Seans pov.

I just sat and cried and thought of what my life could've been if I had a normal family... if I was normal. God now the memories come to me... good and bad.

Good flashback

"I love you jack I'll never hurt you," Darren said as he cuddled me under our tree. I felt as if nothing could ever harm me. He made me feel wanted. We had just carved D+S into the tree to mark our ever lasting love.
Until he changed.
From then on he just used me.
As a toy that he could play with at his will.

Bad flashback

He was chasing me. I ran into the forest as I could usually hide near our tree. And I heard him shouting." COME OUT YOU LITTLE FUCKING EMO FAG," Darren was different but when I thought he was gone I ran to the bus stop and waited for a bus to my aunts house... she knew of what was going on. I got on the bus and that's when I realised that this is the bus Darren gets on... I hold my breath as it was too late to get off. It was packed. I got pushed into the wall by someone. They groped me as I pleaded to be let go of.
Until I heard him say.
"This is what you want you whore,"
It wasn't what I wanted but I had to suck it up and deal with it... if not he would hit me.
I was forced to get off at his stop and i was pushed into his house... his mum was usually on business trips.
         Then       he proceeded to rape me
He had done this many times before.
In the school toilets.
In my own house.
At a hotel if his mum was home.
Any where really.
I hated it.
It sent me into fits of depression.
He always called me disgusting or mean names like...
Baby
Kitten
Fag
Emo
Slut
Whore
Fat
Bitch
He wasn't even drunk.
He was just a bad person.
In fact I was lucky that I got away from him at the party.
I got lucky
Thanks to mark watching me.
You know he thought he was being discreet... he wasn't... but i was fine with it.

Nobody else knows about me and him.
But if I don't do what he says he will tell the school and my dad that I'm gay.

I'm trapped.

Used.

Abused.

I'm just a toy.

Never to be loved and never to
be heard

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I thought that this would be a cool concept. Just comment and tell me what you think... btw this story might contain smut but not alot I'd like to know if people are okay with that cos I can easily skip it. Also there will be trigger warnings next time cos idk if it effects people but just for safety