. What is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

     Being my high school's Valedictorian I guess?? I haven't done much with my life. I am only 18 lol.

16. What do you value most in a friendship?

     I don't know. I have a weird thing with friendships. As in, they only exist in person. Like in my mind, I only have school or work or whatever friends. But the only people I talk to outside of school are online friends and I only have one of those atm. 

17. What is your most treasured memory?

     Bold of you to assume I remember anything good. Jokes aside though, I genuinely don't know. I don't treasure memories. Good things kinda just happen and that's that.

18. What is your most terrible memory?

     Bad memories however, I know all too well. Not going into detail but it was an OB/GYN appointment and I think that speaks for itself. 

19. If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Why?

     I've always wanted to do more with my life. But my life has barely even started. I don't even really have a life. All I do is go to school, work, home, homework, sleep, repeat. And it's an unfortunate routine that I'm trapped in. (Watch me pull up all my old essays on The Stranger and The Myth of Sisyphus talking about how life is a prison and the only way to escape is to die.)

     I think if I knew I would suddenly die, I would be too scared and freaked to do anything. To change anything. I would probably just sit and panic until I did die.

20. What does friendship mean to you?

     Again, I have a weird thing with friendship, so I'm not entirely sure. Someone who is there for you, I guess.

21. What roles do love and affection play in your life?

     Positive ones?

22. Alternate sharing something you consider a positive characteristic of your partner. Share a total of five items.

     Don't have a partner. I could improvise with the other one but nothing I can do about this. Leave positive things about yourself in the comments. Self-love babey. 

23. How close and warm is your family? Do you feel your childhood was happier than most other people's?

     I feel like me and my immediate family (mom, dad, sister) are fairly close. I don't feel that close to my sister tbh and I don't know who's fault that is. Me, for being antisocial and introverted or her for being extremely social and always at her friends' houses/not at home. Also I feel like she didn't even like me until I was like 11/12 so....

    But also I feel like my family overall (at least my dad's mom's side) is extremely warm. Like we've gone on vacation together (like...all of us) and it was amazing. They're literally so many of us though like holy shit, like bitch we Roman Catholic. We came from here from Italy in the 1930's. These motherfuckers had children like CRAZY. And we all like each other (at least as far as I'm aware). 

24. How do you feel about your relationship with your mother?

     My mom and I are extremely close... I think. I think we have a really good relationship. I tell her almost everything. And I'm definitely closer with her than I am with my dad. But I think that's literally just a mother-daughter thing. Like...she's my mom, ya know. And she was actually a good one. Not that my dad wasn't a good dad. But I'm a girl and he's a boy so I feel awkward talking to him about certain things ya feel?

That's Set II, III to come!