When I left the bakery no one tried to stop me. Better for them. I didn't want to go anywhere just wanted to be alone for sometime. And had to digest everything what happened today morning before confront the reality. So I went to the park, which was a bit near to our bakery. Hope no one will find me here. Who am I kidding, there will be no one who search for my whereabouts. A sarcastic sigh left from my mouth.

I have visited this park numerous times whenever I feel down or wanted to be some time alone. I chose to sit in the same place which I used to choose always. At the corner of the park there's a small pond, near to that a huge tree bearing with light green leaves standing strong like a stone. Still upto date I couldn't recognise the tree. I like to sit under that tree because the scenery from there was admirable and sooth to my sore eyes. White swans roaming everywhere through the water. Around the pond there are lots of shrubs with small blooming flowers. And soft breeze of air blowing around the tree anytime... 🍃Everything! This everything always make me feel good, like I wished to do star gazing.

I always had Hope that everything would be turned out to be good things in my life one day. But still day by day I'm losing that faith when everything goes correctly in opposite direction.
What was my mistake in this all?? Sometimes I think to go far away from everyone that no one can reach out me. I fed up with these fake people. Except my best friend Abi, I couldn't believe anyone. But the reality was, when she's getting married I can't afford to disturb her anymore with my so called miseries. Even she won't have time for that. So after that who is going to be with me? Whole my life am I going to be alone without having any person to love me?

I just looked at the sky and wondered how lucky those birds are having their own wings to fly without worrying about anything. They are enjoying their full of freedom by roaming everywhere. They have no bound to oblige to anyone. Even they have partners to accompany with them. What a pity! I said to myself.

"Kayal" a voice broke my peace. Damn sometimes I feel like to change my name. Arghhhhhh!!!!! Already I identified the person that's why I am so frustrated to face that person now. " Kayal, please listen what I'm trying to say. When that guy talked like that I didn't know what to say. Don't mistaken me." He sat beside me and I got up. Because I don't know what would I say in my current mood. This people won't leave me to feel little peace.

" Kayal stop, I'm talking to you only " he shouted running behind me, when I was leaving and grasped my hand to stop me. Don't know why but his mere touch burnt my whole body. Harshly I pulled out my hand from him and asked, " What do you want to talk with me, Abishek? I think there's nothing to talk between us except  our professional matters. Today I learned my another lesson to not believe anyone even that person is very close to you. Doesn't matter for how many years we know a person but couldn't find out their real face." saying I turned around to walk but paused for a minute because today I have to clear some doubts from him. Otherwise I can't be in peace. Gaining some courage turned around and faced him.

" I just wanted confirm only a thing. And I'm expecting a truthful answer Abishek.... Earlier you said there, that you are thinking me as your another sister like Abi. But you know right what I... I'm  f.. feeling for you." I only know how embarrassing I felt when I asked this question from him. I didn't think even in my dreams I would confess my feelings for him like this awkward situation.

Looking at his face I could read well what was his answer for my question." I will accept your answer . You don't need to worry what will I think." I said laughing awkwardly to lessen the tension. "I... I'm really sorry  Kayal. I have never seen you like that. You're a good friend to me and a faithful colleague. Also I think you as a sister since you're my sister's best friend. I tried to clear this matter with you lot of time. But sometimes something happens and I couldn't initiate a conversation with you. Finally you mistaken everything thinking in wrong way "

He just said like that, like it's all my mistake. Of course it's my mistake to think that a guy like him will reciprocate the same feeling same as me. I should have known my limits and capabilities. The more made me worried was his expression when he said all these things, 'acquisition' . It pricked my heart lot and felt shame to look at him.

I tried utmost and lifted my lips to show a small smile. And it worked out. He sighed out loud like he relieved from a hard task. " It's ok. Now feeling better to know there won't be any complications here after  and no more hard feelings. We'll forget  everything and do our best for future." I said however controlling my voice from shivering.

He smiled casually and said" I'm happy that you understood the situation and moved on quickly from that matter. Thank you Kayal. " looking at his wrist watch he continued," Okay Kayal its getting late. I have to go to Bakery. You can take a leave today and join us tomorrow. Okay bye. Take care" saying he left just like that.

I just stood their watching his retreating figure. He left even  without looking back at me for once to check whether I'm doing okay or not. I'm really a idiot to have feelings for a guy like him who didn't feel any guilty that he rejected me infront of all those people before telling me anything. He didn't think how would I take his rejection in like that situation already when I was terrified.

He could have answered to Siddarth in any other way before making a statement of rejection to my unsaid feeling which was well known by him. But even for a minute he didn't think how would I feel.
I felt wet in my cheeks. Then only I realised tears were rolling out from my eyes.

Why am I blabbering the same thing like a insane person and shedding tears like this. He's not worth for my tears. And I had to wipe out all those stupid feelings of him, thinking that I wiped my tears harsly until I feel burn in my cheeks.

But I didn't feel much pain because the truth is, sometimes our inner pain will over rule the physical pain.

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Some may have gone through this experience in their life. But I would like to say, do not worry for someone who doesn't understand your value and feelings.

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