I'm on a rollercoaster ride.

Never ending.

Never stopping.

This rollercoaster 

on flames that burns my skin.

It speeds up 

reaching speeds faster than light,

but this rollercoaster

in all it's blood stained glory

managed to slow down 

giving me time to take a breath.

This is not the end.

This rollercaoster

shifting to free-fall

falling from a sky scraper,

dipping me down 

into hot fudge,

letting me slide from side to side

in a dance of enjoyment,

giving me no chance 

to leave the crazy ride.

Insanity.

Unstoppable.

Unbelievable. 

Confusion. 

When will this ride end?

When can I be released

from a long ride of suffering,

of emotional pain.

Up.

Down.

Over.

Under.

Sideways.

Upsidedown.

Reverse.

And all over again.