Trigger warning you're welcome :)) Enjoy

Tonight's show, two months into tour, does not go so well. For the whole time they're on stage, Remington can't stop thinking about anything the food he had earlier. He tries to focus on the lyrics and the music, and on the people singing his words with him, but all he can think about is what he ate. He gets through the show without anyone noticing his internal battle.

He manages to get into the shower before anyone else, and locks the door. Remington turns on the water and undresses. Before he even really thinks about it, Remington is kneeling over the plug in the shower and sticking his fingers down his throat, tearing up. He isn't sure if he's crying because it hurts, or because he is so disappointed with himself for having no self control. Remington gags hard and he is almost certain someone will have heard, though doesn't stop.

"Remington!" Emerson shouts through the door, and the boy looks at his fingers. "Open the door!"

"Fuck off!" Remington shouts back, voice rough.

The drummer knocks on the door. "You're doing it again, aren't you?"

"Go away!"

"Open the door!"

Remington stands up. "Fucking piss the fuck off!" He washes the puke down the plug and stands under the warm water. "You don't fucking understand what it's like!"

"Then help me to understand."

The boy turns the dial until the water is cold. "Leave me alone!" What he wants to say is I want Andy, but he convinces himself that it's stupid, that he can deal with this on his own.

Emerson can hear his pain and it breaks his heart. "I want to help you, Remington."

"I don't need help!"

"Yes, you do!"

Remington is shivering. "Wow, thanks for all the moral support! I really appreciate it!"

"Just open the door."

"NO!"

"What the hell is all this shouting?" Andy asks, stepping onto the bus. Him and Sebastian were collecting everything from the green room.

Emerson turns around. "Remington's locked himself in the bathroom," he says "he's making himself sick again. I heard him gag."

The two who just entered the bus look at eachother, worried. "Shit, really?"

Nodding at Andy, Emerson steps away when the man approaches the bathroom door. "He won't talk to me."

Andy knocks softly. "Remington, sweetheart, it's me. Can you let me in?"

"NO! FUCK OFF!"

"Rem-"

The singer throws a bottle of shampoo violently down. "EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP! I DON'T NEED YOUR FUCKING HELP!" He turns the shower off and steps out.

"Sweethe-"

With a scream, Remington pulls the little towel rail from the wall, and throws it into the shower with another scream. "FUCK OFF! FUCK OFF! FUCK OFF! FUCK OFF!" He punches the door.

The lock rattles at the impact and Andy kicks the door, opening it. He slips in and closes it before anyone sees the boy.

Remington is shivering and wide-eyed. "Go away," he says, wrapping his arms around himself. He doesn't want to admit that he needs help. Sometimes admitting it feels worse than just hurting alone.

"Sweetheart, it's okay," Andy tries, but is interrupted.

"Go away," Remington repeats, louder, "just go away." He rubs his knuckles.

Picking up a towel, Andy covers the younger's shoulders with it, and the boy pulls it tight around himself. "It's okay," he says again, "look at me, it's okay."

"Go away." He opens the door and pushes everyone away. "GO AWAY!" Remington screams, and throws open the door and, with only a towel covering his body, steps out, where nearly everyone from the show is crowding around. Some cheer, some wonder why then hell he's in a towel, and why his eyes are so red. His brothers and Andy chase after him. "I was raped!" He shouts, "and abused, and stabbed in a bathtub in a random hotel!" The fact that people are filming seems to spur him on, though he doesn't know why.

"Remington! Remington, no, stop," Sebastian begs, trying to pull him back into the bus.

"Fuck off!" The singer pushes him away. "I'm anorexic! I cut myself! I make myself sick because-"

"Remington, stop!"

"DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME!" He shoves his husband away hard, one hand holding the towel in place. "I make myself sick because it feels good! I tried to overdose more than once! I nearly killed myself by taking diet pills! I am a fuck up! I fuck up everything! No one should have me as an idol! NO ONE!" Again, he shoves Andy away. "I collapsed outside a venue because I stopped eating! I said it was unintentional but it wasn't! I was starving myself! I still am! I try not to, but I can't fucking stop!" Andy steps in front of him, worried he's going to drop the towel, and tries to calm him down, and Remington hits him. "I RUIN EVERYTHING!" The distressed singer screams, and falls into Andy with a loud, broken sob.

Andy holds him, making sure the towel doesn't drop to the ground. "Alright, it's okay," he soothes, "you're okay. Just listen to my heart."

Remington stumbles and sobs into Andy. "I'm sorry!" He cries, "I'm so sorry!"

"Breathe, sweetheart, let's get you inside. You've got nothing to be sorry for." He looks at Sebastian, who gets his arms around the boy, and the two of them help him up the steps and into the bus.

Sebastian goes back out once Remington is safe in bed with Andy, and does his best to diffuse the situation. "Please please delete videos of photos of the past five minutes," he says, "what you witnessed is not a way for any of you to gain attention on social media. Respect Remington, and our band, and delete everything. Thank you for coming tonight." He gets back into the vehicle, and locks the door. They wait twenty minutes, until the crowd has died down, and then pull out onto the main road.

In the bunk, Andy holds Remington to him and rubs his back until he goes to sleep, red-faced and sad-eyed. He knows that there will be people who won't delete the videos. For some, the chance to expose something personal about Remington is more enticing that the idea of keeping Remington's personal information safe. He knows that people will cut the video to make Remington seem like the bad guy. He knows people will tear the singer apart because of it. And no one can stop them.

User 1: WATCH THIS!!!!! @remingtonleith hitting @andyblack . He isn't the victim, he's the abuser. .

User 2: THIS IS NOT THE FULL VIDEO!!!! I WAS THERE!!!! REMINGTON WAS HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN! HE IS NOT AN ABUSER! TAKE THIS DOWN!!!!!!!