Star Pov
I reached out for him but they didn't let him in..I was exhausted and just tired of everything happening to me. As they placed me in my bed and hooked me up to my machines and fluids "Did he won those for you?" The nurse asked as she put my iv on "Oh..Yeah he won them for me.."

she giggles and sits beside me handing me water and some pills "Well at least you had fun today..I was asked to let you know if you want to proceed through the surgery?" I lowered my gaze and held the stuffed toy "Um not yet..I still want to do therapy" she nods "As you wish..goodnight"

I smiled and nodded and heard the door click shut, I knew I couldnt back out of this but I still want to by more time with what I got before I go through it..even if it costs my life.

The next morning I got up early and went towards my thearpy nurse "Morning Star, my your quite early today? We start around 11?" I smiled and walked in "I want to progress also I want to be hopeful" she smiles "Is this for that boy? The one that looks at you in that way?" I blushed

"That and also for me..I want more time and I want to get through it while I'm still strong and not weak" the woman walked towards me "What are things on your bucket list?" I blushed "Things I know I can't achieve but maybe I could possibly do?" She giggles "What have you done and haven't?" I start thinking as she starts streching my legs

"I haven't had a first kiss..or even gone all the way with anyone..how does that feel?" She smiles and shakes her head "It feels good but only if it's with the right guy..or person I suppose..would you try with that boy?" I shrugged "I'm not sure..maybe but I'll be the type to mess up or get flustered..he's probably had a first kiss and done that.."

she rolls her eyes as she moves my ankles "Just do it when you feel it's time..don't rush" I sigh and continued with my thearpy. All I could think about was Marco and is being together for just awhile..alone and just take the night away but these are just what goes in a teenage girls mind.

As the day went on my parents came and brought some things so I won't be bored but I'm always bored let's be completely honest. "Are your friends coming to visit?" I nodded "Maybe..mom I had a wonderful time with Marco but my stupid condition ruined the moment and I didn't even get to watch the stars with him.." mom looked confused

"Why don't you tell him you like him dear?" I blushed and shook my head "No! I won't because he doesn't need to get attached to me!" Mother giggled "Star that boy is head over heels for you..and you love him no matter how much you hide it and it's okay to fall in love..I know you feel like it's a burden but your still here. Living and being you for what you got. Honey your beautiful no matter the changes that's going through you..live your life for the time you got"

mom said as she held my face and kissed my nose "Mom..your embarrassing" we laughed and my mom was right, I need to take action and live in the moment but it was way too soon for it right? After our mother, daughter moment Marco came in "Am I interrupting?" Mother gave me a look and stood up "No I was just leaving"

mom left and Marco came towards me "Hey..how you feeling?" I smiled "I'm feeling better, you look more cheery?" "Well..my mother came home last night..I ran into her arms and cried..I was so happy she was home" I smiled so wide "That's amazing! Marco in so happy for you see I told you they'll come back..but wait what about your dad?" He sighs

"My couldn't come back but he'll try well that's what my mom told me" i nod and look at him "Kiss me" I said bluntly and he looked confused and flustered "W-what?" I blinked and looked at him with a flushed face "I said..kiss me..please?" It sounded like I was begging "I thought you liked Oskar?" I nodded

"I do but I never had my first kiss.." he looked hesitant but sigh "But why do you want me to kiss you?" "So I know how to kiss and not mess up, please Marco? We won't have to tell nobody.." I really hoped he pulls through on this little lie

"But I'll feel horrible taking your first kiss..wouldn't you want your first to be with oskar?" I moved closer and he looked scared "Can you just do this for me? Please Marco? As a friend I thought you would help?" He noticed my expression and nods "Alright, I'll do it.."

He pulled my face and leaned in closer, my heart started to race as he looks at me and my lips. This was really happening..my first kiss with my crush and I want to cherish this for the rest of my life "Marco?" He stops and looks at me once more "Its okay..just Kiss me" I smiled as he nods and I felt his lips on mine. I closed my eyes feeling how gentle and kind he kissed me.

As i felt the warmth leave I slowly opened my eyes "For a person that hasn't had their first kiss you weren't bad" he chuckles and I grabbed his face and kiss him a little more with force as I continue he pushed away and I felt my heart drop "Star? What are you doing?" He was blushing and I felt like I just ruined it "I was trying..to do it on my own instead of you taking the lead?"

He bit his bottom lip as I covered my mouth "I'm sorry if I went too far.." we were silent and the air felt tense "It wasn't bad..it was good" I smirked as he avoided looking at me "Thanks..Hey can I ask you something?" He nods still a little unsure "Um yeah?" I took a deep breath "Have you had..sex?"

He stared at me and quickly stood up from the bed "Star what is with you? Your acting so weird today! You asked me to kiss you and then you ask if I ever had sex?" I lowered my head "Oh I'm sorry for yelling don't be mad at me" I shook my head "I'm a virgin Marco.." I said harshly

"Because my life is short and I don't get to do anything like that! It's hard trying to act like a normal girl but I can't" Marco slowly sat by me "I'm sorry star..and to answer you question no I haven't" I blushed as I looked at him "But look at you? Your handsome and pretty cute why wouldn't a girl want you?"

I started awkwardly giggling as he gave me a weird look "Star you think I'm cute?" I nod "I guess you are? But not compared to Oskar" he sighs "Saw that coming" "Yeah..Hey can you bring me treats later today? I'm in the mood for something sweet" he smiles "Yeah of course..I'll be back later bye star"

he gave me a hug and I didn't want him to let go but I had to "Bye Marco" he took off and I fell back on my bed and let out a loud sigh "That was exhausting!" But I did get my first kiss and it was with Marco and I'm glad he did and I'm glad that he went through it.

"Hey star..changing your fluids" I nodded and sat up "You look flushed, everything okay?" "I just had my first kiss..I'm feeling great" she smiles "That's great what a special moment" I nodded "It is.."