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After spending few hours in Park I went home around 6' O clock. Since today was Sunday everyone would be at home this time. Karthik opened the door for me and when I was entered I saw Kavya was watching something on TV and our father was not around to see.  As usual no one bothered about to ask anything.

I freshened up quickly and went to kitchen to make dinner. Today I thought to prepare it earlier so I can get back to my room quickly. While I was cooking Karthik came to kitchen and told me that no need to make dinner for Appa. This morning I heard that our father saying to Karthik he's visiting to one of his cousin's house. Maybe he was staying there tonight. Sometime it happens like that. And those  times I feel little relieved thinking that today father won't be able to scold me.

Today I made Noodles since only Karthik and Kavya is there. Because father won't like to eat noodles but he eats pasta. I don't know why?!
After making the dinner I went to living room to ask, should I serve meal for them. Karthik looked up from his phone and said since its 7.45 pm its early for them to have dinner. " You keep the dinner at dining table. When we're hungry we'll serve ourself." Serving themself!!! I was little shocked but didn't say anything and turned around to leave "Wait..." again what?   "If you want you can eat now don't need to wait for us." saying he again stared to meddle with his phone. Kavya looked at my face for few seconds and looked at Karthik's face and turned towards tv without saying anything.

I came to the dining room and served myself some noodles. Because I didn't had anything for lunch, and breakfast also I had little. Nowadays Karthik's behaviors seemed odd. What is his motive? He never mind whether I had my meals or not. But today he asked me to had my dinner without waiting for them. There's something cooking on his tiny brain but couldn't recognise it.

After finishing my meal I washed my plate and cleaned the kitchen before going to my room. Today I didn't go to garden. Truth to be said, today I'm really scared to face the devil. Earlier I just shouted in my frustration to vent out my anger. And didn't mind anyone or anything. But now thinking about the consequences I'm little terrified. Still I remembered each and every word what did he say to me at bakery.

To divert my mind from devil's thoughts I took my small mp3 player from my drawer, which was gifted to me by Abi on my 24th birthday. She knew well that I love to listen songs. It was impossible with my handbook size Nokia phone. So she chose mp3 player as my gift and I'm very thankful to her.

Attaching my earphone to the mp3 player I sat on my bed near to the window. I have a list of small wishes. And this is one of them. It never gets boring to listen songs at night sitting near to window, watching outside.

I played the song and listening to the first song my heartbeat stopped for a minute. The song was 'Thalli Pogathey... 🎶' from the movie AYM ( if you want to try this song you can play  through above attachment). That was one of my favourite song and I always used to think Abishek whenever I listen to this song. Now I'm just feeling  to delete this song. And it's like adding salt to my bleeding wound.

I pressed the next button, ' Someone You Loved.. 🎶' by Lewis Capaldi played and I just wanted bang my mp3 player. Even my mp3 player messing with my mind now. Today I hate my playlist to the core. Getting frustrated I pressed the next button. This time ' Haal - E- Dil.... 🎶' female version song from the movie Sanam Teri Kasam played. Oh My God!!!! Immediately I removed my earphone and stopped the mp3 player before throwing it aside.

My interest to listen songs was long gone. And those songs dug out my sorrowful memories which I'm preventing from being remembered about Abishek. While thinking a small tear left from my right eye and I let it fall this time freely.
It's little hard to forget about him instantly coz he was my first crush since I was 20 years old. And I don't wanted this matter to make a rift between  Abi's and my friendship. That the only thing I need at this point. I couldn't afford to lose her for any reasons.

That night I slept  soaking my pillows with my tears and holding them tightly  seeking some comfort which I mostly needed this time.

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Those👆 songs are from my favourite playlist.

🎶Thalli Pogathey - From AYM movie.
🎶 Someone you loved - by Lewis Capaldi
🎶Haal - E - Dil - From the movie Sanam Teri Kasam.

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