I know this is stupid, but I just have to get it out.

I'm twice as stressed them when my break started, and I have a hard time focusing. I just feel so damn useless when I don't write or draw anything, and since I don't have my drawing book in my room that's not an option, and nothing is coming to me. I'm afraid I'll stay up all night trying to come up with what to write, which isn't good for my already horrible sleep habits.

And I know I can't get anything out for this book in particular since even if I where to finish I'd need to send it to my bate, aka my Girlfriend, but I don't have google docs on the iPad so I can't do that.

Which is a mother thing I feel horrible about, I sometimes uploaded things without it being beta read and I feel horrible about it!

I just need one day, one day to relax, but I can't have one day. I have too much to do, a math test, getting a job (not really, it's just a thing schools do to give students experience on the field), plus it my parents won't be happy, since the only way I'll be allowed to stay home is to lie and say I'm sick, cuz why would I ever need to stay at home when I'm not sick?

I'm actually genuinely afraid, of what I have no real idea, but I think I'm afraid to pass out at school, or something. As I said I really don't know.

I don't even know if my shoulders ever stop tensing. And every time I think I can relax I can't, there's always something in the way.

Now I'm gonna ask for a little help, how can I convince my parents to let me stay at home whilst not telling them everything? I really need to know.

Let's end this on a happier note, shall we? If you write/ draw something related or inspired by something I've made please tag and tell me (in the comments)! I'd love to see what y'all have done! And if you've already done something like this please tell me again (even in Tumblr if that's where you posted it) since I probably haven't seen it.

That's everything, now I wish you all a better time than me!