Author's POV || 2016. 10. 25

You sat down, looking at the pictures as a small smile appeared on your face. A photo, with everyone who was once the greatest part of your life. A part of your life which could never be erased. 
"Y/N, they are all here!" Your mom said with a smile as you nodded. Soon, Jungkook, Jimin and Mina entered your room and sat there casually, it was normal for them. You looked at them and said, "Hey guys, yall good?" 

"Of course... we are! Ah... winter's near! Winter always brings the fresh memories of our teenage." Jimin said, smiling. Jungkook and Mina smiled at each other, they were dating. 
"I wonder how that one field trip changed our entire lives." Jungkook said as Mina smiled saying, "It was the last field trip that you all went to... Woah, that field trip led us to love... friendship, what not actually?" 

You smiled and hid the polaroid picture in your pocket saying, "Want any drinks?" 
They all shook their heads saying, "Y/N... are you still... never mind." 
"I do." You said, looking at them with a soft smile. They all looked hurt, they were. 

After the worst year of your life, they all were with you, for a long time. You all grew up together, graduated, and became family friends. They knew how much you were suffering, how much you had suffered. 

"Guys... I've realized something in life. Moving on isn't about forgetting someone... or completely letting them go. It's about moving on and balancing your life despite all the tragedy while remembering the gone from time to time. In that sense, I've moved on. I'm living... a life. I'm working, eating, sleeping, everything. I just... I just remember him from time to time." You said, smiling. Mina came towards you and patted your back saying, "Hey, it's okay. Let's all... have fun tonight! No grief, okay?!" 
"Yes, exactly," Jungkook said as you all started talking about random things, trying not to make the atmosphere sad again.

You smile and realize how that one field trip... changed everything in your life, in the best and worst ways possible. 

Author's POV || 2009. 11. 18

You made sure you had all the winter clothes packed. It started snowing last night, well, it was winter. 8 am. 30 minutes to go until the University bus departs. 

20 minutes later, you were standing with your classmates for the trip. A 3-day camp it was. A winter camp before the final examinations. 
"Hey, thanks for inviting me to the group, yeah?" Mina said, smiling. You softly smiled back and nodded. 
"By the way... the senior Jungkook will be there right?" Mina's question made you look at her blankly. You tried not to smile and nodded, pressing your lips together. She was barely trying to hold in her squeal and squeezed your arms making you gulp. Apologizing, she stood behind you. 

You smiled a little, gosh, there was going to be some juicy tea between them, for sure.

--Time skip 

"Seniors and Juniors are allowed together this year... gosh, what's wrong with the principal?!" Your teacher complained as everyone laughed. 
"It's better that way!" A guy spoke as the teacher glared at him. Soon, everyone got into the buses. The art and music department were sitting together, gosh. 

Taehyung being Taehyung, sat beside you. Mina was in the seat in front of you both and Jimin and Jungkook were behind you both. 
"Should I have let Mina sit here?" Taehyung asked as you said, "It's fine either way..." 
He chuckled and nodded saying, "It's going to be an exciting trip." 
"I know... right."

He smiled and handed you 2 heat packs saying, "Here, it's really cold..." He said. You took them from him and stared at him, a warm feeling rising in your stomach. He smiled, tilting his head and touching your forehead saying, "You're cold... Use the heat packs." 

"Thank you. What about you?" You asked. Taehyung took out the heat packs from his pocket and showed them to you. You nodded with a smile, putting your hands in your pocket. They were warm, very warm. But a random urge to hold his urge arose in you. Hell, the heat packs weren't enough, you wanted to hold his hand. But you didn't know how to. 

You saw Taehyung looking here and there while moving his hands softly. You were a little confused seeing him as he looked at you saying, "Hey... um... c-can we... uhh, I mean, it's only because I... hold hands. I... I mean-" 

You couldn't understand a thing. He was sweating, in this cold weather. Why was he so nervous? You just stared at him before placing your hand on his shoulder. He immediately relaxed, looking at you. You smiled and said, "It's okay... you can say what you want."
"I..." He heaved out a sigh, looking away. 
"Nevermind-"
"Hold hands? Are your heat packs not working?" You asked. He just stared at you, not answering. 
"It's really cold.. we should hold hands then." You spoke, forwarding your hand. He smiled a little, feeling like a huge burden was lifted off his shoulders. The burden of dealing with all that nervousness. Taking your hand, he put it in his pocket as you gulped, looking away.
"We're best friends, right? You can just hold my hand... you don't need permission." You said, looking outside the window. 

He smiled, feeling your soft hands wrapped inside his big ones. The heat packs weren't even necessary, your hands were warming each other anyway.

---Time skip 

"Let's go out," Taehyung said, standing up. The bus arrived at the spot and everyone was getting down. But Taehyung decided to get up and forward his hand towards you like he always did. 
You smiled and took his hand, nodding. 

Getting out, you all did the roll call and soon it was time for the guys to set up tents while the girls were helping them. The teams were setting up their own tents. A team of 5, regardless of grades and departments. What a fun trip it was! 

"Hey..." Mina said, smiling a little. Jungkook just looked at her saying, "Oh hi." 
"Hello." Jimin waved at her, walking past them with a bag of stones, which God knew why he needed. Mina shyly tucked a strand behind her ear saying, "So we're... in the same group."
"Umm... right," Jungkook said, awkwardly. He didn't know how to talk as Mina stood there, trying to strike up a conversation. You just stared at them from far away when you felt a hand around your shoulder, making you jolt up.

"Hey, do you need help?" He asked as you asked, "Help? I'm just... staring at them, I guess."
"Hmm, you look pretty today." He spoke as you looked at him, a little flustered, blushing. He smiled and brushed his finger with your nose saying, "You're really pretty today... and your red face in the cold weather is cute." 
"Hey.. stop." You spoke, trying not to sound weak but you did, you sounded so helpless and weak, under him.

He giggled and said, "Hey, do you know we'll get to drink tonight?" 
"Huh, really?" You asked.
"It's not a school trip or college trip. A university trip, so drinks are a must. Even the teachers drink." His statement made you gasp slightly.
"Woah that's..." 

"Will you drink tonight?" He asked.
"I've never drank before.."
"Me neither. Last year, I, Jimin and Jungkook skipped the trip at night and went to the top of the mountain but we forgot to smuggle in some beer."
"Are you always bunking events?"
"Kind of..?" 

"You are a rebel.. and make me a rebel too."
"So you're agreeing that you will go." He nodded and smiled. You giggled and said, "Okay... we 5 can go there."
"Jimin and Jungkook are probably smuggling beer from the teacher's tent. Let's just wait for them." 

"It's lunchtime kids!! Come up!" A teacher spoke and walked away as you looked at him saying, "We need to go."
"Sit with me.."
"Oh? Okay..."

---During lunch 

You all were eating, at different tables. Mina was with you all and Jimin and Jungkook were probably smuggling some beer, making them run late. 
"Hey, have this," Taehyung said, forwarding some pork to you. You thanked him as he smiled, patting your head. He was being so touchy today, for some weird reason, he touched you out of nowhere but made sure you weren't uncomfortable. 

"Uhh... you're Lee Y/N, right?" A guy, supposedly from another department asked, coming towards you both as you looked at him, confused. You nodded as he smiled asking, "May I sit here?" 
"Umm..." You were hesitating about what to say as Taehyung just eyed the guy. You nodded, a little confused. He sat there and said, "Ah.. I'm not a creep. I just saw your presentation yesterday and I loved it. Your drawing was so brilliant so I thought we could be friends." He said, with a friendly smile.

Right... your presentation, many people saw it yesterday. 
You nodded and smiled slightly saying, "T-Thanks..." 

Taehyung smiled at you and muttered, "You're famous now~" You smiled and looked back as the guy said, "I'm Mark... and he's... your boyfriend?" 
You pressed your lips and said, "Ah... he's not- we're..." It sounded wrong. You felt weird, for some reason, the assumption didn't sound wrong, not at all. Given how close you felt to him, it didn't feel wrong. 
"Ah... then it's good. If you don't mind, can we be friends? I really like you actually." He said. You just sat there, awkwardly, not knowing how to respond. Taehyung, who was sitting there quietly looked at Mark, wide-eyed.

You gulped and looked at him, not breaking the stare. Mina gasped, stopping her actions. 
"Mark.. I..." You were trying to form words as Mark spoke, "Did I make you uncomfortable? I'm sorry I didn't mean it that way-"
You just sat there, completely weirded out by the situation when the familiar deep voice spoke,

"She's my girlfriend. It's okay if you don't hit on her."