"Me or my forgiveness?", asked Sidharth raising eyebrows. Shehnaaz hugged him more tightly and placed her head near his head and kissed his cheek. She want both she can't choose any as choosing one will mean she is selfish either for forgiveness or for him

"Can I get both? ", Asked Shehnaaz and placed her hand on his cheeks . Sidharth closed his eyes feeling her soft hand on his. Her hand always have that magic to melt him whatever the situation is. He controlled his feelings as he don't want to go rude but his heart is not letting him forgive her as well. His heart is broken now. His heart still beat for her but that doesn't mean he have that much guts to give her another chance

He is now a practical person who think before trusting anyone. Even his old loyal employees are scared of him and his anger. They know they can't ask for anything if he is sad or angry.

He removed her hand from his face and interwined thier fingers. For that moment Shehnaaz thought that she got him but again he asked same question

"Me or forgiveness? Choose one thing Shehnaaz",asked Sidharth. Shehnaaz nodded and took a long breath to gather courage.  She know what she want if she have a choice. She thought he will let her choose both but this man is mysterious

"You", replied Shehnaaz while looking in his eyes. Sidharth smiled as she answered what he expected. He is happy that atleast she is not with hin for just forgiveness. He understood it but his negative mind still ask him to think about his decision again. He want to pamper her just like before but his few fears are scaring him. He can't go through same pain again. He can't let same girl break his heart again. He can't even stop his stupid heart which always beat for her

"Once I got you I will try my best to gain your forgiveness. Everyone deserve a second chance hana Sidharth? I never cheated you nor did you but I lost this heart to you. I love you soo much that I can't think of living without you", Shehnaaz replied with a genuine smile looking in his eyes to assure him that she told truth nothing was a lie. In between she played with hairs as She missed playing with his hairs as well

"Shehnaaz see I am yours forever I am trying I..tried but I am unable to... How to do that? You said you started loving me then how can you doubt me? Even if I understand that then was not taking revenge your plan? Your motive to meet me and love me was for revenge only right?", stammered Sidharth softly holding her hands. He stammered as his feelings came in this way. He never thought that they will sit like this again , he thought she left him forever but she came again.  He don't know how to forgive her ? How to trust her again with his heart? Is there any way from where he can forgive her?

"Hmm it was but it changed too", Shehnaaz said and looked down. Whenever he talk about revenge she regret everything. She us just left with pool of Regret. She can't argue here as it's her fault. Everything changed because of her. She could have understood before why her brother gave permission to live with his rival when people hate thier rivals.

Sidharth stand up to take a glass of water after pushing her aside softly. All these things are lot for him. Boys also suffer, even they can love someone from bottom of thier heart and once thier heart is broken it is very difficult to mend it again just like for girls

He drank water and sat near her again. He don't want to hurt her again and again. Hurting her indirectly means hurting himself

" Aacha? Then why you completed your revenge from me? If you were in love you could have slapped me confronted me. These was no need to create scene there Shehnaaz", asked Sidharth in hard voice . He is hurt that she did everything in anger. Why he was unable to hate her then,
? He looked towards Shehnaaz who looked down in guilt. He holded her chin and lift it a bit to see her eyes. He noticed her watery eyes and kissed her forehead. He wiped her fresh tears with his thumb and holded her hands in his.

"Please for God shake stop crying Shehnaaz. Everything happened and we can't change it . I just need sometime to gather all these things in my mind. I don't want to lie that I trust you when I am not sure", Sidharth said as a whisper. He wanted to talk in normal voice but most of the time his voice dump him. His voice always die in his throat. He is trying hard not to cry in front of her but her tears always affect him.

Shehnaaz nodded and wiped her tears

"Pata before I used to think you are irritating and your care too but honestly I loved them and cherished them . I missed them too . Now I will never let you go away from me

Answer of your previous question Sidharth that was my anger or jealousy I don't know but that was not my plan ", Shehnaaz told and asked him to lay down with her he nodded without any argument as he hate those silly fights too now

"Understood Shehnaaz but for me all those things were not just anger but my life turning upside down. Your Innocent face looked like evil to me when I went through those days. It's not just you Shehnaaz... I am sorry because of me you suffered insult and loss of money but I suffered as well. Not comparing us but I am hurt very hurt", Sidharth said And pulled her in his arms. Shehnaaz relaxed herself near him. Her hopes to get him are getting doubled by his words. Now she is happy that she just need to prove him that she love him and is trustworthy

" Chup... Don't say sorry it is my word. I know you suffered and I will let you forget those memories", Shehnaaz said

"How?",asked Sidharth as her serious nature sometimes scare him. What she is going to do now? What if she messed everything? What if rather than decreasing thier fights they started fighting more?

He was thinking about all these when he felt someone threw something on his face. He opened his eyes with jolt and found her near table with three pillows. He understood she answered his how so he picked the pillow which she threw and chased her

"Stand still there Shehnaaz", Sidharth shouted and threw pillow on her face which landed on her head

"Amma ruk tu", Shehnaaz said and throw pillow on him but Sidharth catched it . He grinned and placed pillow on bed for him as he know she will not come there at her risk. Shehnaaz threw one more pillow which touched his arms
Sidharth picked pillow from ground and collected it. In this way Sidharth collected every pillow leaving Shehnaaz with nothing. Sidharth smiled in victory as he won again. He want to scream he won but this was just a pillow fight..not a fight but thier game. Both laughed thier heart out breathing heavily because of chasing eachother. Once they got thier normal breadth back they looked in eachother eyes. Shehnaaz walked towards table to pick her mobile phone when she noticed him staring her. She thought he want answers so she replied

"I was just doing to distract you. You were emotional so thought to..", Shehnaaz tried explaining but Sidharth interrupted her

"Shh calm down. It's fine I enjoyed being child after an century I think", Sidharth said and placed pillows on thier respective place. He then turned towards Shehnaaz who is standing there with no expressions. He walked towards Shehnaaz and placed his hand on her shoulder

"What happened?", asked Sidharth in soft voice being concerned for her health. He checked her forehead which is cold and neck as well. Everything seemed normal then why she is standing there stil?

"Sidharth I am behaving like child again. I don't want to hurt you unknowingly. I don't realise my actions whenever I act like child. I want to stay serious the way you are and the way you wanted me to be", Shehnaaz said and looked down with a pout. Sidharth wanted to kiss her but controlled himself. He pulled her in hug as even she need some strength and someone who can calm her just like she do unknowingly

"Both of these girls are different. I want someone who is not you. I mean practically it's you but mentally not. You are serious but then you seem to be different kind of personality which I don't like. I love the way you are Shehnaaz honestly seriousness don't suit you", Sidharth said and rubbed her back. Shehnaaz tightened the hug and giggled when his beard touched her cheeks

"I used to think that I am perfect so my life partner should be perfect too but now when I am watching your serious nature I feel like no I never liked serious you. Instead I love when you behave like a child. It's ok if you will make mistakes then just remember that you should not hurt me in that day which can harm our relation. After a lot of thinking I am giving you chance by cancelling divorce so don't do any mistake.

Even I will try my best to behave normal. Keep forgiveness aside as it is something very difficult for me now. But don't stop behaving the way you are Shehnaaz. You are best in your real self only", Sidharth said and smiled when Shehnaaz kissed his cheeks. This is an example that she is going to behave like her old self not a girl who wear mask of serious nature

"Hyee sachi? But Sidharth I am scared what if I fought with you and hurt you? I don't want to do that", Shehnaaz told her insecurities with her childish nature. Sidharth helped her to sit on bed and gave her a glass of water

"Feeling better?", He asked to which she nodded.

"You are calmed now right? So can you think of hurting me again?", asked Sidharth to which Shehnaaz shooked her head. She can't think of hurting him again when she knows consequences  . She can't leave him again. He is best part of her life . She want to spend her whole life with him

"That's it Shehnaaz. Whenever you are confused if you are right or wrong just drink water and try to keep yourself in my place you will get your answer", Sidharth said and bend near her. Shehnaaz nodded with a smile his words and actions impress her everytime.
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Hii everyone ♥️✨
I want to clear one thing that this story will have happy ending not sad as reality already hit us hard🤧