The next morning we had our breakfast outside since still we had to stock some essential utensils and groceries in the kitchen. But I was surprised when I saw our luggage had already moved to the new house. Uff! That was a relief and all thanks to my husband...

Yeah, My Husband...

My Karthik...

It sounded foreign to me when I called Karthik, my husband. Because I had a strong feeling that I wouldn't get married due to my appearance...

According to me, I didn't want to look like a model. Myself enough for me. But this society engraved in my deep heart that I was not qualified to enter the list of eligible brides.

That's why still I couldn't believe I married a man like Karthik who was at the top list of eligible bachelors.

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In the bakery, when I confronted Ryan he said that he already knew about Karthik's moving plan to the new house and he didn't disclose it since he didn't want to spoil his friend's surprise. In the evening, Karthik picked me up as usual and after purchasing most of the essentials we reached the home. At night also we ordered our dinner outside because tomorrow morning only we're going to conduct the housewarming function where we boil the milk in a new house on the new stove.

I'm not a strong believer in these rituals but I thought this was important because in this house Karthik and I have to live together peacefully without any evil eyes.

There's a white medium-sized half-plain cupboard we got delivered at night to make our small prayer room since we didn't have a separate room for that. We arranged it near the guest room and Karthik helped me with hanging medium-sized framed pictures of Gods in the upper place by fitting strong screws, while I arrange small idols and brass oil lamps. After that, I kept pooja items in the lower drawer separately. Finally, it looked perfect and serene even though the space was small.

I smiled in satisfaction when Karthik gave me a hearty smile and side-hugged me. After cleaning and tidying the house we both collided in bed once taking a bath due to tiredness.

The next morning we held the mini housewarming party which only included Karthik, Ryan and me.  Unexpectedly as a fourth person, Kavya joined us and Karthik informed, us it was a surprise for him too, he also didn't think his sister would come when he invited her.

She didn't say anything unwanted but when she was leaving gave me a small smile and said to take care of her brother and if anything don't hesitate to give her a call. She seemed different this time and oddly calm. Anyway, I was so happy that she came today because Karthik looked happy to see his sister. 

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Time was moving so fast and three days before Karthik and I celebrated our one-week wedding anniversary with a small candle night dinner in our balcony. More than celebrating it in a lavish restaurant, I liked it that way. Because that was so intense and personal.  For the whole night, Karthik couldn't keep his hands in a place without touching me. And we both ended up with a heavy breathtaking make-out session on the balcony itself. But we didn't take it any further since we both were so worn out because of hectic work and slept on the balcony cuddling together under the moonlight...

Our life was moving smoothly with little ups and downs. But I don't have any complaints about them. Because those little fights ended up with cute romances. Little painful memories ended up with the talks of a hopeful future.

Once, Karthik tried to talk with his father, after the day of our housewarming. But it didn't go as he planned. So Karthik thought to give some more time to his father until his anger subsided. I could see how Karthik worried about his father's actions but always tried to hide them from me.

Like Karthik, I was also getting worried about a person and in the corner of my heart, I was scared to face her. That was none other than, my best friend, Abi.

After two days of visiting me, She left for the Maldives for her work. We talked on the phone rarely because she couldn't get the proper network sometimes or was busy with work. But always she promised me saying that once she returned from Maldives, she was going to take leave for two weeks and going to spend her time with me.

I was anxious and restless,  thinking about the consequences of hiding the major things from her. Already I didn't say anything to her regarding me and Karthik. Now our marriage too. I was feeling guilty that I broke our promise by letting her in the dark.

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" Woow, Akka.... these cupcakes are fabulous and colourful...Our customer gonna love it and hereafter she will give her every order here only." Aarohi said excitedly looking at the cupcakes which I made today for Mrs. Sherin's son's third birthday, our new customer.  Hope she would like it.

I made them for real☺️👆

As a routine, Karthik picked me up after work and said that he got invited to the birthday party of one of his colleagues and had to go around 7.30 pm.

" At what time you will come home?"

" I have to stay there at least for 3 hours. Or else everyone will ask thousands of questions and won't stop their bantering. So having your dinner, you go to bed. No need to wait for me... When I return, I'll open the door with my spare key." He said while driving.

" Okay... So where is the party in a club or some hotel?

" He's organising it in the hotel ' Blue Pearl'. Because, since colleague's families were also invited, no way he could celebrate it in a club"

" Ohh, alright....by the way, You could have gone to the party directly nah... Why are you getting tired of picking up me and dropping me to the flats? "

" No, it's okay...However, I have to go home to change my dress for the party. So no worries."

I looked at him continuously, and he noticed it and asked " Why are you looking at me like that?"

" So, you're dropping me only because you have to get dress change. Otherwise, you would have told me to come by bus nah? That's how I am important to you...Glad to know that..." I said mockingly with a dull tone.

Narrowing his eyes he asked " What nonsense are you talking Kayal? I said that because I didn't want you to worry about me. But you're taking it so deep. Hear me out,  if I didn't get my dress change or not, however, I would have picked you up from the bakery and drop at home." He finished annoyingly.

" No...not like that...I was just messing with you" I said sheepishly to cool him down because I didn't want to upset him when he was going to attend the function. But he just ignored it and didn't reply to anything.

His mood totally changed into sour and he roamed around the bedroom with a hard face while getting dressed and didn't speak even a word to me.

" I am sorry Karthik.... I was just not thinking much and talked like an idiot...Sorryyyyy..."  I said hanging on his elbow, showing puppy eyes. But he shrugged my hand and sat on the vanity stool to wear his shoes. After that, I didn't disturb him and went to the living hall and sat on the sofa folding my legs to my chest.

Once he got dressed, that idiot left the house without even bidding to me.

Idiot...Stupid...Hulk...bastard... Alien...Donkey-faced monkey...

I cursed him in my mind and started to cry like a baby and threw the cushion to the closed door which was near to me. I won't talk with that butthead until he talks to me first.

Getting freshen up I changed into the cotton nightie and went to bed without having dinner. To divert my mind I took one of my unfinished books ' Twisted Love ' by Ana Huang and started to read to ease my mood.

Time flew like the wind, and now it's going to be nearly 10.30 pm... But still, that idiot didn't come or call me. Suddenly I tensed thinking about the negative things because at the party he might have some alcohol and it was not safe to drive after drinking. So immediately taking the phone I called him and after a few rings, he answered the call...Thank God...

" Hello..." he said in a blank voice and I could hear some DJ music sound in the distance.

" Hello Karthik....." I stopped abruptly hearing someone also calling his name...

" Hey...Karthik...I was searching for you whole around...Where did you go suddenly while I was talking about an important thing? " I heard a sweet girly voice from the other side.

" Neha, I'll come shortly...You go and enjoy the party.." I heard Karthik saying to that girl but in a soft tone unlike he replied to me a few seconds ago...

" Aree...leave that boring phone and come... We'll get to the dance floor and talk more about us while dancing...." I cut the call abruptly and threw the phone to bed.

I was getting tensed about that idiot but there he was enjoying with girls without any worries...You're stupid Kayal... Hugging my pillow I cried pushing my face into them for how much I was depending on his presence... and I didn't know when I dozed off while listening to my phone ringing tone in the distance...

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The next morning, I woke up with a headache and sat on the bed for a few seconds holding my head until I heard the door opening sound. 

When I lifted my head he was already bathed and dressed in his formal. He kept a water bottle on the side drawer which was attached to the bed and with that the small box container in which I stored my thyroxine tablets.

Still, he held a blank face while still I remembered what happened yesterday night. So ignoring that asshole I left to the washroom while taking my dress and towel.

When I came after bathing, my headache increased and thought to have some coffee. Karthik was not in the bedroom but making an omelette himself. I just ignored him and kept the kettle on the stove to boil some water.  While I taking the coffee powder pot he broke his mute mode and asked " What are you doing?"

But yet I ignored him and took a spoon. " Kayal I'm asking you what are you doing. Still, you didn't have your medicine but here you're going to make coffee.  Don't show your stubbornness in health matters. First, go and have the tablet. " he said controlling from bursting out. 

To irritate him more I said," I won't die if I miss a medicine for a day."

And that was the last stroke he broke the mug which I took for me and holding my elbow he dragged me to the room and made me sit on the bed. Taking the tablet he forced me to open my mouth by putting pressure on my both cheeks. Putting the medicine inside immediately poured the little amount of water and closed my mouth and blew in my face to swallow it.

After swallowing the tablet, getting up from the bed taking the pillow I started to hit him. " Why the hell are you acting like you care about me? Idiot, get lost..." he grabbed the pillow and threw it to the other side and held me by trapping me in between his arms.

"Yesterday onwards you were acting weird and I didn't even have any idea what I did ?" He asked annoyingly.

"You bastard leave me, Why are you worrying about what I am thinking? You go and enjoy with your friends or ....what's that girl's name...ah, Neha.....Yes go and dance with her or do whatever you want to do with her..."

Karthik pushed me to the bed and hovered over me to control my body momentarily. He was fuming and asked " Are you for real Kayal? What the fuck are you talking about? She was just one of my colleagues. Why are you fussing over the unwanted thing? "

" What! Do you even remember, yesterday you didn't even tell me a word when you were leaving for the party? After going also didn't try to call or message me. But I was worried about you and called to check on you. But you're taking the whole fun at the party without thinking about me even for a second. What not, chit-chatting with friends and dancing...." I was crying like a small child and feeling pathetic to express to him how I felt all alone...

"Kayal,  yesterday I was already upset while picking you up due to some problems in the office. After your stupid words, it ignited more and I was hella angry. I didn't want to hurt you by saying anything mistakenly. That's why I didn't talk with you until it was reduced.

Even at the party also I was sitting alone mostly and only talked with a few ones. You know what even being in the middle of hundreds of people I was thinking about only you. Did you eat? Did you sleep? still are you upset with me?... But here you were thinking about me this cheaply, listening to the small conversation with my colleague, without knowing the whole thing.

Did you know, how I scolded her because she was disturbing me and called me for dance? If you have any doubts you may ask from her...And later I called you because I didn't like the way you cut the call. Since you didn't answer it, I left the party immediately and came here to check on you but to see you had slept already. " Shrugging his head with disappointment he left the room while saying " Thank you very much for trusting me this much."

While going to work he didn't say anything and so am I. I was understanding his words gradually and couldn't change my mood quickly. I need some time to reciprocate everything. Throughout the day we both didn't talk. In the afternoon he sent me a message asking whether I had my lunch or not.  But I didn't reply anything to him because now I was feeling a little guilty for accusing him without knowing the truth.

In the evening as usual I was waiting for Karthik to pick me up. I knew he would come to take me. I felt a tap on my shoulder and I turned to see it was Abishek.

What he was doing here?" Hi Kayal,  I'm sorry... nowadays I can't talk to you more like old days.  Because you know nah, I am a little busy with my marriage arrangements and also have to maintain my other restaurant too. Don't mistake me." He said hesitantly.

"No Abishek...It's not a big issue. I know very well, how much you're busy with everything and I heard it from Anne. So no worries. "

He left a huge sigh and gave me a big smile, " Thank God, I thought you would think that I was avoiding you after your confession. "

Now it felt weird to talk about that incident when I was married and I understood that what I had for Abishek was only infatuation not love which now I only felt for my Karthik.

"No Abishek,  I forgot about it. because later I understood that was none other than infatuation. So everything is cool"

I felt like his face went a little pale hearing that or was I imagining like that? " Yeah.. that's fine...." he smiled awkwardly before saying, " Kayal why are you standing here? I have a work to complete near to your area. So come I'll drop you by my bike."

What!!!! " No...Abishek you carry on. Don't strain yourself, I can take the bus. That's easy for me...."

" No way... I will drop you today and there's no strain for me." Saying stubbornly he was dragging me to his bike while holding me where I tried to make him understand.

Suddenly from nowhere, a car stopped near his bike with a high screeching sound and at one look, I understood who was the person and we both stopped because of the unexpected intrusion.

Getting out of the car Karthik marched to us like a raging bull while his eyes were focused on where Abishek was holding my hand.

Feeling something bad going to happen I quickly freed my hand from Abishek's hold and started to walk towards Karthik.  Placing my hands on his broad chest I tried to divert the topic. " Karthik,  I was waiting for you only. Come let go" Now his eyes were throwing daggers at Abishek while he came to us with a confused look.

"Kayal, what he was doing holding your hand in public like rightfully and dragging you somewhere...."

" Karthik nothing like that...He was just..."

"Kayal, what is Karthik for me only... Why are you bothering about her? Don't you have a fiance to bother about? " Karthik replied before I could answer and now both men were standing looking straightly like going to claw out each other's face.

" Abishek I think it's already getting late. I have to visit some important place too. So Thank you for your concern earlier and Bye...Take care" quickly bidding him bye, I dragged Karthik to the car with difficult. Oh God , I think I have to gain some extra energy to handle Karthik. He was like a steel building which hard to move.

To all the way to home, we both kept mum because he was looking like going to strangle someone and his knuckles were turned into white since he was holding the stirring wheel so hard. Already I was feeling guilty for what happened in morning so I didn't try to talk with him about anything.

Coming to home directly I went to the washroom to freshen up. When I returned he was sitting on the sofa and his head leant to the head of the sofa.

I went to the Kitchen and started to make one of Karthik's favourite dish, ghee roast dosa with sambar, potato kuruma and coconut chutney.

After a few minutes I heard a shower running sound and hoped it would reduce his anger. This calm side of him made me anxious without knowing what was running in his mind. I started to bite my lip while thinking what's next...After making side dishes I made ghee dosas and put them into a hot box.

" Finished cooking?"

I was startled by his sudden question and didn't realise when he came to the kitchen. " Y...Yeah... this is the final one... you sit on the chair ...I'll come taking this..."

He hummed and deliberately leant forward to smell the ghee roast, from standing behind me. His shirtless hard chest was well pressed to my backside and a cold shiver ran down my spine when I felt the heat of his body. I literally started to shiver when he held my hand which was holding the dosa spoon and slowly took the dosa and kept it in the hot box.

Like nothing happened detaching himself from me, he took the hot box to the dining table. But I stood there till my fast heartbeats to reduce until Karthik called me, " Kayal, what are you doing there? Quickly come and serve me."

After serving him, he asked me to feed him dosa. I didn't expect it from him but I started to feed him to avoid any misunderstandings. All the time his eyes were solely on me looking at my every move like I was his prey.

" Eat you too..." he commanded and before I could deny it he gave me a hard glare that made me eat without any second words.

While feeding he deliberately took the morsel opening his full mouth until his tongue made a touch with my fingers and a few times he bit my fingers slightly but acted like it happened accidentally.... Brainless moron...

Once finishing the meal I got up to wash my hands but he held my hand and pulled me closer to him. Before I could think what happened he started to lick my fingers by taking them deep into his mouth. He was sucking like eating some candy sticks and some reactions was happening in my lower abdomen. His sinful eyes which were located on me were more sensual and my legs were feeling like jelly.

Finally, with a pop sound, he released my thumb finger from his mouth and turning he went to the sink to wash his hands which he didn't even use to eat. Again he was been normal like he didn't do anything a few seconds ago...  uffff definitely I was gonna punch his face today...

After cleaning the kitchen and putting the leftovers into the fridge I joined with him on the sofa but kept a little distance between us. Suddenly he asked, " When are you going to disclose to your colleagues about our marriage... especially to your boss?"

" I need some time....."

Before I could finish the sentence he jumped in the middle " Why's that? Tomorrow or after the month but it's not gonna change their reactions. So Why not inform them by this weekend? After that, we can arrange a little dinner party to celebrate it."

" Karthik,  suddenly why are you so eager about this matter? " I asked turning to him.

He looked at me directly for some time and said," Okay, I'm telling directly.  I don't like that Abishek even for a bit. So when he talks and behaves like how he was
  with you today evening,  it boils my blood and all I wanted at that moment was to give him a hard punch on his stupid face and scream at him that you're my wife so get the fuck out. "

" You're impossible... He's my boss Karthik
You can't do that to him. " I warned him.

But all he said was giving me a smirk, " Try me babe" his tone didn't sit with me well.

I stood up in front of him and asked, " Okay, you're asking me to disclose our marriage to my colleagues. What about yours? When are you going to reveal to your colleagues, so we can arrange the dinner party for them too."

" Now it's not about me ...it's about you Kayal," he said standing in front of me.

" No Karthik, it's about us. Yesterday you told me that your friend invited the families of your colleagues too, to his party. So why couldn't you take me to that party like others? Because they also didn't know about us.

Even your colleague, Neha might have not tried to make a move on you if she had known that already you're married. So why don't you disclose them by this weekend? "

" Talking intelligently ah?" He mocked.

" Yes Karthik,  because if you want me to tell my colleagues about our marriage,  I would also expect the same from you...
Or are you feeling ashamed to introduce me, a fatty as your wife to your colleagues?"

" What! " He shouted. " Kayal knowing me very well don't throw your words like a sharp knife. Can you stop talking like this always? ...

How many times do I have to prove that I love you because I love the way you are? So Why did I marry you if I wanted to get rid of you? I stood against my father and married you because I love you from my heart.

But always you're thinking about unwanted things and why are you ruining our life. I just asked to disclose our marriage to Abishek because I was afraid he would change your mind one day and that I'm not a suitable person for you, which is true. And I didn't like when he was touching my wife like he has the right to do that.

But you're still questioning my love and asking me to disclose it because you want to check whether I'm feeling ashamed to introduce you as my wife to others or not.

Tell me, how many times do I have to prove that I will do anything for you and your love?" He asked holding my shoulders and I saw a tear drop fall from his eyes.

Before I could tell anything he went inside the room and locked the door.

I knelt on the floor and wondered why I was always ruining my life because I couldn't get ridden of my insecurities.  Why always make everything hard by doubting Karthik?  What he said was right.  From yesterday onwards it was nagging in my heart was it because of my appearance, that he didn't disclose our marriage to his colleagues?

I knew he was different from others whoever I  had faced in my whole life. But still sometimes my old scars and memories wake up the fear that one day Karthik would leave me understanding that I was not a perfect match for him.

Tears started to roll down and fell on my palms which I kept on my thighs. Immediately wiping them I got up and ran near to the room door and I knocked on it. But didn't get any response. So this time banged it and said, " Karthik... I'm really sorry for talking like an idiot.  You know nah, I was like that always and don't know what to speak and when." Again I knocked hard but still no response.

" Karthik........." fisting my hands I knocked back.

I know he would need some time to forgive me... So I sat down leaning against the wall which was near the door.

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I felt tickling near my neck, and couldn't move my hands or body. I remembered that last time I slept on the floor waiting for Karthik to open the door so what was this? Gradually coming back to consciousness I realised the person who had caged me was my husband by the smell of his body wash, which has a strong cedarwood scent that lasts for hours even after hopping out of the shower.

Opening my eyes I saw that now we were in our bed and he was sleeping literally caging me between his body.  His hands were around my body, my legs were trapped by his legs and his face shoved into my nape. His hot breath was making a tickling feeling in my neck.

I wanted to pee but couldn't get rid of his hold. "Karthik....Karthik..." I called his name loudly to wake him up. Removing his face from my nape" He looked at me confusingly and he was now looked like a cute baby who lost in the carnival. " What? " He asked yawning.

" Could you please leave my body for a while, I want to use the washroom. " he went deep thinking like I asked him who was the father of Einstein and looking so deeply at me.

But I couldn't hold it for more so this time I snapped, " Karthik..." Blinking his eyes simultaneously he loosened the grip and without any delay rolling out from the bed I ran to the washroom.

Reliving my bladder I washed my face in the sink basin and slowly came out of the washroom. Now Karthik was sitting on the bed placing his legs on the floor. He was facing the window and there I got the clue that he was now fully recovered from the drowsiness.

Kneeling I climbed to the bed from the other side, hugged him from behind and kissed his naked shoulder. I could feel his muscles flexing under my hands but he didn't give me any reaction.

So getting down, this time I sat on his lap putting my legs on each side of his thighs.
He seemed shocked but in a few seconds again changed his emotion to blank.

Holding his cheeks I straightly looked into his eyes, and said," I'm really really sorry Karthik ... I'm an idiot nah, that's why sometimes I talk like an insane person. But please don't be like this with me. It hurts a lot..." saying I leant forward to kiss on his lips. But immediately he put his hand in between our lips to forbid us from touching them. I felt dejected because of his rejection and I retrieved with unshed tear.

When I was going to get down from his lap, he pulled me harder to his chest and locked my hands behind me.

" What did you think? That you can speak whatever you want and I have to forgive you immediately when you ask sorry?" He asked rudely.

" N...not like that...But I can't bear it when you looked upset and don't talk to me.....I am sorry Karthik...I...I was afraid that one day you would regret loving me...I tried and still trying hard to stop those bullshit thoughts but yet, I couldn't avoid that fear..." I openly said about my problem and a little tear fell from my left eye.

" Hmm... so you are afraid that I will regret my decision and one day will leave you?...

I nodded my head looking at his chest...

"If it is the matter, I showed the love which I have for you in many ways and still if you want the strong confirmation, I've another way to prove it too..." saying he threw me to the bed getting up and before I could think his lips crashed into mine with force....

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