Chapter Twenty Two

I didn't know what had gotten to Yoongi that day pero sa mga sumunod na araw sa BH Entertainment building… he was unusually extra weird and strange. Well, for me very strange because he wasn't usually like that.

Nariyang patago niya akong ngingitian at ang pinakamalala… crap! I didn't even want to remember! Ito ba yung Yoongi na gusto ko? Parang gusto ko na lang na bumalik siya sa dating no care Yoongi.

I was again alone in the mirror room. May meeting kasi ang BTS together with their President. At dito lang naman ako madalas tumambay sa tuwing naiiwan nila ako. Sa ilang araw ko nang pananatili rito ay hindi ko pa nakikita ang kanilang President, ang mismong may-ari ng BH though I had seen him on screen and on some video clips.

I had encountered few of BH Entertainment artists when going out the BTS wing pero hanggang doon lang.

Madalas kasi talaga ay nasa mirror room lang ako. BTS' schedule was tightening even more. Naimbitahan na rin sila sa ilang awarding ceremonies at nakapag-uwi ng ilang awards na sobrang ikina-proud ko. May mga fan meetings na rin silang dinaluhan.

My heart had sank at the sight of Jimin smiling at those fan girls, holding their hands and letting them touch him! Even I hadn't done those to him!

I was humming a certain song out of the rhythm through the set of earphones stuck in both of my ears. Inaayos ko ang mga gamit ng BTS and was putting them all in place. I was too engulfed of the music that I didn't pay attention to everything. Halos mapatalon ako sa gulat nang makaramdam ako ng matitigas na mga brasong pumulupot mula sa likod ko, broad chest leaned on my back and hot breath fanning my face. Something like caramel soothing my nose.

Instinctively, I immediately pulled away from it and stood up. Naihagis ko tuloy ang tinutupi kong T-shirt ni Taehyung. Nagulat ako nang makita ko ang antok na antok na mga mata ni Yoongi na nakatingala sa akin at nakaluhod.

"Y-Yoongi!" I uttered, shocked. Hindi ako makapaniwalang ginulat niya ako ng ganoon. Matatanggap ko kung si Taehyung dahil likas na clingy sa akin ang lalaking iyon at mahilig mangyakap… pero si Yoongi?

My heart went wild while realizing what he just did to me. Niyakap niya ako…

"Did I startle you?" aniya sa mahinang tinig habang tamad na nakatingala sa akin, naka-awang ng bahagya ang mga labi at parang wala lang sa kaniya ang ginawa niya.

I bit my lower lip. Niyakap niya ba ako? Si Yoongi? Si Min Yoongi? What's happening to him?

Damn, Yoongi! Pagkatapos mong bulabugin ang buong pagkatao ko sa mga weird mong ikinikilos ay dinadagdagan mo pa?! Do you really want me to die in insanity?

That was the weirdest thing he did so far. Hindi ko alam na tatahimik-tahimik siya ng ganoon pero may itinatago pala siyang kawirduhan sa katawan. And I was thankful that he did it with the absence of his friends! Hindi ko alam ang gagawin kapag nakita nila iyon, lalo na si Jimin. Baka isipin nilang hindi pa nga tapos ang isyu sa pagitan namin ni Jimin, may kababalaghan na sa pagitan namin ni Yoongi.

Not that I liked him doing those! As long as possible, umiiwas ako sa attachment sa kanilang lahat. The more I strayed, the I easier I could leave. At sana lang itigil na niya dahil hindi na ako mapalagay.

"Miss, we will send you home first. Since Bang PDnim finally gave us a two-day off, we will go home after this day," ani RM sa akin habang pinupunasan ang sarili gamit ang kaniyang face towel. They were taking a water break from practicing.

I heard they were practicing because they would be having a tour outside the country, in Japan specifically, kumbaga, additional ito at karugtong noong kakatapos lang nilang world tour at ito na ang huling tour nila bago sila mag-comeback.

"We're going home?" I asked him in a joyful voice. I couldn't hide the obvious happiness in my voice. Tinakpan ko ang bibig ko dahil sa kahihiyan. Ayaw kong isipin ng leader ng BTS na hindi ako nasisiyahan dito, pero gusto ko na talagang umuwi dahil gusto kong makapagpahinga na sila.

He smiled . "I supposed…" His dimple on his left cheek was showing and his eyes were missing.

"Misseu!" Suddenly, from somewhere, Taehyung jumped me a tight hug. Kahit na basang-basa siya ng pawis ay napakabango niya pa rin, nanunuot sa ilong ko ang natural niyang tsokolateng bango.

I felt like I was being hugged by a koala.

I chuckled because of what he did. Ngunit hindi pa man siya nagtatagal na nakakapit sa akin…

"Yah! Ow, ow! Yah, Jiminie!" He was already being pulled away from me.

Mula sa nakasimangot na si Taehyung ay nagtungo ang mga mata ko sa taong nanghila sa kaniya palayo sa akin. Sinalubong ako ng seryosong mga mata ni Jimin. Hawak niya ang likod ng shirt na suot ni Taehyung para ilayo sa akin. He was like a bottle that was about to pressurize…

Bago pa man mag-init ang lahat ay pumalakpak na ang kanilang choreographer para pabalikin sila sa pagpa-practice na agad naman nilang sinunod.

I couldn't help but pity them and admire them at the same time. Pagod na silang lahat pero sige pa rin, kumbaga walang sukuan.

Hindi na ako nagawang ihatid ng BTS pauwi ng bahay. They were busy as it was and I could go home alone, well thanks to their driver who drove me home. Sa totoo lang kasi, hindi ko pa kabisado ang Seoul. How would I know if I didn't even go out?

I warmly welcomed the home I had gone missing from though I had only been here for weeks before. Kahit na ilang araw lang akong nanatili rito at mas tumagal ang pag-stay ko sa BH Entertainment building ay hindi ko pa rin maidi-deny na na-miss ko itong bahay.

My secret den with the BTS.

Nag-init ang pisngi ko sa naisip kong iyon.

Agad akong nagtungo sa kuwarto nina Jimin at Taehyung para rin sana bigyan ito ng warm welcome pero napahinto ako pagkabukas ko ng pinto. I was more surprised rather than welcomed.

Gone was the old furnished room. The room totally transformed into a different room. Gone were the two ocean blue beds and got switched with a single feminine white velvet bed placed in the middle of the room. Puno ang puting kama ng iba't ibang klase ng mga stuffed toys, teddy bears that fit a four-year old girl. Maging ang mga kurtina ng kuwarto ay napalitan, from blue curtains to pink curtains. The walls were painted in pastel pink too, disregarding the old ocean blue wall in my memory.

The only thing that didn't change are Jimin's and Tan's individual closets. Nadagdagan ng mas maliit at kulay pink na closet na nakapuwesto sa gilid ng pinto. It was a cabinet-like closet actually. Kahit ang mga gamit na nasa bedside table ay puro kulay pink. The lamp, the flower vase that had a single red rose, the mini book racks and the clock were all shaded in pink.

I was in the middle of getting touched but I remembered, if these were all for me, why color pink of all things? Ang tanging naiibang kulay lang sa mesang iyon ay ang mint green kong MacBook. Ang pares ng house slippers na nasa ilalim ng kama ay kulay pink din at may design na trolls, that little pink character in the Trolls movie.

Si Princess Poppy.

Wow. They all turned this room into some girly kikay's room. Sana tinanong man lang nila ako, 'di ba? Sinong makakatulog sa ganitong klase ng kuwarto?

Lumabas ako ng kuwarto. Mag-aalas-dos pa lang ng tanghali. We had lunch first before they sent me here but because of too much pink, I felt hungry. I didn't hate pink pero kasi hindi ako kabilang doon sa mga babaeng mahilig sa pink. I like greens, mint green at that. That was why I liked BMO of The Adventure Time. I loved both Tinkerbell and Peter Pan. I liked Hulk among the other Marvel heroes. I preferred Buttercup among the Power Puff Girls.

Nagtungo ako sa kusina. When I thought, it was only the room that they had put an effort into, I was wrong. Dahil pagpasok ko ng kusina ay sa refrigerator agad natuon ang paningin ko. It had one sticky note pasted on it. Nilapitan ko ito at kinuha ang note.

'We heard girls like sweets. Enjoy! - BTS.'

I read what was in the note that was written in a not so beautiful and messy penmanship. Halatang sulat lalaki. Binuksan ko ang refrigerator. I gasped as I saw that they filled it with different kinds of chocolates, cakes and candies. Halos wala ng espasyo para sa ibang mas masusustansyang pagkain.

Nevertheless, nagdiwang ang mga mata ko. I might not be like other girls who liked pink colors, but just like most of the girls, I would get butterflies flying in my stomach at the sight of sweet treats. Take that from a girl who didn't like leaves… vegetables.

I excitedly tucked my right hand inside the refrigerator and tasted one of the cakes' icing. I giggled at the soft taste on my mouth. At this case, I didn't care installing more calories and carbs inside my body. Sweets were irresistible! The boys were so thoughtful!

I couldn't stop myself from sticking my hand inside and tasting another kind of sweet. This time, I pinched on the bar of a certain chocolate. Agad ko itong isinubo. I closed my eyes as I felt its softness melting inside my mouth. Matapos ang limang beses na pagtikim sa mga pagkaing nasa loob ay tumigil na ako. I could piglet all that the next day, after the next day and after the third day.

I guessed, they still planned on keeping me here longer.

Nagising ako dahil sa mabigat na bagay na nakadagan sa may bandang hita ko plus I could smell a strong scent of steel alcohol reeking from somewhere. Kinusot ko ang mga mata ko nang buksan ko ang mga ito. I even groaned because I couldn't move due to that heavy thing on top of my legs.

I panicked when I saw one bare muscled leg on top of mine. Nilingon ko ang tabi ko at nakita ko ang mahimbing na natutulog na si Taehyung. His mouth was slightly gaped and was breathing peacefully. The alcohol was coming from him plus his leg was heavy.

Gosh, I was sleepy! Uminom ba ang lalaking ito?!

Dahan-dahan kong inalis ang binti ni Taehyung mula sa pagkakapatong sa akin at binahagian siya ng kumot ko. I was still too sleepy. I could hear noises from the outside so malamang gising pa ang iba. I rolled on the side so that my back was facing Taehyung. Muli akong bumalik sa tulog pero hindi pa man lumalalim muli ang tulog ko ay nakaramdam na agad ako ng matitigas na mga brasong nakapulupot sa akin.

And I could feel myself floating.

Déjà vu!

I could smell the familiar scent of the man in my dreams nights ago, only this time, it was mixed with steel alcohol. Nevertheless, I couldn't stop myself from getting addicted. Gusto kong makita ang mukha niya but I was too afraid to wake up from this dream yet. And so, I just clung on the smell, clutching at his clothes, as I sulked deeper his embrace. I felt a vibration on his chest upon his laugh.

Remind me that this was just a dream when I woke up tomorrow.

I woke up due to the direct sunlight from the opened window striking right through my closed eyes. Inangat ko ang isa kong kamay para kusotin ang mga mata ko. When I finally adjusted, I opened my eyes only to get confused because of the familiar room I was in. Surely, the room looked familiar but this wasn't the room of Taehyung and Jimin. Dahil wala namang bintana ang kuwarto ng mga ito.

Bumangon ako habang humihikab. The room was differently more neat than Taehyung and Jimin's room. May standee ng isang life-size Iron Man sa gilid ng isang kama. Two closets. Halos pareho lang ng dating interior ng kuwarto nina Jimin. Nakita kong mag-aalas-otso pa lang base sa bilog na orasang nasa mesa. Bumaba ako ng kama at nagtungo sa banyo.

Saan naman kaya natulog sina J-Hope at Jungkook kung dito ako natulog? Did I sleepwalk?

Wala akong matandaang dito ko piniling matulog. I still could remember after washing myself last night that I delved into my new bed excitedly. At saka, anong oras naman kaya dumating ang BTS? Hindi na nila ako naabutang gising kagabi.

Pagkatapos kong maghilamos ay sinuklay ko ang hindi lalampas sa balikat kong buhok. Lumabas na ako ng kuwarto matapos kong gawin ang mga ginagawa ko tuwing umaga.

I gasped as I saw the messy living room. Empty bottles of beers on top of the table, there were few on the ground. Mga balat ng chips. Mayroon ring nagkalat na mga chips sa carpeted floor. And… six members of BTS scattered messily around the living room and were all sleeping heavily.

Si Yoongi ay nakahiga sa long couch. Si J-Hope ay pinagkasya ang sarili sa single couch. Si Jin at RM ay parehong nasa ground. Jungkook was leaning his head on the table while sitting on the carpeted floor, still holding one empty bottle. I found Jimin laying behind the long couch covered with a thick blue sheet. Taehyung was missing and I didn't know where he was.

I shook my head as I tsk-ed exasperatedly. Kuhanan ko kaya sila ng litrato at i-post online, paniguradong matutuwa ang mga tao sa bagong issue na pagchichismisan nila. Makakalimutan na nila ang issue namin ni Jimin.

Tsk. Messy, messy Bulletproof.

Dumiretso na lang ako sa kusina. Hm, what could I do for those drunkards? I couldn't cook. Again, that was just one of the many many many things I was not good at. Sadly, hindi ako nabahagian ng galing sa pagluluto ng nanay ko. I opened all the cupboards I saw, maging ang mga wall closets pero wala talaga akong alam na puwedeng lutuin maliban na lang sa cup noodles na lalagyan lang naman ng mainit na tubig.

No, I couldn't fry eggs, takot ako sa mantika. And don't ever ask me if I had ever tried maneuvering stove because I hadn't. Oo na! Napaka-talented ko na!

In the end, naupo na lang ako sa stool at tumulala sa stove. Bakit ba kasi hindi ako marunong sa maraming bagay? What was so scary about frying? At saka, paano ba kasi magluto ng soup? Tubig? Should I boil water? Then what's next? Should I put seasonings? Ingredients? Paano ba kasi? Hays! Bahala na! Hindi ako magluluto! There was no way I would put this kitchen to danger just because I wanted to cook for them!

Ayaw ko pang sumalang sa korte, being the sinful defendant, sa karsong Arson. At nakakahiya sa title nina Papang at Kuya Haynes na parehong lawyer.

Magtitimpla na lang ako ng kape. Nasaan ang mga kape? Nang mahanap ko ang kape ay nagtimpla na ako. Hindi ko alam ang mga hilig nilang kape kaya nag-settle na lang ako sa iisang type. Black coffee. May nakita kasi akong garapon ng black coffee kanina.

I would often drink instant coffees, dahil oo, hindi rin ako marunong magtimpla kapag hindi instant kaso walang instant dito, so bahala na talaga sila. I prepared the mugs with black coffee on the table before I went out of the kitchen to wake the messy boys up.

Without even knowing how those coffees tasted.