As soon as I entered my house I fell on my knees feeling so weak. Why am I so stupid? I couldnt help but cry at my situation right now. I just slept with Jungkook. When Im already engaged to the most amazing man any girl could ask for. Do I tell him? But when I do Im going to have to tell him about my past and then everything else that Ive been hiding. Hyung-sik..Im so sorry. What have I done?!

"Eomma? Why are you crying?" I looked up and I already see Jae getting teary seeing me so weak on the floor. I sat myself up and put on the biggest smile for him and shook my head. 

"Me? Im not crying! I got something in my eye" I opened my arms wide for him and he ran to me hugging me. Jae...Im so sorry too. I hugged him tighter and lifted him up as I stood up and carried him to my room. "You should be sleeping"

"I heard you come in" he snuggle himself into my neck and closes his eyes. I closed my door and I started rocking him in my arms. "Shhhh keep your eyes closed" I whispered softly and kept rocking him. I havent done this in a while. Ive been so busy at work.

Jae...would you forgive me when you find out your father isnt actually up in the sky as an angel?.....

Would Hyung-sik forgive me when he finds out I have a son?

Would Jungkook forgive me when he finds out Jae is....our son?.....