Hah, god welcome to my vent book! anyways this is all for fun btw okay thanks bye!!

SUICIDE WARNING!!!!!!! CUTTING WARNING!!!! SLUR AND INSLUTS!!! -DO NOT READ IF AFFECTED BY THESE TRIGGER WARNINGS!!-

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'get out of  my way, loser.'

That's all Michael Mell will ever be to Society, the "antisocial headphones guy that was a huge loser and a waste of space" yup. thats him! he heard this so many times that he learned to block them out but now..

those words were coming out of his mouth..Jeremy Heeres mouth... Michaels only and best friend of 12 years

To Jeremy, they were nothing- just being a normal drunken teen saying random slurs

To Michael, they hurt. a lot. almost like you were getting crushed with a bunch of bricks , yup so he was doing awesome!..

Michaels P.O.V

"okay...fine." i spat at my bes- no, Ex best friend ."ugh, fucking loser." Jeremy Heere said before pushing me off the door and turned on his heel, out of the door.. leaving Me.. here.. alone..

"well, this is fan-fucking-tastic!! well whatever, I DIDNT NEED YOU ANYWAYS!!" i yell, people are gonna think your crazy, i tell my self "im good with that. i dont ca-"

"HEY IS ANYONE IN THERE?! OTHER PEOPLE HAVE TO USE IT TOO YOU KNOW!!" i hear someone yell, i think as quick as possible to response-

" IM ON MY PERIOD!!" i yell back, flushing the toilet trying to make it a lot more believable.

Beat..

"take your time honey!" they yell back, i hear them stomping away... great.. alone again..

you know, i bet Jake has razors

"i stopped...Jerem-"

Jeremy isn't here.

"right...Jeremy left me... b-but i made a promise..."

one cut shouldn't hurt..

" i mean... just.. a couple never killed anyone right?..." so thats what i did...

one

two

three

four

five

Six.

"s-six...ugh why dont i like the number six?.."

you and Jeremy met when you were 6.

"oh right... him...6 years old...was it.. kindergarten?... ugh.." i looked down at my neck, around it was a necklace, it was half a heart and it said player 2

get rid of it.

"yeah...i wont need it anyways..." i rip off the necklace off my neck, tiny beads flying and rolling on the ground.

"AGH!..f-fuck, i forgot about that.."

idiot.

"s-shut up!!" i yell, clutching my head tightly to my knees, my head started to swirl and i couldnt see straight

"u-ugh.. w-wai-" i was interrupted by my stomach deciding to make me throw up my dinner, i felt sick..

Advil

"Advil..come on Jake..please have some type of Advil.." i open up with mirror and the first thing i see is a plastic bag of condoms, 'gross'. i think to my self, i guess Jeremy would want those.

why are you thinking about him? he left you!! your a fucking loser to him~

"Yeah.. i am...ugh.."

god you such a loser~

"god...im such a..."

LOSER.

"GOD IM SUCH A LOSER!!!! UGH!! I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN!!! JEREMY HATES ME AND ITS ALL BECAUSE HE VORED A STUPID BITCH ASS JAPANESE PILL!!!...."

i wish i was never born...

god im such a loser...

Michael whos a loner.. so he must be a stoner...

i wish i was never born...

its time to give up..

"...its time to give up...." i stand up, walk over to the bathtub, i look at the curtains..

KNOCK.

i hear a knock on the door, i continue to look at the curtains- i begin to pop them off..

KNOCK.

Another knock, still not answering it. half of the curtains are off the pole...

KNOCK.

ugh.. it sucks he left me here alone.. I louder knock, i turn around to look at the door- the door is moving...theres black liquid coming out of every crack..

I hear 4 rougher and louder knocks, i feel nothing.. im gonna numb the pain soon...the black liquid is filling up the bath room...

"w-what the f-fUCK?!" i scream, its getting higher.. its half the size of the bath tub..

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK.

"LEAVE ME ALONE!? IM BUSY." i scream at the person knock viciously, i make a tie about the curtains... this should be enough... im in this teenage battle zone...

CLANG CLANG CLANG CLANG.

i feel the pressure blowing up...

BANG BANG BANG BANG.

My big mistake was showing up...

the black liquid is up to my knees now... its growing quickly...

SPLASH SPLASH SPLASH SPLASH.

the water is about to hit my face...

i look down, my some of my blood from my open cuts was mixing with the black "water"... the water is up to my waist now...

i take a sharp and heavy breath, i put the rope around my neck...i take out my phone... open up the memo app, i write a lengthy paragraph to Jeremy..an apology.

i'm sorry Jeremy... i.wish you have a better life with out me...

i look at the black water, its up to my neck

"A-AGH?! S-SHIT!!"

its raising fast, i take a deep breath and hold my breath.

the water is over my head  now.

i open my eyes and i see a  faint shadow of Jeremy smiling, with the girl of his dreams... Christine... hes... he's happy...

i take a finally look at my feet and close my eyes...i open my mouth and finally...

i took a step foward.

I'm just Michael in the bathroom...by himself...

All by himself.... and all you knew about me was my name...

Awesome party...im so glad i came..

WELL OKAY IM SAD!!! anyways, this was made after i had a panic attack... im planning to tell my mom that i might have Anxiety but im a little nervous... anyways, o hope you enjoyed!! bye!!

OTHER ENDING!!
(still sad-)

Jeremy burst down the door, he fell to his knees sobbing... he crawled to Michaels limp body and picked him up close... "this is all my fault" thought Jeremy, his fault his best friend is now dead- not here anymore with him... he let of a blood- curling scream.

Michael Mell was pronounced dead at the scene... in his records Jeremy saw the cause of death and the description of it...

Cause of death: suicide

Description: he die in the bathroom by himself.

Michael died by himself... Jeremy would say that he was fine, got over his best friends death but in reality...

the loudest voice in his head was Michaels...

If your having thoughts about suicide please contact someone close to you. Suicide is not a joke and laughing matter. please call his number if you want to talk to a professional helper..

1-800-273-8255

please seek help. thank you..