I miss me.

I miss the person I once was, I long to being as I used to be but alas I have changed.

I miss my genuine smiles and honest giggles and happy nature.

Now I am nothing but a wisp. A shadow of that person I once was.

That creature of sunshine and happiness and giggles is now replaced by another of sadness and silence.

The mouth that once spread smiles, jokes, laughter and love, now spills lie after lie, and when not obeying commands it only lets out sobs.

I don't even know who I am anymore, am I that person of happy smiles and sparkling eyes or am I this one of darkned eyes and strangled sobs?

All I know is that the new me is pleasing everyone else but myself, I used to be fierce and daring and bold, but I was happy despite what others thought.
But they broke me, so the fierceness and boldness and daring nature died down, it got crushed under the weight of their criticism.

I am now but a whisper of who I used to be, but it's okay. They are happy, they love it when I agree and obey without a fight.

But the fight in me is lost, the willpower I had died down.

I feel myself drift away, going farther and farther with every passing day.
I don't think I can go back to who I was even if I wanted to, because who I was is lost and can never be back.