Does anyone feel lonely some times?

Even if we have friends we are lonely sometime of the day.

Like now, I am alone in my room, music blasting, and writing on Wattpad.

Some people want to be alone. Some dont. Whatever mood I'm in is the one in in. Right now, I'm in the first.

I want to be alone cause at my house, the family time never ends.  Especially on Fridays. You may be alone for a few hours ,maybe a few minutes. It all depends on my parents mood.

If they want to watch stuff like Longmire and Vikings, then they send my sister to the guest bedroom and they send me to my room to listen to music or play on my computer.

I'm fine with this.

But if I'm at school with all my friends, I don't wanna be alone.

I wanna be with my friends, laughing and hanging out with them and being stupid. God I miss being stupid.

Don't ask.

Anyways, when I hangout with my friends, I feel everything else on my mind disappear.

I'm so focussed on my friends that everything that was on my mind disappears. Things like wondering if I flunked my reading test is wiped out.

No madder how hard I try not to forget things ( cause sometimes I need to memorize important things ) I always forget it.

So yeah.

When I am alone like right now, everything comes back. It's hard to sort this kinds of things. One time I got so many thoughts at once, I seriously had to lay down on my bed and listen to music for like 20 minutes just to calm down.

Writing and reading and music is my only escape from being alone.

So here we are.

Some days like  Wednesday when my best friend is high as frick, I laugh so hard that my stomach aches for a few days. Some times I laugh so little that even the best jokes won't do a thing.

Now that Wednesday is in my mind , all the good times during that day came flooding back.

Me, my best friend , my other friend and a few other friends were laughing so hard that our stomachs were hurting badly. And one friend stomach was already hurting so that was and for her.

I miss being stupid.

So yeah.

Ok so now if you'll excuse me for a while so I can remember all those good times while I can

Bye
bananag11