Ordinary (Kersuma, Part 2)
Ahhhhh okay so, the previous shot was "Little Miss Perfect" and there's a sequel song to it called "Ordinary" so that's what I did!
I was really excited to do this one!! The song is by Joriah Kwamé and sung by Allie Grace!
Warnings: um, I don't think there's anything. Flangst maybe??
Word count: About 1100
Keralis noticed how Xisuma looked at him. He tried pretending he didn't see it, though.
Besides, it's just be easier if he let the tension between the two of them subside.
Things had been awfully awkward between the two of them ever since the night at Keralis' house.
Keralis saw it in the books that he read, the strange magic that you cannot see.
And there were no limitations to it, either. The characters wore it with pride, unafraid of what the world would think.
But the characters Keralis read about never looked or acted like him, so he couldn't depend on them to lead him through the right door.
Sure, Keralis could be who he wanted in front of Xisuma, but what was the point in falling in love if Keralis knew that he was only stalling for when he had to go back home, to hide who he is?
Keralis wasn't just the peppy and loving person he seemed to be.
Who he truly was, was an insignificant person, just one in a herd of others. Scared, alone, self-conscious, anxious, all those words fit Keralis' true identity.
Always second-guessing, tripping over his own words.
Trying so hard to go with the grain, keeping the quirks and weirdness of himself in his head.
Keralis is afraid people will find who he really is, that he's on the brink of discovery.
...but what if he's dreaming?
At least, that's what it seems like.
This guy, Xisuma, he thinks he's apart of Keralis' world, and...that new territory is scary.
If Keralis turned the handle, opened the door, discover what lays on the other side, is he asking for a scandal?
...should he still try being ordinary?
"Baaahhhh!" Keralis groaned, banging his head on the table.
"You good, Keralis?" Bdubs asked, cocking his head as Keralis moped around.
Keralis shook his head, burying his face in his hands.
That kiss ruined everything. Things hadn't been the same between Keralis and Xisuma since then.
Keralis didn't call Xisuma "Shashwammy" anymore, or tackle him in hugs when he saw him.
It was a thick, awkward tension between the two of them. Uncomfortable conversations and weak smiles that made Keralis' stomach hurt.
"I just- Bubbles, you know I was always a little bit...odd." Keralis sighed, looking up at his friend. "Different from the others, right?"
Bdubs nodded slowly, unsure where this conversation was going.
"Like...the only pea inside of the pod!" Keralis continued. He thought for a moment before speaking again. "Wait- that's not the expression! Oh well..."
Keralis let out a pitiful little giggle, before crying out, "Agh! See? That's exactly what I mean! I'm just so-...awkward!"
Keralis turned bright red and lowered his voice. "And...Shashwammy makes me nervous. I hope he can't tell."
The brunette turned his head and sighed. "What does he see in this cluster clump of me? Or am I going crazy?" Keralis shook his head back and forth as Bdubs put a comforting hand on his shoulder.
Keralis felt tears well in his eyes and he stood up from the table. He stifled a sob as he exhaled, "Oh, who am I kidding? This isn't a sweet beginning, just a detour to the end."
"Keralis, wait-" Bdubs tried walking after Keralis, but he shook his head.
"I'm fine, Bubbles." Keralis smiled, though he was clearly not okay, from the wavering of his voice to the tears threatening to fall from his eyes.
Bdubs asked gently, "Are you sure?"
Keralis nodded. "Yes. I just need to think." With that, Keralis walked away.
He walked to the park, a place where it was nice and quiet, no other people around besides some birds and a squirrel.
Keralis sat on a bench and sighed, feeling the cool wind mess up his brown hair.
Back to the herd where he belonged, eventually he would have to go.
Tripping over himself, his own words not coming out right, unable to speak his mind.
It was so hard, to pretend to be normal, to be like everyone else. To be happy, the average Joe.
"K-Keralis?"
Keralis looked up, and Xisuma stood there in from of him, wearing a light vest and scarf in the chilly weather.
Keralis felt his face warm, and his mind was racing with thoughts.
Do I rewind, induce amnesia?
Pretend I didn't see him?
Succumb to stupid fear?
Or...
...just believe in my heart?
Xisuma stared at Keralis, and Keralis felt a strange new emotion trickling into his head.
Why play a part?!
Why follow the herd?!
Why not trust in my words?!
Don't wanna go with the grain!
Why try to make myself plain?!
I'm on the brink of rediscovery I think!
So what if I'm dreaming?! I like the scene that I'm in!
Keralis took a shaky breath and stood up to be at eye-level (well, sort of) with Xisuma.
He put his hands on Xisuma's shoulders, who tensed from the contact.
And this guy is apart of my world!
The thought of being normal's far more scary!
"Keralis, y-you don't have to do this." Xisuma whispered. "I'm really sorry. I-I messed everything up, didn't I?"
I'll be brave and I'll be kind!
I'll make a choice and change my mind!
I will mess up all the time!
Keralis cupped his hands around Xisuma's face. "You didn't do anything wrong, sweet face."
He leaned in and kissed him.
They'll say I'm weird, but I'll be fine!
Xisuma's breathing hitched, a breathless gasp escaping his mouth before he slipped his hands around Keralis' waist.
Keralis wrapped his arms around Xisuma's neck, tilting his head upwards to kiss him better.
"I-I think I love you, Keralis." Xisuma whispered, pulling his head back a tad bit.
Keralis smiled, putting his forehead to Xisuma's. "I think I do, too, Shashwammy."
They kissed again, sweetly, and for once, the thought of being with each other wasn't so scary anymore.
I'll be anything but ordinary!
AHHHHHH I DONT KNOW IF THAT ENDING WAS SATISFACTORY FOR YOU BUT I THINK ITS OKAY????
Okay, whooo that was actually kind of fun! I probably will do more Kersuma, but I'm gonna look for more ships!
As always, if you have a suggestion for a ship or plot, please let me know!
-Veggie
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