Kise poochun, hai aisa kyun

Bezubaan sa, ye jahaan hai

Khushi ke pal, kahan dhoondhooN

Benishan sa, waqt bhi yahan hai

Jaane kitne labon pe gile hain

Zindagi se kayi faasle hain

Paseejte hain sapne kyun aankhon mein

Lakeer jab chhoote in haathon se yoon bewajah

Jo bheji thi duaa, woh jaake aasmaan

se yoon takra gayi ke aa gayi Hai laut ke sadaa

Saanson ne kahan rukh mod liya

Koi raah nazar mein na aaye

Dhadkan ne kahan dil chhod diya

Kahan chhode in jismoN ne saaye

Yehi baar-baar sochta hoon tanha main yahan

Mere saath-saath chal raha hai yaadon ka dhuaan

Jo bheji thi duaa, woh jaake aasmaan

se yoon takra gayi ke aa gayi Hai laut ke sadaa

Hi Manik,
17th February 2021

Lamha- lamha
Bahar hai tere bagair,
Zindagi dushwaar hai
Tere bagair
Sham-e-gam karwt
Badlta hi nahin,
Waqt bhi khuddar hai
tere bagair

Tumne nahi suni na meri. You broke your promise. How can you? Hos can you do it Manik?
I was waiting for you. Our baby was waiting for you but you didn't come. You fucking slipped into coma.

Please na Jaan wake up and hug me. Everyone is consoling me but i need you.

I tried going to hospital but they didn't let me in. They said that your condition is critical and nobody can see you. Please na Manik come back and hug me. Please na Manik.

Bhagwan ne bhi meri nahi suni Manik. All my beeing and praying went waste but it doesn't matter because I will keep praying. Till when he will not hear me?
One day he have to hear me and return you back to me.

I don't know why I changed the adrress from my diary to your name. It's not like you will read it. But anyway I don't know why am I doing this but Manik I.. I want you back. Please please come back.

Love you
Yours Nandu.