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NICK POV

Dear Diary,

Today is my birthday! Yeay!

Today I am 19.

Yes, Nineteen and all I ever do was drinking helplessly.

Never hook up with any one, never even be in a relationship, never have a boyfriend, ugh, even to have a guy friend seem so hard.

Remember I have two annoying older brothers?

Well, my brothers do give me presents, and it was annoyingly frustrated. Guess what? They both decided to give me a box of condom. Yeah, they control over my relationship and yet give me those unuseful things. Yet.

Remember my last birthday, Nick have gave me a necklace. A platinum necklace with diamond letter N locket.

It was his initial letter, but he said it is the short form of my name. ANNE.

Yeah, right.

toddles,
-supposed to be a happy day!-
xoxo

***

I watched from between the dinner tables,  a lady was dancing around the hall with the groom. Her perfect body, to her beautiful curves, and the hair. The beautiful golden brown hair, almost transparent under the dim light. Her soft hair, hanging loosely on its owner back never bore me.

Sometimes I saw her laughing casually, and sometimes I saw her smiling widely, and sometimes I saw her frowned. Anyways her face would be, I will always miss those beautiful face. Although hiding beneath the golden rose mask, I know its her. I.. just.. know.

The song almost ended when I decide to walk through the guest towards them.

“ May I ?” I say, politely. The groom nodded, slowly backing away after giving the lady a little kiss on the cheeks. She smiled.

I hold out my hand for her when another song was played. Her hand holding mine, while my hand holding her slim waist. Of course, slightly brushing those silky soft hair. I almost groaned, her hair was such a turn on.

Pleased.

A slow song by Ed Sheeran was played.

We move slowly, silently at first, back and forth. Her eyes looking anywhere but me. She seems shy and quite uncomfortable.

“ So, the groom's your friend?” I ask, trying to create a conversation. She looks at me, searching my eyes but I looked ahead, trying to avoid her eyes. Yes, I don't want her to run away and avoid me again. Just get it over with!

“ Yes, he is. Not really, but you can say that.” she said.

“ I see. So he is your ex?”

“What? No!” she chuckled.

“ That was too far from the truth. haha.” she said, laughing a little. I smiled.

“ So you are single, then.” I said as a matter of fact. I can see her tense a little bit. Her eyes looked away.

Under the dim light of the reception hall, I saw Stephanie dancing, lovingly with Derek. Her little angle running around dancing with other kids. Some people with their partner started to get in to the dance hall. My eyes finally fall to her again.

Her tall silhouette, which I am sure because of the heels she wore. The dark blue fit and flare dress, different from the bridesmaid dress earlier, and her golden rose mask, that enhancing her beautiful face.

“No, I am not. I am sorry.” I heard she said trying to release herself from me. I smile, resisting myself to chuckle. My hand holding her waist tighter.

🎶Oh, you can fit me
Inside the necklace you got when you were sixteen
Next to your heartbeat where I should be
Keep it deep within your soul
And if you hurt me
Well, that's okay baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won’t ever let you go🎶

I sing the song along while dancing with her holding her tight in my arms. My eyes fall to the necklace around her neck. She looked down to where my eyes lies.

Her eyes, found mine as I hold her even closer to me until a few inches separate us. Her breath hitched.

🎶When I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost back on Sixth street
Hearing you whisper through the phone
"Wait for me to come home"🎶

Her hazel eyes holding mine. My lips softly brushing hers, slowly moving along her smooth lips. It take a while before she respond by moving her lips along with mine. Allowing easy access to hers. I manage to smile between those kisses.

Suddenly a single clap erupted around the hall. We both stopped and look around only to find out everyone had stop dancing and look over us. It was Stephanie clapping followed by her husband and everyone in the room.

I look again at her startled face, down to her blushed cheeks. We are still so close together.

“Nick.” she whispered, although under this mask I wear, she found me. The way I want her to find me.

I smiled, widely.I rest my head on hers, swaying slowly to another song that played. Another Ed Sheeran song.

*

The drove back to her home was quite. A pleasant quite. I occasionally stole glances to her, and a few times our eyes actually met but no words spoken. Like we both clueless and still dreaming about what happened at the reception.

It is actually nothing new, but it is also something strange. A good strange to be honest. An entire zoo seems to be escape tonight, making me feel all giddy, yet nervous. I sighed, looking ahead.

We arrived at her home a few minutes later. I am running quickly, going to open up her door when she is already outside the car. I smile, embarrassed myself. Oh, fuck this! I can do it!

Eventually, we walked to her doorstep, side by side. I wait for her to unlocked the door.

“So….” she said, playing with the house keys. I looked up to her. Questioning looks obviously plastered on my face.

“ Do you want to come in?” she ask, but I can see she is actually hesitating. I rub the back of my neck.

‘What should I do, I don't want to go back, yet.’

I looked inside her dark house. Her parents are not home yet, so I think being with her alone is not a right choice, yet, right?

“Erm, I don't know, are you sure?” I ask. She looked into my eyes, confused.

“No, I mean, yes, I’d love to, but…… maybe next time.” I ensure her. She nodded. Her shoulder seems to relax a little bit.

“Well, then, goodnight?” she said, but it sounds like a question.

“Yeah, I.. I.. I should head first.” I stuttered. ‘Shit.’

“Ehem,...”

“ Bye, Anne.” I said, backing away from the doorstep.

“Bye.. oh, by the way, thanks Nick,...” she replied.

“For the ride.”

I grinned almost happily. Hell, I am excited!

“Oh, alright.” I back walk to the car, my eyes still on hers. She is smiling!

Gosh!

As soon as I reached to my car, I see her slipping into her house slowly before I open up the car door.

“Shit! That is all you can do, huh?” I whispered to myself, I started the ignition and quickly drove off.

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