Saachi

He left for his office along with Bhai and I am super bored at the moment. What should I do? I have nothing to do. I don't want to watch anything neither cooking is helping. What am I supposed to do?

Moments like this make me overthink. I tend to think the ways to get out of this place but then his beautiful eyes come into my mind and I sleep. Weird right but I am like this only. Whenever my mind works overtime the thing I want the most is to have a warm blanket and a soft mattress and fall asleep. I sometimes think I am doing so wrong playing with his feelings. But somehow I am not really acting anymore I know I feel safe around him. Happy with him and his happiness means the world to me. 

The thing which scares me is his reaction when I will leave him. I can't really make my heart ready for that moment. I am in such a complicated situation. And on top of this, this saree is so irritating. 

Let's roam around the mansion for a time pass.

I roamed around feeling so bored at the moment. This is the reason why these 'men' stay in the office the whole day. And how can Yuvraj Ji leave me alone what if I ran away?

Wait a second. I need attention and most importantly His attention. What is wrong with me?

"Missing me", I heard him whisper as I jumped on my place keeping my hand on my heart.

"What is wrong with you Saachi now you are even imagining his voice? You have really gone mad", I told myself in a loud voice.

"Pleasure to know you think about me sweetheart", He said as I turned to him with wide eyes.

"Weren't you in your office?", I asked him as He smirked. What is going in his mind?

"That is not the way to welcome your husband back home", He told me taking a step towards me. I stayed rooted in my place. What is he doing?

"Then what should I do?", I asked him not really knowing what I should do.

"Maybe a welcome home kiss", He told me as my eyes widened.

"I have never kissed someone", I told him turning my back to him. He laughed at my action.

"I am just kidding", He told me making me look in his eyes.

"I won't ever force you to do something you are not comfortable with", He told me looking in my eyes with sincerity and love? I don't know why I wanted nothing but to hug him. Should I give into my feelings? Before I could think he took some steps back and walked to our room while loosening his tie.

I went downstairs to make him his coffee. What I realized in the short time of living with him is he has a sweet tooth. He loves sweet in everything he eats. 

He was lying on the bed after he got changed massaging his head. Of course, he would be tired. He didn't sleep the whole night because of this new deal.

I kept the coffee on the side table and sat beside him. Feeling my presence he opened his eyes and looked at me with raised eyebrows. I couldn't help my hands and started massaging his head. He shifted his head in my lap hiding his face in my stomach. He acted like a little child in moments like this.

"Tired", I asked to which he nodded still hiding his face in my stomach.

"Then sleep on the pillow", I told him. He laughed before shifting on the pillow.

"You don't like my touch", He said humorlessly as he turned his back to me. I don't know why that statement touched my heart. I felt hurt. Only if you knew I want nothing but your touch at this moment.

I sighed before lying beside him. I thought for a second before giving in to my feelings and hugged his torso from the back. I felt him stiffen under my touch.

He slowly turned to me looking at my face. I hid my face in his neck. 

"What is wrong", He asked me. I shook my head. I felt emotionally drained at that moment. At one point I felt selfish for not running away and reaching to my family and at the other point, I couldn't leave him. Not at this moment. I felt as If he is the key to all my happiness. I couldn't hurt the most important people in my life. 

I felt tears falling down my cheek as I hugged him more tightly. 

"Sweetheart", He called softly as his arms wrapped around my waist pulling me closer to him. 

He is not a bad person I know. He is a great person from the heart and I can't just break his heart. I could still see those painfilled eyes in my dreams. I can't let these beautiful eyes fill with pain again. I won't ever be able to forgive myself then.

"Jaan If you won't tell me anything how would I know", He whispered in my ears.

"Just hold me", I nearly begged. He hummed before placing soft kisses on my neck which surprisingly calmed me down. I took a deep breath before moving away. He kissed my tears away before looking in my eyes. 

"Are you missing your parents?", He asked me. He was indirectly asking me if I want to go back. Who can love me more than him? I would go back to them but with your happiness Yuvraj Ji. I shook my head before keeping my head on his chest.

"What happened?", He asked.

"Nothing I just saw a bad dream last night", I told him.

"Was it the reason behind your sadness in the morning", He asked massaging my scalp. I nodded hiding my face in his chest.

"You have a weird habit of hiding your face", He said but I didn't say anything.

"Don't leave me ever", I told him looking in his eyes after a long pause. He looked into my eyes for a few seconds before kissing my forehead.

"Not till death pull us apart", He said making me still. I pushed him away.

"Even if death comes in your way you would choose me if not you would take me with you", I told him sitting at a distance. He pulled me back in his arms kissing the crown of my head.

"You deserve much better than me", He told me.

"Shut up. I am getting what I deserve and I deserve you only", I told him hugging him tightly.

"But you need to share", I told him as he gave me a confused look. I nodded.

"I have feelings for some other guy as well", I told him as his expressions changed to cold ones He asked me to continue.

"I don't know where he is but I know I care for him. I met him nine years ago. He saved my life without caring about his life. Though I broke our promise he must hate me but I pray regularly for his safety", I told him. 

He smiled before pulling me close to him. I was confused. I thought he would be angry but he was all okay. He was so confusing.

"Are you mad?", I asked him looking at his face. He shook his head closing his eyes. Is he so tired? Shouldn't he be upset I like someone else?

"Why are you not upset when I told you I like someone else?", I asked him.

"Because you are mine and you would remain mine whole my life", He said simply making me twist my lips in irritation. I looked at his face. Of course, he was tired. Let him sleep at the moment I can talk about this topic later.

He moved his fingers in my hair in a soothing way. I should be doing this right now? Before I fall asleep I heard him whisper something in my ear which I don't really hear at that moment.

"I want henna", I told him sitting crossed leg on the bed. He raised his eyebrows at me.

"Why?", He asked.

"It's Karwa Chauth. What do you want me to do?", I asked him.

"Not keep the fast", He said simply wearing his tie. I gritted before taking a deep breath.

"Your life means a lot to me. So please at least respect my feelings for you instead of denying every single thing", I told him falling back on the bed. My hair all over my face.

He chuckled before coming near me and hovered over me. I looked at the other side in anger. He smiled before removing the hair from my face.

"You are very stubborn you know this right?", He asked. I pouted still looking the other side.

"Have to be when I married a person like you", I told him as he laughed before kissing my cheek softly.

"What do you mean by that?", He asked.

"I mean someone who always denies to everything I say when he knows he has to give in to my demands", I told him poking his chest.

"I will not keep the fast", He told me. Of course, he won't. I nodded in understanding.

"But I can't eat food knowing you didn't have anything for me. So I won't keep the fast but will not eat as well", He told me. I hit his shoulder glaring at him.

"Till when you would stay like this", I asked him. He shook his head before standing up. 

"I am doing everything I can to make you happy don't expect anything else", He said turning his back to me. He sighed before hugging him from the back placing my head on his shoulder.

"I never knew you are a cuddly kind of a person", He said and I punched his back making him turn to me.

"At least you are trying", I told him hugging him tightly. Frankly speaking, I am not a cuddly person but with him, I become one.

"What am I going to wear tomorrow?", I asked myself pushing him away.

"The whole closet is filled with your clothes. Still, you have to think", He laughed at me. I gave him a pointed look.

"We are not like you guys. Having so few options to wear. So we have to carry ourselves with grace", I told him to which he nodded wearing his jacket.

"Being a princess you need to take care of such things more carefully", He said to which I nodded sadly.

"You know we always have to be scared about getting trolled in media. This thing can be ignored in celebrities but it can't get ignored in royals. We have to take care of every single news in the market about us", I told him.

"Don't worry I am not going to judge you", He said to which I nodded.

"But what should I wear. Give me suggestions", I asked him.

"Something in pink or red or orange", He told me.

"Lehenga, Saree or suit", I asked him. He shook his head before exiting the room. How rude he could've told me he was getting bored? Stupid.

I shook my head before finding his watch on the dressing table. He always does this. I think he does think intentionally so I would run behind him to give it to him. 

I walked to him when he was about to call me to give him his watch.

"Don't you think you are getting too much dependent on Bhabhi? I don't remember you forgetting anything in my whole existence", Aarya Bhai teased him walking downstairs with a chocolate bar in his hand. I gave him a serious look before taking it from him.

"Don't do this please Saachi", He said as I took it away.

"Have it after you come back. You are always having chocolate. You would end up ruining all your teeth", I told him keeping it in the refrigerator.

"I am elder than you", He told me as I turned to him.

"But you never act like one. Now go both of you. Work Hard and Come back early. You especially Bhai you are always late. And Yuvraj Ji don't forget to bring henna with you when you come back", I told them as I walked with them till the exit.

Bhai glared at me before jumping in the passenger seat while Yuvraj Ji kissed my forehead telling me to take care. I smiled at him.

"Bhai smile okay. Don't go with such a grumpy face", I told him.

"Okay mom", He shouted showing me his teeth.

Overly Dramatic

Yuvraj Ji shook his head before sitting on the driver seat with a now serious face and nodded at me. I smiled at him as he drove away.

Before I could do anything two guards came and asked me to go inside. Do I have an escape this time?

I know it's been long. But I was busy okay. And I won't be able to update regularly. Also only I know how difficult it was to write this update with all my work.

So coming back to the update. I know many of you won't like how Saachi is getting comfortable in her new life forgetting her old life. But you need to understand her point of view as well.

I really adore Yuvraj as a person. He is trying to change himself for his wife.

Tell me about your views. 

Until next time...........