Jhootha jag rain basera
Saancha dard mera
Mrig-trishna sa moh piya
Naata mera tera

Naina.. jo saanjhe khwab dekhte the
Naina.. bichad ke aaj ro diye hain yun
Naina.. jo milke raat jaagte the
Naina.. sehar mein palken meechte hain yun

Juda huye kadam
Jinhone li thi ye kasam
Milke chalenge hardum
Ab baant'te hain ye gham
Bheege naina.. jo khidkhiyon se jhankte the
Naina.. ghutan mein band ho gaye hai yun

Saans hairaan hai
Mann pareshaan hai
Ho rahi si kyun ruaansa ye meri jaan hai

Kyun nirasha se hai
Aas haari huyi
Kyun sawaalon ka utha sa
Dil mein toofaan hai

Naina.. thhe aasmaan ke sitaare
Naina.. grahan mein aaj toot'te hain yun
Naina.. kabhi jo dhoop senkte thhe
Naina.. thehar ke chhaaon dhoondhte hain yun

Juda huye kadam
Jinhone li thi ye kasam
Milke chalenge hardum
Ab baant'te hain ye gham
Bheege naina.. jo sanjhe khwab dekhte the
Naina.. bichhad ke aaj ro diye hain yun

Hi Manik
21 February 2021

I didn't go to visit you today. I couldn't.. I couldn't bring myself too. Seeing my condition mom and dad also said that I should not visit you. It would be better for me and the baby. I can't see your condition like that again so I didn't go.

God I am feeling like I am making excuses because I forgot to visit you but trust me Manik I can never forget you. My day starts with the thoughts of yours and ends with your thoughts.

Belive me...
You must be thinking how pathetic I am? Right. Its okay I wouldnt blame you...

Ive been feeling week and sick from yesterday. Today in the morning I was vomiting so badly and I was feeling so weak. I think it's because of pregnancy but mom and dad are insisting that I should go and see a doctor. Mom even fixed an appointment for me for tomorrow morning with the gynaecologist. Fab 4 came to see me . I pretended to be asleep. I couldn't face them. I know they are worried about me. Hell they are more worried about you, about us but I just wanna be alone, you know?

Actually I don't want to be alone. I want to be with you. Only with you. Please wake up Manik and get well soon. I need you, your baby needs you.

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