Welcome to Concorp - Scar's POV
(You'll notice that through Scar's POV, things are a little different. That's because he sees things differently.)
I woke up in my pirate cave, groaning. Great. Another day of hell, where the voices constantly compare me to everyone else and I feel like shit all day. I curled up in my bed, not wanting to get up, wishing I could just sleep forever. But isn't that just the equivalent of being dead? "Wait. Oh no. I'm late for the tour! I'm supposed to give a tour of Concorp with Cub to ___!" I stopped myself.
Maybe I should just pretend to forget or be busy, like I did last time with Keralis's tour. At least then I can't mess up the tour. Besides, Cub built most of it anyway. But then I slapped myself in the face. "Do you really want to disappoint Cub again, idiot? What kind of friend are you?!" Sighing, I dragged myself out of my pink bed. That pink bed is so stupid. Pink?! Seriously?! Shaking my head to get the voices out, I gathered my items.
"Maybe I should dress up and wear something fancy?" No, you'll just look stupid. You'll never look as official as Cub. I decided to just wear my normal outfit. Putting on my elytra, I flew off to Concorp, devising not to eat breakfast. Like always, I was amazed by the sheer beauty of it. Concorp truly was a beautiful place. And Cub built pretty much all of it. Why are you even here? Cub's the one who built everything. You'll just mess up the tour. Landing, I saw Cub and ___ waiting for me. Cub looked upset. Great, you've disappointed him again. Aren't you such a great friend?
"Oh! You came! Then let's get started!" They were waiting for me. Because I'm slow and annoying. I tried my best to smile, nodding along as Cub did most of the speaking.
"So currently, we are at the HRN station. And here before us the magnificent gate to Concorp that Scar built." And that's the only thing I built. Plus, it doesn't even look that good.
"Here at the entrance is Wololo the evoker. Normally you would only be able to enter if you were worthy, but today we're giving a tour. Anyway, before you is the magnificent Concorp!" And Cub built all of it. I never contributed. I'm a horrible friend.
"As you can see, Concorp is a very busy place. Right now, all the villagers are heading to work. Some of them work in these stalls along the streets, but most of the villagers work in these work buildings." I nodded along, not speaking as to not make a mistake and say something wrong. I was truly amazed by the work Cub put into this.
"Later in the day, the villagers will gather here to socialize, and then they'll head back to their apartments at night. And of course, there's bling everywhere." I looked around at all the diamond blocks and beacons, filled with guilt. These are all Cub's diamonds. I haven't contributed at all.
"And if you follow me over here, you can get things such as redstone in these different vats. All you have to do is select something on the lectern and go in!" These are all Cub's resources.
"Over here is our beautiful pond, and if you'll follow me past that you can find many amazing things." I'm a bad friend.
"To our right you will find a diamond-shaped set of beacons to project our richness into space." These beacons are all Cub's.
"To the left are the dog pens and the cat play areas for 16 flavors of Jellie." He put all this effort into this, and I never contributed. And Maui should have won the vote. Grian deserves it more, he's so much better than me.
"And if you'll come over here you can see the magnificent drone factory, where we make all our drones." That drone over there... that was for Area 77, when I betrayed Cub.
I eventually blanked out, not paying attention to the rest of the tour, consumed by my own thoughts. Why am I here? I didn't build any of this. I'm just a disappointment. I'm a bad friend. I'm just constantly mooching off of Cub's accomplishments. I don't deserve to be part of Concorp.
Feeling tears start to form in my eyes, I quickly excused myself and ran off to the Concorp board room. Running off, the tears started to spill from my cheeks as I desperately wiped them away. I can't let anyone see me like this. Hiding in one of the many tunnels that Cub dug out, I curled up as the tears continued to fall. What a crybaby. Why are you crying? Is it because you realize that you'll never be as good as anyone else in here? I wiped my eyes, but the tears wouldn't go away. I'll never be good enough.
I told myself these words over and over again. "I'll never be good enough. I'll never be good enough. I'll never be good enough." I sighed, leaning back against the wall. I was so tired. No, I wasn't tired. I was just lazy. "I've been like this for so long. It'll never get better." My tears started to slow into cold, determined, realization. "What's the point in going on?"
(Little interest or pleasure in doing things, Feeling down, depressed, or hopeless, sleeping too much/having trouble waking up, Feeling tired or having little energy, Poor appetite, Feeling bad about yourself â that you are a failure or having a lot of guilt, Difficulty concentrating on things or making decisions)
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