Change is never easy, you fight to hold on, and you fight to let go. -???

"I have a weird feeling about today." Tohru said thoughtfully,

"Do you think somethings going to change?" I questioned with a tilt of my head.

"Maybe." She said uncertainly.

"Don't worry about it. Maybe it's just paranoia." I assured.

"Yeah, you're probably right."
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The walk to school seemed long and drawn out. The day felt lazy and languid.

The classes were even more so since I only had one with a certain exuberant blonde boy and a curse loving seaweed headed boy.

"I know it's early, but we want to get an idea of how well prepared you are for the future. Please bring your parents to discuss your future plans." I smiled at the irony. Discuss my future plans with what parents?

Did an adoptive grandfather count as a parent?

As if reading my mind she gestured for me to stay after class.

"If you are uncomfortable, you don't have to come. I was made aware of your situation but it's always nice to have a second opinion. Why don't you come and talk to me anyway?" The teacher asked gently.

I merely nodded before excusing myself to leave.

When I walked out I was immediately tackled by a blonde boy.

"Oof." I grunted, stumbling before glancing back only to double take.

"Sorry Hinata~!" He grinned.

"Where's your hat?" I frowned.

"Hm? Oh I decided it was a little bit too childish to wear." He grinned.

I nodded and bit back my protest. It was just a hat.

"Everyone's eating in the courtyard. Do you wanna eat with them?"

I was about to tell him I couldn't go out right now because in my medication instructed me to keep out of the sun and it was extra hot today but stopped myself.

He would probably come with me.

"I actually have to help a teacher with something. You go ahead. I'll catch up." I assured.

"Are you sure?" He asked uncertainly.

"I'll be fine." I smiled and shooed him off.

I watched him skip outside, sending a concerned glance before turning to the others.

I was glad to have a friend like Momiji. He would drop anything just so I wasn't alone. I was grateful but I didn't want him to end up friendless because of me.

A little lie here and there so he spent time with others wouldn't hurt him. I walked to the bathroom and shut a stall. I pulled up my jacket sleeve and flinched at the dark bruise I was given by Akito's last visit.

He appeared every Saturday with a new warning and beating.

I've been careless. I had to start distancing myself away from Momiji. Even if it hurt, as long as he wouldn't be hurt, it would be fine.

I pushed down the sleeve and exited the stall.

I walked out, fully intending on going back to my classroom and having my lunch there when a painful spike of pain his my chest.

I gasped and staggered against the wall, hyper aware of the painful, hard thuds my heart was going.

What was going on? I took my medicine and I didn't do anything to excite my heart so why was I getting an attack?

Another stab of pain crashed me to my knees. I flinched and took deep, calming breaths, fumbling with my medicine I quickly put a pill inside my mouth and rode out the pain.

Finally it subsided. I stood up on shaky legs and traced the wall back to my classroom, wondering where my strength had went.

I pushed the thoughts away. It didn't matter. If I kept taking my medicine this would be a one time thing.

I caught a glance of a cheerful Momiji outside laughing.

If I told him, if he caught even a whiff of this. It would only cause problems. I had to keep this to my self. I couldn't pull him back when he was finally blending in with more people.

I was done being selfish.

I could do this by myself.

I will be fine.

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"Hina-chan? What's the formula for this problem?" Momiji asked dully.

I glanced over his shoulder and, grimacing at the growing height difference, gave him the formula.

"Thanks Heart Girl." He beamed, kissing my cheek.

My cheeks dusted pink and I flicked his forehead.

As if realizing what he had done, he blushed and murmured an apology.

The next moments passed in a comfortable silence but I could tell Momiji had something on his mind.

"Bunny Boy what's wrong?" I questioned, pushing down the text book.

"I-I..." He turned the darkest shade of red I have ever seen.

"C'mon you can tell me." I urged.

He ducked his head before steeling his resolve.

He looked at me straight in the eye with quivering chocolate orbs and said a sentence that froze my entire being.

"I-I...I have a crush on Tohru!"

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Okay so this chapter was all about everything that was changing.

Yes my heart is broken. Why do I do this?!? Why am I threatening Mohina so much?!

Ok, hit me with hate.

If you are confused with anything in this chapter don't hesitate to ask me.