Serenity

Maybe it was better that way. Maybe I had to let any childish feelings I had for him go. He was older than me and he was my guardian on top of that.

Of course I was attracted to him, i mean who wouldn't be? He looked like a model with his silver eyes, jet black hair and greek god body.

Was I a fool for letting him go when he admitted he loved me? Probably.

It's better that way Serenity.

I tried to convince myself.

"What's on your mind girl?" Tessa asked snapping me out of my trance.

"Oh nothing just homework and stuff"

I still hadn't told them about what happened and I wasn't going to, at least not in the near future.

We were at Jane's house. I finally had convinced Ares to let me have a sleepover with the girls. All it took was a few cuddles and kisses. Not that we don't do that normally.

"I'll go make pop corn" Jane said and went into the kitchen.

My phone rang and I picked it up knowing exactly who it was.

"Is everything okay?" He asked.

"Yes, you don't need to call every ten minutes" I rolled my eyes.

"I'm sorry I'm just worried because you've never slept anywhere else"

"Just go to sleep" i whined.

"I can't sleep without you" He whispered and I went silent before sighing.

"Just one night. Don't make me feel guilty"

"No baby, don't feel guilty just have fun okay? If you need anything call me, even if you're hungry and want food just call me okay?"

"Okay. Goodnight"

"Sleep tight"

Jane came back with a huge ball of popcorn and Tessa smirked grabbing some before Jane could even sit next to us.

"Be patient!" Jane scolded making Tessa roll her eyes.

"So Ren, how's it going with Ares?" Tessa smirked.

"As usual. He's really sweet and overprotective"

"Just that? Nothing happened?" They looked disappointed.

"No" I answered trying not to give anything away. Luckily, they believed me. "How about you Tessa?" I asked changing the topic, "All good with Leo?"

"He's been really busy lately but i guess we're good"

"What does he do?" Jane asked.

I was interested now. Ares, Nate and Leo worked together but I had no idea what they did.

"I don't know, he works in some company"

I guess she doesn't know either. Weird.

What was also weird was that i couldn't sleep. I kept tossing and turning and I also felt cold and empty. I was used to sleeping in Ares' arms so now it was impossible for me to sleep.

The next day, which was Saturday, I went back home and was tackled by Ares.

"I missed you" He mumbled nuzzling my neck.

"It's only been a day"

"Yes, I don't know how I'm still alive"

"You're so dramatic" I rolled my eyes.

"I couldn't sleep without you" He whispered and kissed my cheek. I blushed remembering how I wasnt able to sleep either.

He picked me up bridal style and walked to the couch.

"What are you doing?" I asked him. He sat down and set me down on his lap straddling him. He wrapped his hands around my waist and leaned very close to my face.

"Did you miss me?" he whispered and brushed his lips on my jaw.

"Of course" I answered feeling my face heat up.

He lingered over my lips as his were just a breath away. My heart was pounding and I felt nervous wondering if he would kiss me again. A part of me knew it wasn't right but for the most part I wanted him to kiss me.

"Would it be so wrong to kiss you now?" He whispered making my heart pound even harder. "It may not be right at the moment, but I will wait for you. You'll be mine someday"

"Ares just let it go, you can have any girl you want" I said, but it hurt to say it.

"I dont want any other girl! I've wanted you for years. Maybe not like that, but-"

"Years? You've only known me for months"

He looked down avoiding my gaze and I knew he was hiding something.

"There are things I can't tell you, not yet"

"Why?" I asked trying to be understanding but I felt angry.

"When I take care of everything I will tell you, I promise"

Am I crazy for trusting him? Probably

"So who was that girl you were talking to yesterday?" He suddenly asked.

I had been avoiding that topic because I didn't want to deal with it at the moment.

That girl was claiming to be my sister Lisa. I was upset of course but even if she was my sister I wanted no connection with her. I was done with my former family. Ares was my family now. He fixed me, made me forget all about my past and what I went through.

And yet I rejected him.

It's the right thing Serenity.

"She claims to be my sister" I revealed.

"I see" He simply said with a soft smile. "I'll look into it"

"You don't have to. I don't care about them anymore. You're my family now" I said and hugged him.

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I had just gotten out of the shower. I stood in front of the mirror grimacing at the scars on my body. I had a few on my stomach and inner thighs, but most were on my back.

They didn't hurt physically, but they hurt to look at. My "family" coming back had triggered some old rusty feelings and memories that I didn't want.

I stood in front of the mirror in only my panties and bra. It brought tears to my eyes remembering all these things. Each scar had a story behind it.

"Hey Seren-" I heard and panicked but it was too late. He was already in the room his stare on my body. I could see him through the mirror. No he wasn't looking at me with lust, he was looking at me with anger and sadness.

"You shouldn't have seen that" I said and turned to face him.

He walked closer and stood in front of me.

"Did he?-" He caught himself of not able to speak. I nodded as I felt a few hot tears stroll dowm my cheek, "If only he wasn't already dead" He growled lowly. "Do they hurt?" He asked.

"No" I choked out.

What made me even sadder was the look on his face. His eyes were pools of tears he was trying to hold in. They were red and his lip was trembling. His gorgeous face formed into a murderous look. I'd never seen him so mad before.

"Ares? Are you okay?"

"You're asking me if I'm okay? I should be the one asking that" He said.

"Ares I'm great now. You made me happy again, it's okay. Don't think about it" I said trying to calm him down.

It didn't work.

"Don't think about it? Don't think about it. You still don't get it do you? I've waited years to be able to be with you, to even be close to you and all these years you were being heavily abused and I did nothing about it. I knew and I did nothing"

"It's not your fault, you couldn't do anything-"

"I should have started it way earlier I was such a dumbass" He sighed and pitched the bridge of his nose. "And now I've saved you and I can't even-I can't even-" he started breathing heavily.

I was a little scared by his reaction so I put my hand on his shoulder to calm him down, but to my surprise he flinched.

"Don't touch me" He said through gritted teeth, "I don't know what I'll do if you touch me"

"I don't want to see you like this" I frowned and hesitantly tried to touch his shoulder again.

"Fuck it" He murmured as he held my jaw and pressed his lips on mine.