"Good morning"She heard his soft voice while trying to wake her up and squeezed her eyes shut.

"Umm"She mumbled against the pillow, to sleep for some more time.

But his soft breathing against her neck and his fingers tracing her waist made her sleep to run away.

"Karan"She whispered annoyingly and showed his hand away feeling all sleepy.

"Babydoll"Her heartbeat rose listening to that word and she opened her eyes instantly and turned the other side to see him.

"Karan"A soft whisper left her lips as she sat on the bed in a jiffy only to find no one in the room.

Her breathing turned heavy and she correct her hair before holding her head in frustration.

"It...it's a dream"Saying she tried to compose herself the way she was composing herself since two years.

Though it has been year's the only person she could dream about was him.Her dreams were now incomplete without him in it.

Her heart would say he is here, but her mind always reminded her that it's just a dream.

Pressing her lips, she shifted her hair behind her ear and threw the blanket aside.

Getting down from the bed she walked towards the washroom and switched on the shower before standing straight with eyes open.

Because she knew if she closes her eyes, the past would haunt her.The memories will come like a volcano and disturb her mind making her day worse.She didn't wanted that.

She didn't wanted any disturbance during her work.Because she knew once she is free the only thing that's comes to her mind is him.

His face, his words,his smile, his eyes, his gaze, his stares, his smirk, his expressions, his touch, his embrace, his kisses, his hugs, his warmth, his breathing, his fragrance, his confession, his anger, his apology, his feeling, his presence, his painful gaze, his tears..

"Sss...stopppp!"She screamed gritting her teeth and clutched her dress as her heart ached remembering about him.

She freaking knew her day would start from him and it would end from him.Still she was trying to forget everything but it felt difficult for her now.

It has been two years and she tried so many things to forget him.She wanted to move on from him.That was the intention she came away leaving her own country.

But the irony was she still couldn't and she realised that reason very well.She had realised why she couldn't forget him though it has been years.

She loves him.

She knew it but there was no going back and she was determined to it.That's what made her stay here though it has been two years.

It took her two hours to get out of the washroom.Wrapping a towel around her chest she stood infront of the mirror and looked at herself.

Her eyes were fluffy showing that she had a lack of sleep.She intentionally didn't sleep because she was afraid that he would come in her dreams.

It only made her to regret more and remember him more.Her heart would jump in excitement to see him.But once she realises it's all a dream it would ache in pain.

She wanted to move on that was true.But still she didn't know why she craved to see him whenever she sees him in her dreams.

Her eyes fell over the bracelet in her hand and she chuckled gazing at it with a sigh.She didn't even know why she was wearing it till now.It's just that she didn't feel like removing it.

"I love you"She gasped feeling his lips over her neck from behind and opened her eyes with a jerk.

She didn't even realise when her eyes got close as she remembered the moment when he made her wear it.

"You can't torture me like this Mr.Luthra"She whispered with a dry chuckle and started to dry her hair composing her heartbeat.

Wearing her dress for the day.She had a light breakfast and made her way towards the office.

Somehow she spent her day working and when it was late at night she decided to go home.

"We will go on my bike"She remembered his words before sitting inside the car and shook her head.

"Why don't you go away from my mind?"She asked herself with a tired sigh but shook her head realising how can he go from her mind when he was settled in her heart.

She did try everything to forget him in the starting.But nothing worked making her to drown in their memories.

She immediately stopped gazing at something on the road and parked her car.She wanted to do something which she still couldn't do in these two years to forget him.

She even felt scared thinking about that,But now it felt necessary for her.She was not ready to lead her life like this.Not by imagining and dreaming about him.

She should find a way back to reality.

Taking a deep breath she made her way inside the club, she sighed in content and ordered her drink while standing near the bar counter while gazing at the people dancing, kissing and making out at the corners.

Her stomach churned at the thought of Karan and when she felt few gazes on her the grip on her glass tightened.

She remembered how he was jealous that day when they went to a club in Germany for a birthday party.He even said to her that she should not wear revealing dresses because men were gazing at her and he didn't like it.

'mein nahi chahta koi tumhe buri nazar se dekhe'

She chuckled remembering his words while drinking and crossed her legs.

"Hey beautiful"She came out of her thoughts and turned to look at the source of voice.

"Hii"Preeta smiled back raising her brows at a stranger who sat beside her.

"Travis and you?"He asked forwarding his hand to her.

"Um..Preeta"She replied shaking her hand with his.

"Nice, and you are from?"He asked, noticing her features.

"India"She replied while drinking.

"Great!So..Care to dance with me Preeta?"Travis asked raising his brows and Preeta chuckled knowing why was he here.

"Sure"She replied holding his hand as he took her to the dance floor.

She gulped down her throat making herself prepare for the heartbreak she was going to give herself.She knew what she was doing and she even knew the consequences.

Holding her through the waist he slightly pulled her closer and Preeta placed her hand over his shoulder before looking at his face.

She always wondered, is that only him she finds extremely handsome or there are any other than him.

Is that only him with those beautiful eyes or will she ever find someone's eyes more beautiful than him?

Is that only him who used to look at her with those love filled eyes or all the men who look at her?

Is that only him, whose touch made her feel lively and nervous, timid and shy, butterflies and what not?

Is that only him, who can bring that natural smile on her face making her thousands times more beautiful, like he used to say.

Travis's palm over her face brought her back to senses and she gulped down her throat while looking at him in surprise.

She couldn't believe her own eyes!

He gazed at her intensely and Preeta followed his gaze before tightening her grip on him.

"Karan"She blinked her eyes seeing him and joined her brows feeling all emotional.

He smiled seeing her and palmed her face causing her to smile back.

"Babydoll"She heard his whisper as he caressed her cheek with his thumb causing her smile to turn wide.

He pulled her closer and she followed his gaze as he stared at her lips then her eyes like he always used to do.

Whereas her heart started to beat loud and she couldn't believe she was feeling like this after many years.

He neared her lips and she closed her eyes feeling happy all of a sudden.

Is that only him, By just feeling his lips she would feel shivers and giddy feeling inside her stomach.His one intense gaze was enough for her to kiss him and feel his passionate kiss making her mind numb.

But why does she feel nothing now?

Why does it's not affecting her?

Why does his closeness feel so different?

Why his breathing feels freaking different?

And why does his lips feel fucking different!

The moment she felt his lips over hers.She screamed in horror and opened her eyes before pushing him harshly.

"No..Noo"She screamed at him in shock and ran out of the club feeling numb.

The air felt different as she leaned her back to the car before rubbing her lips being terrified.

She regretted coming here and clutched her hair in her fist while crying.Instantly opening the car door she sat inside and started to cry feeling her heart heavy.

She never believed any men but just to forget Karan she wanted to change herself and do something which she never even imagined because she was tired of trying to forget him.

She thought it was all because she was not only emotional but physically attached to him.She wanted to change that, she wanted to prove herself that her assumptions are wrong.

She wanted to prove herself that if she looks at any other men like that she would forget him.But hell, she didn't even know this would ever happen to her.

"I do..don't know how did I do that"She shook her head with moist eyes and rubbed her lips harshly feeling disgusted on herself for allowing a stranger to kiss her.

How could I do that?

She thought and hit the handle in anger.She felt so dirty and uncomfortable remembering the way she let him hold her.

She never wanted that.She had never let anyone touch her like that except Karan.She had decided never to date or marry someone.But she didn't know why and how everything about him made her happy.

He was freaking different! freaking different from all the other men out there.

"Why?"She screamed to herself and bit her lip harshly remembering the touch of that stranger.

Just to forget him, she took a step which would hurt her own self.She regretted to the core and wiped her tears before making her way towards her apartment.

Entering inside, she looked around to see everything dark.That's what her life was from beginning.Since she lost her loved ones.Though her father made sure to provide each and everything she needs, but she also wanted that love she had seen in her mother's eyes.

That love of her best friend and the love he showered upon her.But the later one she lost because of her foolishness and she chuckled remembering about that.

Without switching on the lights she locked the main door and stumbled.Removing her heels she threw them somewhere in the hall and walked inside.

Opening the refrigerator she picked up her favourite drinks and clutched it close to her heart before sitting in the kitchen itself.

Sitting on the floor she leaned her head back and started to drink.She never had a habit of drinking too much, but after coming here she wanted to forget about it whenever her heart feels too heavy and she will realise that it's too much for her.

It's maybe once or twice in a week and she let her heart out to on one practically.But her heart knew to whom she is talking and sharing her thoughts.

"I hate youuu"She screamed throwing the bottle aside and clutched her knees in anger.

"And I hate myself"She said further in pain and twitched her lips while rubbing them again.

"I..I don't know how I let him to do that"She cried remembering about the incident and her nose flared feeling angry at herself.

"I don't know how I thought it was you.How could I do that? How can it be you? How? I don't know how I forgot that you can't come here.You can't be here..then how come I keep imagining you"She yelled staring infront of her as if he was sitting there and listening to her talks.

"Why don't you just go away from my mind.I know you wanted me to regret and I am regretting...I am regretting losing you"She cried while saying as tears rolled down her eyes.

"I am regretting!!"she whispered lowly feeling the ache in her heart and placed her head over her knees painfully.

"I shouldn't have did that.I didn't even think twice before bursting on you that day.I was just so immersed in those nonsense thoughts after what happened that night.I..lo..lost you"She pulled her hair in frustration and shook her head while controlling the pain in her heart.

"Mujhe laga mein tumse dur rahungi toh sab bhul jaungi..sab kuch..but it's not that easy.. it's not at all easy! I didn't know about this silly word called 'love'.But now I do..I do Karan"She started wailing again but this time her voice was low as if she lost all her energy and felt weak at the moment.

"You are the one who dared to enter into my heart and I didn't realise your importance at that time.I didn't.But I regret now.I want to see you"She pulled her lower lip out and sobbed.

"I want to see you, I want to see you smiling at me, I want to hug you,I want to  kiss you, I want to love you, I want you"She said lostly and joined her brows knowing that's not gonna happen ever.

She didn't even know that she was saying these words for many months.She would say her heart out in her drunken state and the next morning she would be a different Preeta who still wants to achieve her ego and his words to prove wrong.

"I don't know what happened that night.I don't but I know that nothing like that happened and I just thought that..."She shook her head remembering her words to him.

"I am sorry..I am so sorry!"She whispered staring at her bracelet and clutching it close to her heart before kissing it.

"I am sorry for hurting you..I am so sorry.I am so stupid"she said emotionally and wiped her tears.

"I know you still Love me.I know you won't be able to forget me just like I am not able to forget you.I know you might be waiting for me"She said while standing and smiled remembering about him.

Walking towards her bedroom she took her mobile and fell on the bed while smiling.

She opened the gallery and clicked a picture of them.She zoomed his picture and smiled before placing it on the bed.

She touched his face and placed her head over the mobile imagining him.

"I love you so much"She whispered with a dreamy smile and closed her eyes welcoming him in her dreams yet again.

And that's how she would cope up with the pain whenever it feels too much to handle.She didn't wanted to think that she was weak.She didn't wanted to know whatever she says in her drunken state.She just knew that it helps her from the pain she was feeling at that moment.

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The next morning Preeta woke up with a jerk hearing her ringtone and squeezed her eyes shut.

She tched feeling irritated and made silent thinking it might be from the work.She wanted to sleep more.

But she didn't know how her mind woke her up, she didn't feel good and woke up after ten minutes of struggling.

Picking up her phone she saw the missed calls of her father's PA.

She frowned thinking it might be for some work and groaned.She didn't want to handle any of the projects from India.

"Hello"She said after calling back.

"Ms.Arora, I am trying to reach you since four hours"The person said and Preeta sighed.It was twelve in the afternoon and she just woke up with a headache.

"What happened sir?"She asked lowly.

"Anand sir is hospitalized.I think you should come here to meet him.You are the family he have"He reminded and Preeta widened in her eyes listening to him.

"Kya..kya hua hai papa ko.Tell me..tell me"She yelled in fear as her heart ached remembering about her father.

"Don't know how, but doctor ne kaha hai ki mild heart attack symptoms hai.But he is stable now, don't worry.I will tell you everything once you reach here.Please come soon"He said making Preeta terrified at the thought of it.

"I..I will be there"Saying she hung up and closed her eyes not able to believe.

"Dad"She whispered with tears remembering about her father and instantly got down from the bed to get ready.

She informed her PA to book a ticket for her and took her bag.Her heart was beating loud and her all focus was on her dad thinking about his health.

She didn't know how to react but she was hell scared after knowing that he was unwell.She wanted to see him as soon as possible.It has been month's that she hadn't seen him and that's what was making her feel sad.

"I am coming dad"She whispered, unknown to her that she was going to change her life for forever.

Well! Two years were long!

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To be continued.

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