"Hey, Ichiru? Isn't Alondra, acting stranger than usual?" Maria Kurenai asks Ichiru in a whisper away from her hearing.

"Yeah. I really noticed it once she didn't hurt Aido. He's holding her hand, and she didn't even flinch. I have to find out what's wrong with her. She's supposed to be with Zero!" Ichiru says a little distracted. Maria laughs at that.

Alondra's P.O.V.

"Alondra!" I hear both Ichiru and Maria yell simultaneously into my ear. That hurt. I turn to them with a smile on my face though.

"Yeah, what is it?" I notice they look at each other.

"Are you feeling okay?" They say at the same time again. I smile and tilt my head.

"Why wouldn't I be okay?" I say to them. They get closer to my face so I scoot back a bit.

"Well you didn't hit Aido once he held your hand." Ichiru says. I nod my head finally understanding why they were asking me if I was okay.

"I'm only trying to be nicer. I've been mean for so long. I think it's time I was nice." I say to them with a big grin on my face.

"You and nice don't go well together." Maria adds bluntly. I still smile at them, but I'm pretty sure a dark aura just surrounded me since they both flinched back. Aido even let go of my hand.

"Are you saying I can't be nice?" I add not once faltering in my smile.

"That's not what she meant! She meant it more like. . . you always say what you feel. So if you started being nice you'd be hiding your feelings, right?" Ichiru interjects for her. I look up thinking about his words. I look back down at them both.

"Hey, I was only going to try. If it doesn't work. . . well, we'll just see how it goes." I say. So to avoid anything more I make up an excuse to get out of class.

"Oh! I knew I was forgetting something! I need to see Headmaster! Sorry you guys gotta go!" I say as I pick up my books and run for the door. I hadn't realized Ace wasn't there until he was right in front of me once I opened the door. I just smile up at him, and shove him out of the way as I make my exit.

I'm alone now. With no one to see. I lose the fake smile I wore all night. They're right something is wrong with me. I'm not going to tell them though. I couldn't bring myself to tell them or else they won't treat me the same. I walk to the only place I feel safe and can think to myself.

I walk slowly to the stables. Once I enter I hear the single noise of Lily. I pet her. If I could read animals I bet she would be asking me what was wrong. I really need to talk, so I might as well tell Lily. I mean she won't be able to say anything.

"Hey, Lily. How's my pretty girl?" I say to her as I grabbed a brush and went to brush her. She gives me a small neigh. She lies down.

She tugs at my sleeve with her teeth. I take that as a message telling me to sit with her. I do. I lean my head on hers and breathe in deeply trying to hold back my tears. Although there is no one around, so I can freely cry. I stop trying and let my tears fall.

"Lily, this maybe one of the few remaining moments I have with you." I start off whispering to her. "Not just you though. Everyone. This isn't fair at all!" I yell that last part. I bury my face in her mane. I think back to the awful news Headmaster Cross had given me.

Flashback:

"Uh dad? What are you doing in here? Alright Cross talk! What's going on?" I look at them both suspiciously. Headmaster had sent an urgent note for me. I didn't think it would be something awful, but now that I see my dad here I kind of have my doubts now. Headmaster Cross clears his throat. My dad is avoiding my gaze. Now I am worried.

"I'm serious! I hate it when you guys stall! SO TALK DAMN IT!" I yell. It always happens once my emotions hit their peak.

"Listen you know how the school year will be over in three more months?" The Headmaster says still hesitating to tell me what is going on. I nod my head. I'm still losing my temper here. This stalling isn't helping me at all.

"What about it?!" I say with a little less yelling, and a little more force. Headmaster Cross looks at my dad. My dad nods his head and faces me. His eyes seem a bit sad. But I'm still too angered to feel any sympathy.

He takes a step towards me, but I put my hand out avoiding him to come any closer to me. I still have a frown on my face. I give him a look that says "Talk now!" he sighs.

"Well, once you finish with your education here we're going back home. Once you have mastery of all your vampire abilities you won't have to be here anymore." He says with a fake smile. I'm taken aback by his news that I feel my whole body go limp. I somehow manage to stay on my feet. Too bad my breathing got heavier.

"W-what?" I say still out of breath. His words felt like a punch to the gut. He puts his hand on my shoulder. I slap it away. He looks hurt and shocked.

"B-but, why so soon?" I say still not believing what I was hearing. I feel so lightheaded that I grab on to the doorknob.

"You were only here to gain experience. To be taught the things I couldn't teach you in my human state." He says. Now I'm trembling and shaking my head. I have nothing more to say. I open the door and run out. I hear them calling for me, but I ignore them. I just keep running. I run until I can't run any more.

I fall down on my knees. I hit the ground hard. I smell blood. I cut myself on the concrete ground. That is where I break down and cry. I cry and cry losing track of time. I cried so much that I didn't even realize I was already laying down on the ground.

End Flashback

I must have fallen asleep since I woke up with a start. I sit up, and see that Lily had fallen asleep also. My eyes are swollen by the feel of them.

I can't let anyone see me. I stand up and wipe myself off of any hay or dirt. I open the door slowly making sure that it wasn't day time or that someone happened to be out there.

It was all clear, and it was still dark. I walk out. I don't even bother checking the time. I don't care. I don't want to see the months, days, hours, minutes, or seconds I have left here.

I stop at the water fountain. I don't know what came over me, but I got into the water. It was freezing, but I didn't care. I lay down in the water, but I make sure to keep my face out so I don't drown.

I look up at the starlit sky. There is no moon though to comfort me at least a little. The water feels refreshing. If only it could wash away these feelings.

I notice the stars slowly fading out. The dark night sky is becoming brighter. I don't move though. I close my eyes for a moment. I open my eyes quickly and I slightly jump once I feel something or someone touch me.

I look up at the person carrying me out of the water fountain. I look into Zero's eyes. I smile up at him.

"Good morning." I say. My voice sounds like I had been crying. I hope he didn't catch that, but considering how much time we've spent together we know each other like the palm of our hands.

He isn't smiling back at me. He knows something is wrong with me. He sits me down. Then he kneels down in front of me. He moves stray hairs to the back of my ear.

I look away from him, but I don't lose my smile. I have to fake in front of them that I'm okay.

"What were you doing in this freezing cold water?" He asks me looking very concerned. I close my eyes. I'm afraid if I don't he'll see right through me.

"I needed refreshing! This chilly water helped out a lot." I lie. He still won't believe me. He pulls me up, and holds me tightly. I gasp and blink quickly. I don't want to cry in front of him.

"Why won't you tell me anything? I want to know why you're hurting so much." He says into my hair. My eyes are wide open at his words. How can he tell? No one before has ever noticed that in me before. Then again no one ever really looked at me. Tears build up, but I make myself sound okay.

"But, I'm fine." I lie even more. This lying is causing my heart to beat faster. He pulls me away and grabs me by my shoulders looking into my eyes. I smile up at him.

"You're not okay. Smile all you want I can see that you want to cry really badly. If you don't tell me what's wrong, how can I help you? Remember, I promised to help you?" He says to me as I see that his eyes take on a very hurt look. This is breaking my heart. I hate not being able to tell him. I shrug him off.

"Well, it's pretty late! I need sleep! I'll talk to you later." I say as I turn around, and begin to walk away. I feel so pathetic and cowardly.

"Why are you so scared to tell me what you feel?" He says. He tries to sound angry, but he sounds more hurt than anything. I catch my breath. I stand straight. I smile brightly and turn my head to him.

"I will tell you I promise, but not right now. I hope you can understand why." I say then I turn away from him and walk to my dorm. My smile is gone only appearing once I see someone. I see Kaname standing in front of the dorm doors. I smile at him even with him pretending I'm perfectly fine. He doesn't smile back though.

"Um excuse me I need to get through." I say stepping a little closer to him hoping he would understand that I need to get inside. He is still silently staring at me not moving. I sigh.

"Do you need something?" I ask a little exasperated. He finally moves, but takes a step closer to me. I react and move back. I stumble back, and know I can't stop myself from falling. Kaname grabs my hand before I can fall.

He pulls me hard, and I smack right into his lips. He is grabbing me tightly. I'm trying to fight him off. I'm so exhausted that I can't even fight him off properly. I move my head away.

"What the hell are you doing?!" I yell not looking at him. I never thought this would happen. Once it happened I couldn't stop it. He was biting into my neck. He was still taking in my blood so I figured he could survive my blood. Although considering how many have gone after my blood I'm starting to think that my blood isn't even dangerous like the purebloods in my family.

He is taking too much and I'm feeling weaker by the moment. It's no use I can't stay conscious. I let the world of darkness take me over.

He is holding her limp body pressed close against him. He doesn't even feel like wiping off the bloody mess on his face. He is kissing her forehead repeatedly. Calling out the name of her great grandmother.

"Sayuri." He whispers over and over. He carries the limp girl back inside. Taking her to her room. Watching over her sleeping figure. Wanting, but not able to have.