This is an empires smp one shot with flashbacks to 3rd life. I know it's not hermitcraft, and I know I'm procrastinating finishing Kidnapped right now, but I'm not in the mood to write it and I'm not going to force myself. Anyway, onto the fic. Also, I got in the mood to write this after reading some of Hermitcraft_Queen 's ScottXJimmy oneshots, which were great btw. Also check out her Tangtho books. I've only read one so far, but it was great and I'm sure the other one is too.

Scott P.O.V.

I watched from a distance as Jimmy began another building on his empire. His building skills, while still not the best, had improved greatly since he had been on Empires SMP.

Sighing, I attempted to turn away before returning my gaze back to the codfather. It was almost as if an invisible line kept me focused on him. Of course, I knew what it was.

It was love. The love I had for Jimmy. It had first developed in 3rd life, the chaotic help hold that no one wanted to remember. Three members of that server had ended up in Empires when it was over, and none of them had talked much about what happened.

However, there were instances when a worried Lizzie would be panicking in chat while trying to comfort Joel after a nightmare, or Pix would worry when Jimmy occasionally had to cut collaborations short, and he recognized the tears as he walked away.

I hadn't been able to escape the emotional damage either, it had taken a tool on everyone. I could often be found wandering the ground of my empire at night after waking up from a nightmare, or watching Jimmy, in a constant state of pining.

You might ask why I didn't just to and talk to him. Why I had pretended we were at a disagreement, or why I sort of allied with Fwhip, his enemy. It was because I was scared.

This server wasn't going to be void of conflict either, and I worried for him. I didn't want to get close to him again, only to lose him when wars started breaking out.

I felt bad for Jimmy though. He seemed sad whenever he was alone, with a hunched back and defeated look. His eyes didn't have their old shine, that fire that I had fallen for not too long ago.

You have no idea how much I wanted to go and comfort him, but my fear always kept me back. I couldn't go through getting back what we had, only to lose it again if he were to die when a war broke out. We had respawn, but it wasn't always perfect. Sometimes people ended up on different servers.

It hurt my heart how everyone was kind of bullying Jimmy. First when Sausage had taken his disc, which caused the whole war between him and the wither rose alliance. Luckily he found some good allies and friends, between Pix, Joel and Lizzie.

And then again when Fwhip covered his mortal in stone, and then blowing up his empire when asked to remove it. Even though I was there I couldn't stop them. That didn't prevent me from trying, but I still felt guilty afterward for letting them destroy Jimmy's empire.

I did help Jimmy repair the damage and redecorate his portal with Gem and Joel, and it ended up looking pretty good. I got to see him genuinely happy when we were finished, which made it all worth it.

However, it did get difficult to shrug off his gaze, which landed on me more often than not. I pointedly ignored it, hoping it would go away soon enough. It did, but he was sad after that and the guilt returned knowing I was the one who made him sad.

Now, I was back in my empire after he had gone inside his house to sleep. I wandered aimlessly along the stone paths, not finding joy wandering my builds like I usually would.

I just wanted to be with Jimmy again. Like we were in 3rd life. Before the fighting broke out and I lost him, before our relationship was broken by the chaos around us and the death of my beloved.

I decided I would try and build a small house, a trading shack, to try and take my mind off of Jimmy. I ended up giving up after a while of night liking the result and reading it down. I knew it was because Jimmy was still on my mind.

I ended up paying on my bed, staring up at the ceiling, unable to go to sleep with my thoughts. I knew I would have to act on it eventually, watching him from afar would only work for so long.

Curse the ever present fear of being alone again, or losing him again. I was so desperate to get close to him again, like we were, but every time I would try and act on it the fear of losing him made me then back.

When day came, I hadn't slept a wink because of my thoughts. I knew I had to talk to someone about it, and decided to go to Katherine. She was by far the most peaceful on the server, and I knew from experience she gave good advice.

It wasn't long before I was approaching the blue, purple, and white towers of the overgrown. They looked beautiful, but no wasn't here to admire the builds. I sought out Katherine, and found her father quickly humming a soft tune while sorting through her chests.

I knocked on the wall to catch her attention, and she turned towards me quickly, looking startled for a second before she sees who it is. She waves me over and I walk inside.

"So, what did you want me for," she asked. " Well, I kind of need advice. Do you think we can sit down somewhere?" She nods and leads me to a table with some chairs in the back of the building.

After we sit down, she asks me, "So what did you need advice for."

"Well, I don't know if I've told you get but I love Jimmy, and me and him were dating back on 3rd life. But after a battle that didn't go in our favor, I lost him. I was so glad when I ended up here in a server with him, but I'm scared to get closer to him for fear of losing him again."

She seemed to take a moment to consider what she was going to say, a thoughtful expression on her face. "I think..." she began.

"I think you should take a chance. You love him a lot, and I can tell it has been wearing down on you. I've seen you watching him from afar occasionally, and your expression is one of pure pining. I've also seen him, and he seems really sad and depressed a lot of the time. I've also talked to him, and he misses you. He wants you back, but thinks he needs to give you your space."

"All in all, I think it would be best to take a chance and return to him. Even if a war breaks out, he'll have you and his over allies to keep him safe, and I think both of you need the happiness that'll come from something like that after 3rd life," she concluded.

Her advice seemed well thought over and she was right on point with a lot of things, so I trusted her. She seemed observant and like she knew what she was doing. So I hid my goodbyes to her and told her I was going to Jimmy. She bid me good luck as I flew off.

It wasn't long before I landed on the edge of his empire. I admired the builds for a second before walking in and beginning to search for Jimmy in the swamp.

I found him in his storage room, sorting out chests. I smiled, knowing that was something he never did. I knocked on the door to be polite before calling out to him. "Jimmy, do you have a moment to talk?"

He immediately came to the door and opened it in surprise. "Scott?" He asked, tilting his head like a confused child. Note: I still do this to show I am confused sometimes. "I just... wanted to talk about a few things," I told him. " Oh, sure, let's go to my house, " he responded.

I looked at him in admiration as he led the way to his house, before following in his footsteps. When we got to his house he opened the door for me to go in, as polite as ever. When we had both sat down, I began to talk.

"So I've been thinking a lot about this, and also gotten some advice from Katherine," I paused to take a breath and calm myself, also preparing for a negative reaction. " I've missed you, Jimmy. I've missed you so much. I've missed what we were. "

"Then why didn't you come back," his voice was devoid of emotion, leading me to think the worst, but I continued in hopes I was misunderstanding.

"I know it's a pitiful excuse, but I was scared. Scared of losing you again after getting so close. Scared that the events of 3rd life might be repeated. Scared I would lose you again," at the end I had tears in my eyes, afraid he wouldn't be accepting of me after I ignored him for so long. Honestly, I didn't deserve him to accept me back after I ignored him.

But when I looked up, he had a smile on his face and tears in his eyes. "Oh, you've had no idea how long I've been waiting for you to say those words. I just needed to know you weren't gonna leave me again."

After saying that he tackled me in a fierce hug, holding me tight in hopes it might prevent him from losing me again. Looking into his eyes, I murmured, "I love you."

" I love you too, Scott. "

How the heck do the things I always think will be short end up so long. This one was almost seventeen hundred words and I expected it to be less than five hundred. I also took way to long on this, like two and a half hours. And it is now last 1:00 in the morning. Anyway, I'm out until tonight probably

~Leaf