Ares

I knew she was scared and the worst part was that she was scared of me. I seemed angry but I wasn't angry, at least not with her.

The word for it would be panicked. I was I panic because she was in danger now. I had to find out who was behind all of this quick. I had wasted enough time.

"I'm sorry" She mumbled looking down with a pout.

No no no no

"No Seren, don't be sorry. It's not your fault I'm just angry and panicked because you were in danger" I said quickly and cupped her face.

"I promise I'll be careful" She whispered avoiding my gaze.

"Hey love, please look at me" I said softly.

"Why do you care anyway? I'm just a burden and a responsibility for you. You should hate me" She finally looked me right in the eyes. She had tears in her eyes and it was breaking my heart. I felt helpless.

She didn't know half of what i felt for her and what she meant to me.

"Why aren't you answering huh? Is it because you know it's true-"

I pinned her to the wall. I didn't have any control right now. I could snap at any minute.

"Shut your mouth. You don't even know what you're talking about" She gasped and a tear rolled down her cheek. I instantly regretted it.

Maybe I was too rough with her. She didn't want rough, she wanted gentle. I couldn't be gentle right now.

"Are you going to show your true colors now?" She asked frowning with an angry look on her face.

"Fuck yes, I am" A growl escaped me and I did what I had been waiting for for ages.

I kissed her. Roughly and hard at first, but I slowed down after I realized what I had done.

Her lips were soft and tasted like cherry.

I know because I buy her the lipbalm

It felt liberating and relieving, but at the same time I was scared of her reaction. She didn't push me off but she froze in place. I couldn't tell if she wanted this or not.

That's why I pulled away a little and  looked at her. She was shocked, frozen in place.

"Please react" I pleaded concerned that our relationship was ruined.

"I-I-" She trailed off probably not knowing what to say. She just stood there with wide eyes touching her lips.

I wouldn't blame her.

She couldn't find a reply and she didn't look happy either. More like worried or stressed. I started to feel panic and regret. I didn't regret kissing her, it was the most amazing moment of my life, but maybe I shouldn't have. I wished I could turn back time and wait until I knew she was ready.

I felt angry knowing I might have destroyed our relationship for a moment of pure happiness.

"Baby, I'm sorry-"

"Why did you do that?" She whispered.

"I shouldn't have done that I know, it just happened. You can forget about it if you want"

"Forget about it? That was my first kiss Ares!" She was angry now. "You didn't even mean it?"

I wanted to say that I meant it. I wanted to say I love her but I didn't know what her reaction would be.

"So this was pointless" She said crossing her arms. "You're my guardian, why would you even do that?" She asked her gaze softening a little.

She was right. I felt disgusted with myself. I felt like a baby being scolded, I was overwhelmed and felt like I wanted to cry.

"I meant it. It wasn't pointless" I finally got the courage to say.

"What?"

"I wanted to kiss you. I've been wanting to kiss you for God knows how long and I held back because I didn't want you to hate me. I told you I love you and I meant it. I love you more than I should. More than a guardian should"

I held my breath waiting for a response. I wanted her to be happy and say she feels the same but I knew it wasn't going to be so easy.

And I was right.

"I-I don't know what to say" She said shyly. She was blushing and I wanted to kiss all over her face but I knew it wasn't the time right now.

So pretty.

"I don't expect you to say you feel the same" I said with a sad smile and looked down, "I know you don't. It's only normal that you don't. You deserve better"

Just thinking about it made my blood boil. I wanted to let her live her life and at the same time I wanted to lock her up in a room and never let her go.

Please just say you at least care about me a little, that's all I ask.

But I didn't let her, I was too afraid to know her response.

"I'm sorry for kissing you Serenity" I said and walked away before she could reply.

I'm such an asshole.

________

I knocked on the door again and again and didn't get a response. I knew he was in there. I could hear the disturbing sounds from whatever he was doing.

It was obvious he had a girl over.

I knocked again harder and the door opened to reveal a very angry Nate.

"WHAT?" He yelled. He saw it was me and calmed down raising an eyebrow. "Why are you here?"

"I fucked up"

"No shit" He smirked, "Come in" He said and opened the door wider. I walked in squinting my eyes worried that some naked girl might be here.

"Don't worry, she's not in this room" He reassured me with a smirk.

I fell on the couch with a sigh and ran my fingers through my hair.

I have fucked up many times in my life. I have put in danger innocent people and tortured innocent men, fell right into my enemies' traps but this, this is my greatest fuck up.

But fuck it felt so good to finally kiss her.

He grabbed a glass of orange juice and sat in front of me.

"Now tell me, what did your dumbass do?"

Just as he said that a door opened and a girl came out of the room. She was wearing a very revealing outfit and I looked the other way until she was out of the apartment.

"Man you're so done like you're whipped" He said shaking his head, "Now tell papa what's wrong"

"Ew don't say that. I'm older than you"

"Tell me what's wrong for God's sake!" He said. Nate was really impatient.

Just as he was taking a sip of juice I said, "I kissed her"

He spat it out and choked.

After he had calmed down he finally looked at me with wide eyes.

"You did what?!"

"I-I was angry and she was saying some things and I kissed her" I said and sighed.

"OH! That's my guy!" He yelled with a big smirk.

"We fought"

His face fell.

"Excuse me? I bring her home safe and sound and leave you two all lovey dovey like you normally are, just to have you interrupt me the same day because you fought? Continue."

"We had some kind of a fight, I told her how I feel, well a little bit of how I feel and she didn't know what to say"

"And let me guess, you felt rejected and heartbroken and you said some shit and left her before she could even reply"

Damn he knows me too well.

"Yes, I don't know how to fix it. I fucked up big time Nate" I said rubbing my face.

"How about you go back home and-"

"No"

"Maybe you could call-"

"No"

"Aight, I know what you need" He said and stood up. "You need a night with your guys"

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Nate knocked on the door repeatedly each time getting louder and louder.

"Nate maybe we should go back-"

"No"

"Who is it?" We heard him groan on the other side of the door.

"Your daddy, open the door" Nate answered.

He finally opened the door barely awake. I doubt he even knew he wasn't dreaming.

"Huh? What do you want?" He asked.

"Let us through we're going to have a boys night"

"What the fuck?" He let out as Nate pushed passed him. "What happened?" Leo asked.

"Just get in and we'll explain"