Loving was the most exquisite form of self destruction
-Anonymous

Look who is back to give an update for you all!

Ahira's pov.

Taking out the food for him in the plate, I set the table and was about to go up when he came down.

My steps halted feeling his rough hands around my wrist.

"Come" He said tugging my hands.

"Where?" I asked.

"I have to talk to you" He said, his expression transforming into a serious one.

I nodded sensing his serious mood. Guiding me to the chair he sat down and here I thought he would pull out a chair for me like gentleman. Not wanting to make a fool out of me, I was about to go and sit on the opposite chair when he held my hand and pulled me into him, make me fall on his lap. Once realisation hit me, my eyes widened.

"What are you doing!?" I asked.

"No one will see us now that we live alone" He winked. His seriousness long vanished into thin air.

"Promise me something" He whispered taking out a morsel of chapati and fed me.

"What?" I questioned.

"You know right that I'll always be with you no matter what" He asked. I nodded blinking my eyes.

"Then why don't you talk to me about what's bothering you?" His expression was so adorable that I fell for him once again.

"We always want smiles and happiness from life but it always gives us problems and tears. But you want what? We should learn to make our life beautiful with those tears and problems"

"Why are you trying to be all philosophical when you don't know how to be one?" I pouted trying to avoid this topic.

"Don't change the topic" He glared.

"I'm sleepy Azlaan" I faked a yawn getting up from his grip.

"You aren't" He held my hand in a tight grip making it difficult for me to escape.

"We are going out" He announced further. I frowned looking at him and then at the clock, which showed 11pm.

"Where are you going " I interrogated. He narrowed eyes his looking at and without answering, marched towards our room after washing his hands.

Taking the plates, I put them in the sink to wash it afterwards. I headed to our room to see what that husband of mine was upto. When I entered , I found him all ready in a fresh pair of black jeans with white t-shirt half tucked. His hair slightly wet and messy. He was looking devilishly handsome, taking my breath away!

"Why do you want to go out now?" I asked in my usual flat tone.

"Come on, stop interrogating and wear that" He said pointing towards the bed. That's when i noticed a black denim jeans and t-shirt in the bed exactly same as his, just the top was little bit long with a black hijab accompanied.

"I am not coming anywhere" I said taking the dress and keeping it neatly on the couch. His face fell and he ran a hand through his hair, making it more messier! God how much I miss raking my fingers through them.

"Be a good girl and change into them or else I'll take you in this dress" He said in his stern voice.

Yuck! In this night dress! Well it was not that bad. I was wearing a cute panda t-shirt and pyjamas which I don't really wear in front of anyone except Azlaan so he knows that I won't prefer this while going out.

"You are damn annoying" I said rolling my eyes and went inside the closet taking the dress in my hand.

"Be quick" He shouted from outside.

I guess I can do at least this much for him, yeah? He is been tolerating my nonsense since the miscarriage and all I have been doing is ignoring him. I don't really want to do this but I can't really help it also.

I entered the room after changing and found him engrossed in his mobile, probably scrolling through some feeds or checking mails.

Suddenly this weird idea popped up in my mind and before I could control, I voiced out my thought.

"Can I work with you in your office? Anyways you are the CEO" I said and regretted immediately seeing his reaction. He looked up from the phone so hastily that I fear, his neck would have been fractured by now.

"You want to what?"

"Nothing, leave it" I shrugged and started tying my hijab.

He walked to me with slow steps and stood right behind me, smiling at me. Taking my hands, he kissed my temples so slowly as if I would break if pressure applied.

"You are more than welcome" He smiled. Giving him a tight smile, I took the last bobby pin and pinned my hijab.

"Let's go?" I nodded and we locked the house, before getting into the car.

The car ride was awfully quite, which was shocking because Azlaan can't be all quite for more than five minutes but here he was sitting quietly, only humming the song that was being played in the background.

Time to time he would look my way and grin like a maniac, making me wonder what's the matter with this guys?

"Why are you grinning like a fool" I frowned.

As usual he ignored me and took my hands. Kissing the back if it, he held it tightly against his beating heart with a beautiful smile adorned on his face. All I wanted to do now is to look at him and never blink. What if he disappears too? Like my parents did? Like my baby did?

"Why are crying?" I blinked hearing his voice. Wiping my eyes, I shook my head. Why was I crying?

"Tell me Ahira?" He pursued further.

"You won't leave me right?" I asked with shaking voice.

He stopped the car, at a side and leaned forward. Wiping my tears he kissed my forehead. This moment, I want to cherish it and capture it forever.There is this special magic in forehead kiss that no one can decipher.

"You trust me right?" His eyes filled with so many unsaid promises. I nodded not trusting my voice.

"Then I promise you that I would be with you forever. Even if i die tomorrow, I'll be there in your heart" He asked earning heaps of slaps from me.

"What the hell was that!" He yelled.

"Why the hell will you die!" I shouted matching his voice.

He grinned at me to which I slapped his chest again. He held my hand while I was still trying to slap him and all of a sudden he hugged me.

"Now tell me where are we going?" I asked him. He broke the hug and winked at me before starting the car again.

"Maybe a long drive? Or some memories?" He smiled.

"Lets erase the bad things and count the good ones" He smiled and I knew at that moment that if it's not now then it's never.

The scars will be there, but with time they will fade too. All I could see was darkness outside. We were driving from last forty five minutes with some random boring songs playing in the background. Feeling bored, I shuffled through the songs in the car radio and the song Main hoon saath tere started playing, making azlaan grin.

I closed my eyes trying to feel every word of the song. If it was some other situation I wouldn't have felt the words but just now he promised to be with me forever and this song defines his words.

Aasmaan sitaaron se chhalakne laga
Chand saa tu jo mujhme chamakne laga

Aasmaan sitaaron se chhalakne laga
Chand saa tu jo mujhme chamakne laga

Rahoon tere yoon paas main
Banu tera ehsaas main
Yaar jee loon aa teri har saans main

Shaam saa tu dhalta
Tu subah saa hai nikalta
Tere saaye mein chalta
Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere

Hai yehi iraada
Tujhe chaahun khud se zyada
Dil se hai yeh waada

Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere

Seene mein tere pyaar ki
Udti hai patange
Udke yoon hawa mein tera
Main aanchal huaa...

O bheega hoon tere saath main
Baarishon mein teri
Bikhri jo teri zulf toh
Main baadal huaa

Teri kaali aankhein
Mere khwaab ka hai dariya
Main utar ke inmein kho gaya

Hai yehi iraada
Tujhe chaahun khud se zyada
Dil se hai yeh vaada

Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere

Tere hi liye raat bhi
Din bhi main guzaarun
Soye tu tujhe raat bhar main dekha karoon

Mujhme tu kuch iss tarah se
Ho gaya hai shaamil
Tere bin chalun bheed mein
Toh tanha lagun
Aaina ho koyi
Nazar aaye mujhko tu hi
Main bhi tera chehra ho gaya

Hai yehi iraada
Tujhe chaahun khud se zyada
Dil se hai yeh vaada

Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere
Main hoon saath tere

I opened my eyes and frowned as the song ended. My eyes fell on something that we all love!

"Azlaan I want ice cream!" I shouted before even I could realise what I was doing.

"No way! You will get sick" He scolded me like a father scolds his child. I narrowed my eyes at him making him chuckle.

"Stop the car!!" I whined.

He smiled and reversed the car to the place where the ice cream stall was. Getting down from the car, I looked around at the dark and human less ally. It somewhat creeped me out.

"I want chocolate!" I said to Azlaan, who just got out of the car.

He muttered a 'come' and we ordered our flavors and ate it after settling ourselves on the bonnet of the car.

The night sky was looking so peaceful and moreover the surrounding was so calm and serene with only few insects chirping. The tress swaying to the winds rythm.

I sighed looking at my now empty hand. I ate the ice cream hastily while Azlaan was savouring it slowly, making me jealous.

I huffed and urged him to eat fast saying that I was feeling cold. Once he was done, we got back and he started driving.

"Wow! " I smiled as soon as the car came to a halt.

Assalamu alaikum!
How are you my dear friends! I hope you all safe?

And how was the update? Aw! Azlaan is cute , isn't he? What was the surprise he gave ahira? That made her smile🤔🤔... Um.. Even i don't know!

For that you have to stay tuned until i update next 🤓😉

I have been too busy lately and thats reason for my late update! But i hve decided that i will update every Saturday.. And if i didn't then i am sorry in advance 😅😅

And i love that song 😍😍😍

Happy reading📖