XBCRAFTED POV

I looked around my base again, there is no one for miles.
I thought I could handle it, being alone again...
I just came back after a break, why hadn't anyone even noticed that I was gone?
I've heard the other hermits being thanked for what I do, when I build shops, the others assume it's a better hermit's shop.
No one even comes to my base anyway, they wouldn't notice if I just gave myself another few scars...

Then I remembered the few people who cared, who I promised that I wouldn't make new ones again...

They don't even care anymore.
They know that you don't like being alone but they don't visit or talk to you.
They know what the people you visit do, you get hurt and shouted at.

No, I promised them all, I can't let them down, not again.

It's her fault you're like this you know, it's your fault she died too, you didn't get her help.

She died in a hospital, it isn't my fault.

You didn't notice she was sick, you thought she was fine.

She was fine, it was a fast disease.

You could have helped.
You're too weak.
Why can't you cry to your friends? Oh wait ones dead and the rest don't care anymore.

"Shut up."

Aww ickle xB can't put up with his past, fucking freak.

"I'm not a freak."

Your sister even wants you dead, your family just want you to leave them forever.

"I know that, I want to leave forever."

You don't, or you wouldn't have reacted when your sister disowned you nor when she said she'd kill you in your sleep.

"She hates me. Old news."

Your dad even hates you, you should be social, you're a failure, you aren't the son he wanted.

"I-"

Aww is xB gonna cry?

"No, boys don't cry" His nails dig in his palms.

Making more pain? It won't be long until you just give up.

"I won't give up, I said I'd live for her, live because she couldn't..."

And it's your fault she couldn't, your fault she died, your fault that her brother is suffering now.

"I know."

A/N
Don't ask, life has caught up to my evading it. This was a vent, more than usual anyway... please stay strong.
Wolfie