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••Avni••

He presses his lips against mine in a hungry way. Unlike before it wasn't a smooth kiss instead It was ferocious,wild and desperate.

My hands reach up and warp around his chocolate brown locks of hair and I press myself more closer to him.

Our lips mould together like a perfect puzzle moving with a wavy sync. He moans into my mouth as I trace his neck through my finger's sensuously.

He slightly tugs his teeth grazing through the lower lip which instantly made my mouth open with load gasp .
Neil took this as an advantage ,as he invades his tongue inside of my mouth exploring the every corner.

After what felt like hours, his lips slowly unmould with mine. And we both gaze each other panting a little hard.

"That was awesome! " Neil chirps as his arms go around my waist and he burries his head into my hair inhaling it softly.

Slowly, He brushes his lips into my cheeks and travels them down my throat giving sweet & wet kisses all along.

"Ne..illl" My eyes flutter wanting more as he started to place slow and  meaningful kisses along my neck.

"What jaanu? " Neil asks as he licks my sweet spot tenderly.

His lips curve into a smirk which I badly wanted to wipe. But right now all I wanted was him.. his touch. His love. His care.

I close my eyes taking his slow assaults on my hot body as my mouth sealed to speak anything rather than moan.

"I'll bury myself inside of you so hard ,till our neighbors know my name avni.." He whispers into my ears huskily.

I swallowed hard.

"But... Neighbors know your name? "I reply innocently , my lips tune into a slight smirk.

Neil crooks his brow up before muttering something hot.

"Well, then I'll f**k you so hard until our neighbors come to our flat with no distrub sigh. What say? "

I gasp a little hearing such things from Neil's mouth.

"Is he really my Neil?" . I thought for a
second.

My hands travel up to his chest and comes to rest above his heart.  Slowly I  roam my fingers around his shirt buttons before unclasping them ,one by one.

Before I could remove the forth button .I felt Neil's hands slowly coil around my waist taking me up in a bridal style. Though I gasp a little but immediately I wrap my arms around his neck as he carries me towards the bed. Our eyes lock with each other as he slowly lays me down the mattress.

He turn to walk away ,which made my confuse.

"Did he think this as Mistake?"

"Baby girl, don't think much. As I said this night is gonna rough for you. I'll just come in a minute " Neil winks before leaving me alone on bed.

I  close my eyes to calm my intense respirations ,but soon I hear the faint foot steps which are indicators of Neil's presence.

I open my eyes and gaze towards door only to witness Neil with chocolate syrup.

Chocolate syrup?

Before I could process anything. Neil hoveres over me without placing his entire body weight.

My breath hitches with his proximity and the moisture Between my legs had became unbearable.

"Neill... " I moan as lips met me again. He pulls away before I could get the taste of his delicious lips.

I frown a little .

"I don't want to hear any sound from your pretty mouth before I say. Did you understand? " Neil mutters but it almost looked like an order.

"what? "

"Shh... No sound.. Not even moan! "

Shit. .. I curse under my breath coz I knew indeed this night Is gonna be rough.

Neil stands above the bed and he strips his shirt away leaving himself half naked in front of me.

He smriks a little as my eyes stare at his perfect body in a little hungry way.

Avni. Stop drooling ! Ugh.

He crawls above me and nuzzle his nose into my neck. His lips traveles down along placing smooth kisses onto my warm silky skin.

"Baby you are so soft " I hear  Neil whispering as he plants a small peck ony lips.

I smile widely as his simple pecks created havoc inside of my body.

Neil's hands reach towards my shirt slowly unclasping my top. I started to feel conscious as seconds later i was  half naked infront him. 

Neil stares at my chest, his eyes held an emotion which made me shiver down my spine.

I gulp hard before crossing my arms around my breasts preventing him to look at my milky melons.

"Don't hide them... Avii " Neil says removing my hands, placing them above my head.

I flush a little.

He lowers his head down as his tongue made its way to lick the nipple which stood erect, wanting his attention.

"Ahhhh " An involuntary moan passes out of my mouth as he flicks his warm tongue across my hardend peak. while other hand kneeled my other bre*st .

"Neil... Please.. " I whimper as I couldn't take his sweet assaults any more.

"Baby what did I told you ?  No sound right!. " Neil mutters with a cocky grin, before pinching my both nipples hard .

"Yeah...ah" I cry out feeling both pleasure and pain,  which shot out in my body coz of his teasings.

I shut my mouth as I close my eyes. Neil's hands touch every inch of my warm body  which made me squirm. I felt a bit shy as I was  half naked infornt of him.

I jump with nervousness when I felt the warm sticky syrup touch my blazing body.

I open my eyes  panting.

Neil squeez's the chocolate syrup on my navel, lips from my knees to mid thigh and lastly alot on top of my chest.

At this point, my breathing has became ubnormal and soft moans escaped my mouth.

Neil sucks on my harded nipples ,rolled his tongue around in circles. His tongue traveled down and traced on my thigh along my leg, licking and sucking the chocolate .

"Please.. Let.. Me.. Maon " I shutter, practically begging him .

Instead of reply Neil kisses my lips softly, licking the syrup off. And plugging the tongue inside of my mouth making me to taste the bitter-Sweet chocolate.

"ummm" I moan ,pulling him more closer by head.

We parted and gazed each other. I looked down blushing.

"Are you ready? " He asks, I look up to Neil who's already starring down with intense emotion. I know this is going to tough for me as the nightmares still haunt me everyday.

I nodded, unsure.

Don't know why, suddenly I felt the old emotions being poured out. Then realisation hit me. I was never a virgin girl. I have been raped, sexually assaulted many times. Who would love a girl like me.
Though Neil admits  he loves me and we are in this phase after many up and downs . Still at this point I'm  Insecure of my body. Unsure to get pleasured by my husband.

Panic crawls through out my body and My face turns into pale as my brain recollects the horrific moments from my past.

But soon my thoughts came to an abrupt end when I listen the sound of striping clothes..

Neil stripped his trousers, boxers leaving himself naked. My face turns red watching him like that. I quickly close my eyes unable to understand the debate that's happening inbetween my heart and brain.

On one side I wanted him to make love me. On other side I don't want him to love a girl me. I couldn't understand what I'm thinking.

Fresh Tears fill my eyes, but I control myself before they could have spilled out.

My eyes peeked open as soon as Neil's hands tug into my short. He slowly peels my last clothing out leaving me in the purest form ever.

I tried to wriggle and close my legs to hide myself but Neil held my legs stiff not to move them.

Then he crawls upwards kissing my lips softly. I don't know why I started to squirm with his touches. Though Neil's touches are smooth but right now this  made me think of the nights when people forcefully entered inside of me. Just to pleasure themselves.

"Neil... N. Ooo " I whisper yell , slightly pushing him by chest .. But I think my voice hasn't reached to his ears as Neil kept on kissed my throat.

"Noo " I again shutter, as I couldn't take all this. The nightmares still haunt me. Now I realised why did Neil thought to not to have any physical relationship. Coz he knew I'm not ready for that. CoZ he knew I still get scared of man..

Tears spill out of my eyes, as I shut my orbs tight trying to take everything possible. But I can't..

"Neil.. No " I shout, jerking him away from me. 

I grab the blanket and cover myself with it.

I sob uncontrollably as tears flood down like a stream.

"Avi... What happened.. Did I hurt you.. I'm sorry. I just got carried away. I'm sorry " Neil mutters worrdily.

I look at him. His eyes held fear in them.

I felt guilt raising out of my body. Coz of me how our relationship has been sinking.

Neil ran his hands through his hair. He stood up to walk out but I raised my hand to grab his wrist stopping him at his tracks.

"I'm sorry, please don't leave " I mutter, few Teardrops escape from my eyes .

"I'm so sorry Neil. " I choke out the tears coming out in full force.

"Hey.. Shhh.. It's okay . Shh.. Baby please look at me."

I'm overreacting iknow I am. But I can't stop crying knowing I've been the reason for all the problems.

"what happened? " I hear Neil say , as he comes closer towards me.

"I don't know. I feel like I don't deserve you .. I mean you see I'm not a virgin and.. " my word's get  an abrupt end as Neil places his hand over my mouth.

"Don't... " I could feel Neil's cold voice. "Don't you dare to say like that anymore. You well know I won't believe in all that bullshit "

"I'm sorry... " I gaze down sniffling.

Soon I felt Neil hands wrap around my body giving me a comfortable warmth.

I place my head against his chest before speaking.

"I don't know Neil, Suddenly this type of thoughts are running in my mind   that I couldn't think about the nights I have faced before. Those nightmares still haunt me Neil.  I know you are different but I couldn't stop myself remembering those  forced nights and tortures. I'm so sorry" I cry wetting his body with my uncomfortable sobs.

"I know avni you still haven't came out of the trance. I know it's really hard to forget all those horrific nightmares but you have to move on in your life. Aise Nahin Rah Sakte na pura life. You should compete your demons"

"You're strong avni and you have a beautiful future ahead which Is wating for you to fulfill joyful memories. I know its difficult but avni you can do it. Ab Mai bhi tumhare sath hu. Hum dono milkar yek beautiful life banaynge. Yek sath. " Neil says  with a smile.

My mind procces his words. Yes, he was right. I should live in present and enjoy my life with Neil. Neil is the only one who gave me this happy life. If he wouldn't be there at first place then I can't even imagine what's my life would have been.

"I am ready " I  blurt out suddenly which made Neil snap his head in my direction.

"Are you sure. There's no hurry avi. We can wait if you want "

"I'm 100 percent sure Neil, I want you"
I say stubbornly.

Neil smiles. His eyes sparkle with unknown joy. .

I grin In response before leaning back onto the bed . Neil hovers over me and I could feel his burning gaze  drilling holes on my body.

He held my both hands firm digging them into the silk bed sheets. He leanes down and kisses my lips before moving towards the south direction.

"Ahhhh " I yelp as I feel a weird pinching sensation deep inside me.

"Is it hurting. Should I stop..I'm so sorry ..ill stop now.. " Neil mutters clenching his teeth. I could see the worry in his eyes.

"No.. I'm fine " I smile and kiss on his lips giving him a assurance of being fine.

I feel so full as Neil stays still letting me adjust to his size. Soon, he buries deep inside of me in an one go.

Tears spill down my eyes as it felt my walls being stretched out wide as it's been months that I have intercourse by force.

I wrap my legs around Neil's waist and tug my hands on his back crawling them with my nails.

"Oh my God Neil... " I cry out load due to the pleasure that hit my body  as  he trusted into me deep and hard yet in a gentle way.

Neil groans load, his face was red and intense as well as mine. My mouth screamed his name in ecstasy that I'm sure that till now our neighbors could have heard my cries of moaning.

"Yeah.. Ahh yes.. Ohh " I moan and kiss Neil on his lips.

After intense session we both reach to our orgasm. Neil collapse onto me with exhaustion not putting his entire weight.

I could hear our shallow breaths echoing through out the room.

I smiled widely coz I felt complete today. Ifelt happy as for the first time sexual practice made pleasure to me not pain.

We both stayed in that position for few minutes. Later, Neil gets up sliding next to me.

"Wanna shower now? " Neil asks, he knew my body was mess... A beautiful mess.

"No.. I don't have energy left to have shower. " I giggle a little feeling drained.

Neil groans walking towards the bathroom naked. Damn!.

Later he walks out of the bathroom with only a towel wrapped around his lower body. His hair drips with water as he wipes it with the towel maybe he took fast shower.  He looks at me shit !  He caught me staring .  I quickly turn away hiding my blush.

"Don't you know it's rude to stare the sexy guy like me " Neil laughs and walks into the closet.

I close my face with my palms feeling embarrassed.

Minutes later Neil came back with towel ,water and his shirt .He cleans my body using wet towel . Through out the session my face flushed red as he teased me hell out of my life.

"Neil.. Stop.. Or else. I'll... "

"or else what baby? " Neil crooked his eyebrow.

"ugh... Forget it.. What's the time? "

"4:00am"

"what ?It's four am. Like seriously! " I exclaim as my mind froze. I wore his shirt before laying back to bed.

"Yeah.. And now we should sleep. " Neil yawn's collapsing next to me, snuggling me in his strong grip. He nuzzled his nose into my neck.

"Neil.. We should sleep.. It's late " I gasp.

"Not before one goodnight kiss. " He says kissing me slowly like he has all the time in the world. I could feel my eyes getting shut on their own before Neil pulled away.

He mumbled something I didn't quite catch and before I knew it I was falling asleep in his secure embrace.

*smiles sheepishly*
Well, I don't know when I'll update next  coz within 10 day's I'm having my Semester exams ☹️. I'll be regular in updates from next month but I'll try to give inbetween 😀.

Anyways, next chapter is going to be last chapter of this book :'(.

Don't worry I'm planning to give two bonus chapter's along with epilogue 😌.